cant be content with emptiness

[ground]

18 minutes ago, Jack River said:

I noticed that the self will try and take control.  

The self seems to try and control its way out of dissatisfaction which causes dissatisfaction. A subtle form of resistance. 

Exactly. That is why only seeing the emptiness of 'I' or self dissolves the feeling of dissatisfaction. If effort is directed against the feeling then it's futile.

[purerogue]

2 hours ago, Jack River said:

I noticed that the self will try and take control.  

The self seems to try and control its way out of dissatisfaction which causes dissatisfaction. A subtle form of resistance. 

Same problem I am facing now, I want to keep me and explore more  from its standpoint, but I know that there is no way in hell I am going to be able to always  feel good if I cling to I, no matter how many tricks I have up my sleeves, negativity attracts I  on every corner , does not matter if you get around some corners that makes me suffer, it is inevitable that there will be one that I can't escape  as consciousness itself will send me this hint to spite me.