My second Mushroom experience

[Harikrishnan]

So here in kodaikanal people give mushrooms by dozen and i didnt had a weighing scale to weigh so eat close to 9 fresh bullet. last year i had around 2gm of mushroom and it was beautiful, everything felt magical not much visuals but felt connected with nature and i was hugging trees and crying and all. so i was expecting same. i eat less than last time and eat it without any honey or anything. for 1hr i didnt felt anything and i thought like seller cheated me. It was night and i was tired by the travel and climate was so cold and i was shivering so i went to bed. suddenly something hit me, i was not shivering anymore. i knew it was coming and i closed the eyes and suddenly all the visuals came it was like monument valley game trailer leo posted in the blog and i was excited. I was happy and excited at same time my mind was like moving very fast jumping from one visuals to another. for 1hr it went like that.  I was still lying in the bed and suddenly my lower back began having pain, i concentrated on it and pain began to grow more felt beautiful, visuals still came and this time of people i know i heard my mom lovingly calling my pet name and i was in tears . I forgave her for having expectation in me to get good life and all. Then my lovers came, it was good at first then people i dumped came and my lower back began to hurt more, i was screaming sorry to them. i felt like energy was rising in my root chakra and swadisthana  chakra and mind said lot of sexual energy stored , and i flipped my legs apart and was shaking and felt like freeing stored energy..

Somehow  ''Let it be" phrase came and i kept on saying let it be this suffering is beautiful. Then a big man came it was like a spiral thing and said you can know people's problem and future or i think it said ask me about your loved ones and i will tell there problems. people i know faces came and i was changed to them(literally) and this spiral thing said the problems they are facing. My back hurt more as i was changed to people i know. Then that spiral thing went. My body began to move uncontrollably in bed i was twisting awkwardly like i was possessed  it hit he me then that i was not control of anything in life, i dont even have control of my body to. i kept on saying let it be. i was christ for sometime i was taken to crucifixion and when nails where put to my body i kept on saying let it be and this is beautiful. Then i was a dog who was dying, a scorpion trembling in pain. My lower back was still in ache and i somehow managed to bring body straight. suddenly in lower back energy started pumping and was moving up, my chest also went up with it i was breathing high, it felt like i was going through my previous death, then My body went to some awkward position and i farted. Oh so enlightenment is a big fart my mind said  after sometime pain in back began to go away, still had visuals.  After a hour or so everything began to be normal. The pain and suffering i felt was beautiful i really enjoyed it. 

Few thing i notice is my mind kept on asking questions and was answering it during whole experience is it like that? . Other thing is did shroom fucked my energy system or chakras, because last night in my sleep i felt like something was penetrating my back it felt really painful. 

Two days after the trip i feel like lost, no motivation to do anything. (But then again writing this experience made me think otherwise)

[PsiloPutty]

Sounds beautiful and productive. No, I don't think you messed anything up at all. Perfectly normal to feel a little blue and lost for a few days after a trip. Be with the feeling of melancholy and allow it to be there. It will go.   

[Harikrishnan]

Thank u