Enlightenment experience and the 10 ox herding pictures

[Ecocotton]

Yesterday I had an enlightenment experience where I became conscious of what I think was nothingness. I was watching Leo's video, What Is Consciousness, and he was talking about how consciousness can't have any attribute since if it did it wouldn't be able to take on the opposite of that attribute. For example if consciousness was red, or cold, or rough, or smooth, or etherial, or solid, it wouldn't be able to be the opposite of that attribute. If it was red it couldn't be green, if it was smooth it couldn't be rough. So consciousness needs to be able to take on any attribute and therefore it needs to be completely empty of any attributes or properties. Even free of time and space. 

I was watching the video and suddenly my consciousness shifted and I felt like I was Leo, I was looking of a picture of a guy and I was him too, I was everyone I ever knew and also everything around me (all objects), and then I realized what I was was nothingness. So by becoming nothing, I became everything simultaneously. I also felt like that nothingness was what was looking through my eyes. It really felt like awakening from a dream and the term "awakening" is a very accurate description. 

The nothingness was not an idea of nothingness, it was actual nothingness and for that reason it kind of feels like it was magical nothingness since it exists but it still is nothing. It feels like it is beyond existence or non-existence, beyond self and no-self, time and space, colors, or any other attribute. 

I am writing in past tense but I am still conscious off these things that I noticed but it is not present all the time and it can be more or less strong. 

So now I am wondering where this experience/insight stands in comparison to the 10 ox herding pictures and if anyone here on the forum has any reflections on that?

Edited December 3, 2018 by Ecocotton

[purerogue]

I have no clue what they meant when they made thous steps, is it understanding nothingness , or is it embodying nothingness , which would be still just state, experience , as you cant become nothingness . 

[Forestluv]

@Ecocotton I’d consider such direct experience to be a stage three glimpse of the Ox. E.g. a glimpse of the Ox’s tail.

[Ecocotton]

@Serotoninluv Thank you, I need to watch Leo's 10 ox herding pictures again 

[purerogue]

To put it to perspective, you are already nothingness, but you are not nothingness, you can not put finger on nothingness as it is everything and nothing, if you become everything , experience everything ,you will still not be nothingness , as it will be just experience,, it is hard to explain, because it has no logical explanation. 

[Forestluv]

6 minutes ago, Ecocotton said:

@Serotoninluv Thank you, I need to watch Leo's 10 ox herding pictures again 

That would help integrate direct experience with conceptual knowledge.

[Leo Gura]

That is a solid glimpse of the ox's tail.

Good job!

[Ecocotton]

@Leo Gura Thank you so much