First Trip - 75ug 1P-LSD - Sensational love with food

[Mihael Keehl]

First Trip - 75ug 1P-LSD - Sensational love with food

• 50ug + 25ug 1P-LSD

After long periods of consideration I finally decided to try 1P LSD for the first time. I tested the substance with an Elrich Reagent kit and did an allergy test with 10ug two weeks prior, which went great.

At 13:00 o'clock I took 50ug on an empty stomach and layed on my bed in silent darkness (advice from Terence Mckenna). After one hour I started to notice a funny feeling, very similar to a cannabis high. I started giggling a lot about funny/stupid things I thought about, but nothing else happened which surprised me. I didn't felt like meditating at all. After two hours I decided to go for a walk because I got bored laying in my bed. I felt very comfortable in this state because I had some experience smoking cannabis so I had no problem with going outside even though I didn't plan to leave my apartment during that experience which I thought would be much stronger than a cannabis high. Outside I have gotten the idea to document my trip with an audio recording app on my phone so I started making short recordings in which I described my experience.

25ug extra

After the short walk outside I decided to take another 25ug with the hope of turning this very mild trip into something more profound. I took the 25ug and layed on my bed. After some time I got bored again because nothing extraordinary was happening so I decided to eat a little bit. I opened my refrigerator and I saw a few (ordinary) mushrooms. I took one of them and for some reason started staring at this mushroom. It looked very ordinary and at the same time very beautiful and mysterious. I sat on the ground next to the refrigerator and just stared at this mushroom. It felt like the activity of looking at this mushroom was happening on its own as I realized afterwards. I looked at it, smelled it and touched every angel of that mushroom. Slowly I felt into some sort of a light trance of amazement, making sensational love to the mushroom. I had no thoughts, it was just pure perception and amazement. I was saying “wooooow” the hole time because of the amazement of the pure perception of the mushroom. I could not stop myself from experiencing it until I ripped it apart in small pieces. The destruction of the mushroom felt strangely similar to a climax of sexual arousal.

It felt like I destroyed the mushroom with love.

After the mushroom was destroyed I came back from the trance and I asked myself “what the hell was that?” I started laughing about the profound and unexplainable strangeness of the psychedelic experience.

The banana

I went back into my room and felt relatively normal again, just a little bit “high”. I recalled that I wanted to eat something which I completely forgot during the trance so I went back into the kitchen and looked for something to eat. I took a banana and went back in my room. The banana felt on the ground and instead of picking it up normally, I pushed the banana with my left foot on the top of my right foot, kicked it into the air and catched it with my hand. Immediately I was back in a trance of pure amazement because I realized the masterpiece of coordination that I just performed with my foot, hand and eyes. I said “wooow” all the time, sat on the ground and stared at the banana. The texture of the banana was suddenly so extraordinary beautiful. For 5-10 minutes I was starring at the banana with amazement, experiencing it with every sense until I ripped it apart and ate it. 

failed inquiry

Before the trip, I prepared a short list of philosophical questions to think about during meditation. During the trip I noticed that I had no desire to meditate or contemplate at all. It seemed absurd and unnecessary which I found very surprising afterwards. I recall having the thought "what is there to find out anyway? The meanig of life? Who I realy am? What is existance?" That all seemed irrelevant. In the next days as I thought about the trip, I tried to figure out, what caused my sudden lack of interest towards meditation and contemplation during the trip. I am still not sure what the cause of it is, maybe the dose was not strong enough to put me into a contemplative mindset.

What I learned

• it is impossible to imagine what the first psychedelic experience will be like
• it can be strange, indescribable and profound
• I saw what it was like to have an empty mind and to see things (in this case a mushroom and a banana) for what it is without taking it for granted

Questions

• did you had psychedelic experiences whith caused a sudden lack of desire to contemplate or meditate?

[Nahm]

@Mihael Keehl ??? Thanks for sharing! 

[Leo Gura]

@Mihael Keehl What you got there with the mushroom is a little taste of BEING. A tiny taste.

You only skimmed the surface of the ocean that is psychedelia.

Contemplation will come naturally at deeper levels. You have to distinguish between contemplation which is artificial and contemplation which is organic. At higher doses you will be hit with organic contemplations without any need of writing down lists of questions.

What's most important is just genuine curiosity about reality, not a list of questions. The list of questions is good to make, but you do that BEFORE the trip, and you don't look at it during the trip.