A Place For My Head

[TheAvatarState]

"I watch how the moon sits in the sky in the dark night
Shining with the light from the sun
And the sun doesn't give light to the moon assuming
The moon's gonna owe it one."

Does this not remind you of the famous Zen quote: “A flower does not think of competing with the flower next to it. It just blooms.” ? I grew up listening to Hybrid Theory by Linkin Park, and although their songs probably gave me more aangst and rage and general negativity than I needed, I can look back and see the beauty in their creation. How interesting their journey and saga was. How they explored so many artistic avenues, and yet ended back full circle...There is Truth everywhere I look! Whenever I stop to contemplate human history, for any length of time, the connections will start to unfold before my very eyes. Lines of development emerge upon the pages like lines on a battlemap, trajectories seemingly chaotic yet upon zooming out, as if by a guiding hand, perfectly harmonious. Fascinating.

On thinking about what a good title for this journal would be, I knew I wanted something different, something creative and dear to me. Why? Because my main goal is to express my authentic self. That's goal #1. You see, something about Leo's latest videos really struck a chord within me. Ever since his "Live Awakening Experience," there has been a recurring theme I've noticed: Authenticity. He even admitted he was shown that in his non-dual awakening. And as an observer of his work, his emphasis on Authenticity.org has really payed off in a noticeable way. You can see it in the way he carries himself, in the way he talks, and even in the way he has visibly freed his emotions and any lingering strands of self-reference or checking. For instance, in his latest video on Understanding Ego Backlash, he opened up about how he's had a cold, how he really didn't want to shoot the video, and how he was experiencing a rough ego backlash himself. This isn't something he's ever done--at least to that level--and the video was all the better for it. Authenticity is fucking striking when encountered, and it's not something even the best con artists and actors can really pull off. But what hit me so hard about Leo's video was the realization that I haven't been authentic my whole life. What a slap in the face that was! I am actually deathly scared of what people think of me. It has been a neurosis, a disease that has plagued my whole life. I honestly didn't even realize that being authentic was possible! I just saw everyone else bullshitting and wearing masks, so I assumed that was just how life was. Witnessing Leo's journey to authenticity has given me the courage to try to cultivate that myself.

My journal has no aims other than this; to serve as a creative outlet and to allow me to gain comfort in expressing and sharing my thoughts and emotions with others. Of course there's this added layer of you not knowing who I am. Of course I'm just typing at a keyboard and not actually speaking, not getting that feedback. But this may be a good step for me; I'll try it for a while and see how it goes. 

The "creative outlet" component was huge as well. I feel the need to create something that I've never felt before. The insights and recontextualizations are coming to me at the speed of perception, it seems. I simply can't keep it bottled up any longer. And not only that, it feels meaningless to write them in a personal journal that ultimately no one will ever read... It's actually really interesting I just said that, because I'm currently reading Meditations by Marcus Aurelius, which is essentially his personal journal as Emperor of Rome that he fully intended that no one would ever read. Think about how much impact that book has made! What a fucking tragedy it would have been if his work had remained lost and buried... This journal is probably going to be really weird, oddly poetic, with strange references, spellings, and nuggets of integral thinking. Let me tell you upfront: my mind makes connections where there probably aren't any connections. But I wouldn't have it any other way. It's a really interesting way to look at the world.

If you see any word miss-spelled, then most likely it was made on purpose as a joke or reference. Scratch that, I am so sorry, English not my first language, many apology for future error. So sorry... 

I feel like no one else (but my close friend who I do this with) understands the beauty in how malleable this living organism of language really is. People think it's static, as in, here's this holy book called the dictionary, look it up. HA! It's all just symbols, and it constantly evolves and shifts. So if you can misspell a word in an informal setting (so as not to confuse it with another) to bring more enjoyment, make a reference, or even bring rise to a double meaning, then why not do it? Stop taking this shit so seriously, and then you can really start having fun. The world is a meme, guys. The world is also your playground. And do you not make the rules? Are you not THE RULE yourself? Hell, you're probably sitting on your meditation cushion, blissed out of your mind, and thinking, "You had me at 'you'." How right we are...

Anyways, I need to wrap up and go to sleep. Wrap up... wrap up this journal entry, or wrap up in blankets to go to sleep? Wrap up--to put a neat little bow tie at the end. To summarize. If you wrap yourself up to go to sleep, then is sleep the summary of life? Of course, we're in a dream right now! The dream within the dream is to make us conscious of the meta understanding. If there wasn't the altered state of being called "sleep" or "dreaming," then wouldn't you get really fucking bored of the sober, wakeful state? Have you ever wondered why we require such a radical change of consciousness on a daily basis, and if you stay up for days on end you'll literally start hallucinating? If you don't get regular sleep, your mental and physical performance plummets like a rock. I HIGHLY recommended watching Joe Rogan's podcast with Mathew Walker #1109 on sleep, it's extremely fascinating and the science will blow your mind. But why is that??? Hmmmm, something to ponder for sure. Good night! And if anyone is reading this, then I wish you the best of luck on your personal journey. There is much more to come...

 

 

[TheAvatarState]

Kind of a revelation I had today: suffering ceases to exist when you become presently conscious and aware of what is happening. Of course we've all heard this before, from the likes of Ekhart Tolle and other various spiritual teachers. But today was different. I went from conceptually knowing and understanding to bringing it in my present experience. For example, I've recently started practicing Wim Hof's method of taking cold showers and doing a breathing technique. Up until now, I didn't really look forward to the showers because I could only anticipate the pain associated with it, and because of that, I found it really hard to actually do it. But today when I took the shower, I focused on being completely present and not resisting any pain that may come. I treated it like a meditation. So guess what? I STOPPED SUFFERING. I DIDN"T EVEN PERCEIVE IT AS "COLD," I ACTUALLY FUCKING ENJOYED IT!!! This was such a big revelation that I started laughing my ass off. 

Look around you. Where's the suffering? Point to it. Can you? No! It doesn't fucking exist guys, it's a mental construction where you remove yourself from the present moment to dwell on the change in state. That's what it boils down to. If you bring in the light of consciousness and full awareness, the suffering ceases to exist. Stop viewing pain as negative, that's bullshit. Make pain something to look forward to (because that's where the real change occurs), and you will stop experiencing pain negatively. You will actually feel more alive from it. More alive than you ever thought possible.

 I also watched some interviews from Impact Theory (great YouTube channel, check them out), and that's what really got me thinking about viewing pain differently. The man who was being interviewed, David Goggins, described how he used pain to flip his life on its head. It was THROUGH the pain of improving himself that he found his enjoyment. It was through the experience of running 120 miles through the desert that he found himself. His true self. His relationship with pain was so counter to mine that it simply blew me away. And of course, that's exactly why he's accomplished so many great things in his life. Pain stops becoming negative when you embrace it and bring awareness to your body in these moments. It's so counter-intuitive to grasp for the ego, because you think pain is inherently negative and you should be scared of it, and no matter how you view it it's still painful. The ego doesn't like to make the distinction between pain and suffering, and will try to disguise these as the same thing. But let me tell you, this may be one of the most important distinctions you could ever make. As I start adding more self-improvement practices, I'll be working to integrate this in my own life. It's an active skill that must be developed and formed into habit. I have no illusions about how difficult this will be... So bring on the ego backlashes! "Can't Hurt Me!"  

[TheAvatarState]

Why would you do anything in life? You can't choose NOT to, because you'll pick up the defacto motivations, which is ultimately unconsciousness, or more specifically, egoic desire, and other people's egoic desires. These all amount to shortsighted stumblings in the dark, and won't in any way be aligned with your True self.

It's exactly how Leo explains metaphysics. There's no such thing as metaphysics-free. You can't decide NOT to partake, because you're going to unwittingly pick up the defacto metaphysics of your culture. So understand that you're going to have reasons, motivations, passions, or higher purposes for doing things, and how you view your actions will determine how high or low of quality those actions will be... I hope you're starting to see how important the FOUNDATION of your beliefs and morals is. In fact, the strength of your life depends on it.

[TheAvatarState]

Now that I've pondered it more, I have something to add to my revelation on suffering. Rupert Spira describes it clearly here:

Suffering arises when you IDENTIFY with your emotions, and include them in your sense of "I." "I am happy. I am sad." It turns out that these are completely false assumptions. You are not your feelings. What you really are is the background presence or consciousness, and the thoughts and feelings come and go, wash over us, but the consciousness is what remains. You may experience sadness, but you are not the sadness. You don't have to let it control you. Counter-intuitively, identifying with your emotions actually locks them in your body, and stops you from fully feeling and releasing the energy! Rupert describes this in the most simple and direct way possible... it was a joy to watch, and it just solidified what I already knew. This video is so powerful!

This insight is like the second pillar in my understanding of suffering. The first, what I described a few days ago, was the conscious practice of awareness. You tap into peace and calm, your true state. Wait, perhaps these insights should be flipped?? The 1st pillar is the self-inquiry, understanding that your identification with feelings is the root cause of your suffering. It's a nasty paradigm. The 2nd pillar should be the conscious practice of awareness. 1st pillar = theory. 2nd pillar = practice and execution. They compliment each other. And you must learn both to successfully free the mind.

Today, Leo posted a video titled, "Spiral Dynamics - Areas of Application." I loved it because it really got me thinking. It became extremely clear to me just how important spiral dynamics is! And how lost in Maya society seems without it. Of course we have NATURALLY been evolving up the spiral since humans have existed, but it has been SLOW. There are STILL parts of the world at stage purple/red! Those stages emerged 10's of thousands of years ago! We have even witnessed a particularly large chimpanzee society start to evolve from purple to red. They've become ultra alpha-male dominant and are resorting to cannibalism to solve social conflicts:

So a relatively small, but still significant part of the human race hasn't evolved much past fucking chimpanzees. That's shocking. Basically the only thing separating us from apes are some basic social structures and an intricate web of symbols we use to communicate.

So here's the reality cheque: society at large is still in the Dark Ages. BUT, here's where it gets interesting: human evolution has been rapidly accelerating since the end of the historical Dark Ages. Humans never went past Blue (except for a handful of Turquoise spiritual figures) until the 1700's (eh, maybe the Renaissance could be considered orange?). Think about that. Now the majority of societal impact is Orange. Green basically didn't exist until the 1960's and now we have entire countries at Green!

But here's the problem: this acceleration is only happening in pockets around the globe. This progress isn't trickling down to Africa, the gap is just getting bigger and bigger. Of course it hasn't! That's because the magic happens at Yellow, when a significant percentage of societies have adopted a spiral perspective. Well, this is quite alarming, because even considering the acceleration of our evolution, we're not going to get to that place for at least another 50-100 years. Realistically, we could very well destroy the planet and ourselves before that happens. If our current widespread neuroses continue for another hundred years, I'm certain there will be catastrophic damage. What makes me certain is my awareness of all the technological advances looming in the near future, and us lacking the consciousness to handle these tools properly.

Let me explain further. We have an entire generation addicted to gaming, and they lack the tools to properly handle the addiction. What happens when immersive virtual reality becomes affordable and mainstream? Because it's a technology so pleasurable for our primitive minds (constant sensory overload with no pain or suffering), kids will literally never leave their parent's basement. You think games are addicting now? Just wait... This WILL happen within the next 10 years. VR Porn hooked up to a vibrator or fleshlight, with other sensory feedback? Holy shit, talk about an age of sexually dysfunctional teenagers... While the positive potential for VR is even greater than the negative (especially in the healthcare field), it will really shake up society given our current neuroses.

AI will replace a majority of jobs over the next 15-25 years. Brute fact. Not some, but a majority of currently existing jobs. Eliminated. Now, this gets interesting because that will forcefully cause a shift in society towards Green. All the jobs robots can't do are the ones intimately relating with people. Although it's fascinating to see our own technology move us in the right direction, the fact is that society will be highly resistant to rethinking its core values to align with the shift in AI. The transition will be UGLY, and this will unfortunately catch most people by surprise. Modern marketing is doing no one any favors here...

This is just scratching the surface. There's no doubt about it that humanity is at a giant precipice like it never has before. We're either going to blast up the spiral and everything will (mostly) be great, or we're going to suffer a huge collective ego backlash, possibly regressing our progress for decades. Now this isn't all doom and gloom. I'm not saying we're going extinct or anything. I'm confident we'll survive through this and continue up the spiral in some fashion. I'm just pointing out the very real possibility that all this incoming change will cause a lot of destruction in our own lifetimes. Destruction that could potentially be averted if many yellow/turquoise figures rose to the occasion. That's really the only way I see us attaining the global shift in consciousness necessary to avoid (or at least temper) many of these looming disasters... We don't have several generations left to progress education, it's the current and the next generation that needs to take the leap.

I hope you're still with me, cause this really got profound for me here. I got to the root. What could cause this giant shift in consciousness that I'm talking about? Well here it is: Spiral Dynamics needs to go viral. Ta da! If let's say a billion people were to be properly exposed to this model, it could change everything. Well, a valid objection would be: "How could something like this go viral? Would people even be ready for it?" Well in my own experience, even asleep people find this stuff interesting. If it's taught in a non-judgmental, proper manner, even people in the lower stages aren't triggered by it. You would think they would, but that's not the case. This is because this grand perspective reveals that everyone else around them, whether they're blue or orange or green, still needs a lot of work! So the main issue isn't that it isn't interesting; given the right content, you could make it extremely interesting. The trick is to present it in a way that limits judgment. If not handled with proper, holistic understanding, this information, if made viral, could EASILY be abused by lower stages to point fingers. I see that it could be used as a weapon for the unconscious.

You also might ask, "Has something like this ever been done before?" Well, yes it has! It's happening right now! I implore you to research the impact that monk-turned self-help guru Jay Shetty has had so far:

His life purpose is "Make wisdom go viral." As he's reached over a billion people, I'd say he has accomplished the goal! So the takeaway is that higher-consciousness information can be received extremely well in today's society GIVEN THE RIGHT VEHICLE. You need a likeable role-model figure to deliver the message. That's just because the ego mind needs something to latch onto; you see this time and time again throughout history. Whether you like it or not, lower consciousness people fundamentally buy into the PERSON, not the INFORMATION. Now for me personally, I've mostly transcended that, and even if an old, homeless man told me his take on the meaning of life, I'd inquire and be genuinely interested. I would actually be MORE interested in what he had to say than a successful Green executive, because I love taking on new perspectives. Wisdom is obviously not dependent on one's current circumstances, but I recognize that that's not how most people see it.

So yeah, I'll be contemplating all this stuff in the coming weeks. It's so fascinating to me. Just what would a successful marketing campaign for spiral dynamics look like? What mediums would need to be at play? A movie/documentary (I personally think this could be really effective)? More seminars? Interviews with influential people (and how would you get them on board)? All of the above? Something else I haven't thought of? Of course taking Leo's advice into account, you shouldn't market to everyone. You'd target the green segments of the population first, cater the message to their values (ironically using spiral dynamics to market spiral dynamics), and as that percolated it would trickle down by word of mouth to lower stages. Really make this go viral in a healthy way. I truly believe it's possible! Instilling this type of big picture vision in society would speed up our evolution so greatly, and just might help us to systemically deal with our problems before we poison ourselves further.

Well, that's it for now. Peace.

Edited December 17, 2018 by TheAvatarState

[TheAvatarState]

I had an enlightenment experience last night! WOOO! Even though... it's not "woo"... holy shit words are so fucking silly, aren't they? Let me instead describe a scene from my favorite TV series of all time, and hopefully that will illuminate what the experience was like. I can't think of a better representation.

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On a journey to find the Source of firebending, Avatar Aang and Prince Zuko (the two main characters) meet two ancient dragons long thought to be extinct, Ran and Shaw. Colored red and blue respectively, the dragons symbolize the harmony of duality, the Yin-Yang. They are so wise and mystical that they can read your entire ancestry and mental fortitude on the spot, and will deem whether you are worthy or not to be gifted the secret of the Source. Heavy stuff for a children's cartoon! Well, after much build-up and dancing (don't ask, you'd have to watch the series), the dragons deem them worthy, then proceed to breath majestic rainbow flames in a spiral around them. It's awe inspiring to watch, but the most important part is that it's implied that Zuko and Aang were shown (beyond the mind, intuitively) MUCH more than we as the outside viewer were shown. It's perfectly ambiguous, and all that Zuko can say, with the most awe-struck look on his face, is simply, "I understand."

Out of harmonious duality comes the complete oneness of peace and understanding of awareness. Or, I should say that awareness comes prior to duality, this example is like traveling back to the Source and seeing it was all illusion. That's what my experience kind of was like. It's a no-mind state (as it must be), with a complete awareness of being aware. Unlike my example, there were no rainbow flames, no mythical dragons, no sense of "I." It's just... being. Understanding on a level that cannot be communicated. I completely understand now why it can't be grasped by the mind! There's no "event" really, which is why I think the chase for enlightenment is such a big obstacle for people. It's really simple. Too simple. All I said after the experience was, "That was IT!" "I understand!" Followed by much hearty laughter

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I'm really thankful that I got this so early in my journey! It pains me to see others search for enlightenment their whole lives, never really understanding what it is. "Oh, if I keep doing my practices, it'll just be over that hill! Keep on plodding!" they say to themselves. It pains me so. I have very little practice under my belt, just a few months of researching enlightenment, watching various spiritual teachers, some psychedelics, about a year of consciously studying my ego, and a radically open mind.  

Of course I'm not enlightened, in fact, I'm not sure if there's a definite boundary to be drawn in the sand to make any such claim. It's not a title. I think that's extremely misleading, and nothing more than a ego headtrip. Even though I had this enlightenment experience and I understand what it means IN ACTUALITY, I have a long way to go to integrate this into every day life. To be in that state 24/7 would sure be something else though... That's where I'm headed... To infinity and beyond.

Edited December 19, 2018 by TheAvatarState

[archi]

@TheAvatarState Great to hear, , your IN ACTUALITY resonates with my THIS 

[TheAvatarState]

"Whosoever is delighted in solitude is either a wild beast or a god." - Aristotle

What a powerful quote, I love it! If you can't be happy by yourself, then you'll never be happy. There is no happiness without enlightenment, that is to say, complete acceptance and presence in the present moment, along with the realization that you are God. There is no suffering to be found there. Once you understand that through direct experience like I have, there's no turning back. The reason why this quote is so profound is because only a person who has found his true nature AS GOD can be delighted in solitude!  

I'll leave you with these two complimentary quotes:

The mind is no more in the body than music is in the instrument. -Robert Anton Wilson

The self is no more in the mind than the wind in the trees. - Swami Anandakapila Saraswati 

[TheAvatarState]

Mu.

[TheAvatarState]

Here is the recount of my enlightenment experience I glossed over a few days ago. I felt the need to write a detailed report, not only for myself, but for other self-actualizers on this forum. I'm counting this as my full journal for the day, since that took quite a chunk of time... Enjoy!

 

[TheAvatarState]

While I was watching one of Leo's videos today, he said that passion is an emotional, fire-y thing. I don't know how I got down this train of thought, but I started thinking about the 4 nations from the show Avatar: The Last Airbender.  I thought that if passion was a fire nation thing, then what are the qualities of the other 3 nations? Well, I soon found out that there's a lot of deep wisdom in the four elements of water, earth, fire, and air, and that they're all essential to making a well rounded self-actualizer. Let me try to explain.

The first step in taking the hero's journey is feeling and creating that inner fire. Passion. In the show, the fire nation was ruthless and conquering, however, they were filled with passion and wanted to share their success with the rest of the world. Passion without balance will lead to chaos. The power in firebending comes from the breath, and one channels their chi energy through the limbs to produce fire. It's concentration and execution. What's interesting is that the main reason the fire nation rose to power was because fire is the only element to be produced within, without needing an external source. This provided them with a huge advantage in military combat, and allowed them to easily enslave other benders by taking them out of their native element. There is much to be learned from the fire nation, from their strengths to their weaknesses. All negative aspects aside, sparking that inner flame or passion is key to living a successful life, and that comes from within.

Fire's opposite, water, is powerful to study and practice. Waterbender's movements are based on Tai Chi, dealing with the flow of energy and how to turn weakness into advantage. It is about redirection, or put another way that's more applicable to self-actualization, recontextualization. General Iroh, a rare, wise firebender from the show, studied waterbenders and from that he developed a technique to redirect lightning! It is such a valuable skill to turn pain and suffering on its head, to reframe it, and to realize that was exactly what you needed to make the greatest change. If you think of firebending as a masculine, penetrating energy, then waterbending is the feminine surrender to wherever life takes you. There is validity and great wisdom in both modes of life. There are many references to water being a more feminine element, from it's secondary power of healing, to waterbenders drawing their power from the moon.

Earth is firm and strong; unwavering. For the self-actualizer, think of earth like your steady practices and disciplines. The work. In order to move mountains, you need that solid foundation. A mastery of earthbending is essential for getting any results in life. Without earth, you will have a weak life, for it is only on earth from which all other elements can take form. Your very essence came from the earth! Respect that.

Finally, we get to Air. It is from the airbending philosophy that all the juiciness in life comes. This is spirituality. This is the core of self-actualization. I don't want to go into a lot of detail because it's just so obvious to me. If you haven't already, watch the fucking show! It's brilliant!

In one of the episodes, Uncle Iroh eloquently talks about these qualities in each of the 4 nations. But most importantly, he explains that it is the fusion of all 4 elements into one person, the Avatar, that makes him so powerful. Not just physically a powerful bender, but a powerful leader and a powerful mind. Amazing stuff!

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I'd also like to share another revelation I had about the show a couple months ago. This blew my mind: the colors of the 4 nations roughly match up to the color stages in spiral dynamics! I don't know if the creators of the show had this in mind, but it matches up so well it's freaky.

Let's start with stage red: Fire. The fire nation is textbook red, with a little bit of orange. Matches up perfectly. They are ruthless and they seek to conquer the entire world. They have a traditional fight called the Agni Kai, where two firebenders fight to the death for honor and status. Alpha male dominant. Indoctrinates children to believe that the fire nation is the best nation, and that by conquering the 100-year war, they'll share their greatness with the rest of the world. Red-dominant individual psychology. Very self-absorbed. Low-consciousness.

Next is stage blue: Water. The water tribe is textbook purple/blue with blue values. They were inspired by native American tribes. Communal. They want no part in war, only to defend their tribe. While the southern water tribe is extremely small and mostly purple, the northern water tribe is much more advanced, and thus has social structures that resemble blue. Hierarchy. Looking down on women. Women are not allowed to fight, they are only taught how to heal. No equality. Praying to the ocean and moon spirits, set traditions. Spiritual, but not really in an empowering way.

Next is stage green: Earth. Now this one doesn't fit quite as well in the show, but I think this is mostly due to the damage from the war. The main earth capitol, Ba Sing Se, is a blue city that's transitioning into orange. They have the Ba Sing Se University. If you work hard, you'll be able to move up into the "upper ring" where all the rich people reside. However, the blue roots are struggling for power. There's a lower, middle, and upper ring. The government has strict control on all media output, and mention of the war is not tolerated within the city. "Here we are safe. Here, we are free." Think of North Korea in this respect. That being said, the rest of the earth nation, which is comprised of smaller free towns (we only see them enslaved by the fire nation in the show though), would definitely be more green. They are rural, communal towns. The earth nation as a whole is definitely the most progressive so far.

The last stages are yellow/turquoise: These happen to be the colors that represent the air nomads. The air temples are filled with wise, old gurus. They teach about Chakras and personal development. They are a society that's very mindful of their ecological impact on the world. They live a minimalistic lifestyle. Their main goals are to understand the world and to transcend the ego. This is actually the key to becoming a great airbender. It's all about letting go of your attachments to the world. As far as I know, this is a completely unprecedented portrayal of a society in a children's show. But let me remind you that this is not just a show for kids! I watched it for the first time at age 21 (just a couple years ago), and it completely changed my life.   

[Zigzag Idiot]

I don't KNOW this. But evidence suggests to me when George Harrison, Bob Dylan and Tom Petty  and Jeff Lynn got together and temporarily formed The Traveling Wilburys, on one of their extended weekend get-togethers they smoked something unique and all saw the same thing. Resulting in this song.

 

Edited December 24, 2018 by Zigzag Idiot

[TheAvatarState]

@Zigzag Idiot I'm sorry, but I don't know what that has to do with my journal. I'd appreciate it if comments were only made sparingly, and only constructive or on topic. Thank you. 

[Zigzag Idiot]

1 hour ago, TheAvatarState said:

@Zigzag Idiot I'm sorry, but I don't know what that has to do with my journal. I'd appreciate it if comments were only made sparingly, and only constructive or on topic. Thank you. 

Please excuse me for not explaining myself better.

 I meant it as a right brain abstract thing. I guess, too abstract,,,

In the lyrics of their song they keep referring to the yellow that they see. Connected with their emotional tone.

and other hints in the song.

It was meant to be positive. Didn't aim at all to offend,,,,

Edited December 24, 2018 by Zigzag Idiot

[TheAvatarState]

This paradigm of "existence" (materialism) denies the very foundation of its own existence, which is what it calls nonexistence. It would be wise not to get caught up in that.

[LoveandPurpose]

On 12.12.2018 at 5:16 AM, TheAvatarState said:

So guess what? I STOPPED SUFFERING. I DIDN"T EVEN PERCEIVE IT AS "COLD," I ACTUALLY FUCKING ENJOYED IT!!! This was such a big revelation that I started laughing my ass off. 

haha I had the exact same realization a few days ago. when you really feel the cold, it's just a sensation. the resistance causes the suffering. i also had to laugh  

[TheAvatarState]

reason.

 

Edited January 1, 2019 by TheAvatarState
reason