I Change People To Better The World

[Tancrede Pouyat]

Visioning : Chaos

What is school for ? What do we really learn in school ? What don’t we learn ? Here’s what I did to answer this : I went to school, and noticed things. 4 years from now, I won’t be in school any more, if I were to think about this again then – and I probably will – I guess I would just visualise memories, and notice things again. My point is, are we taught to notice things ? I can easily hear people say “Good students notice things that bad ones don’t, so yeah, we are taught to notice things”. To these people I retaliate, “Are we, though ? … Cause it sure doesn’t feel like it ! It feels more like fit in, memorise processes for how to do things, and do well on the test.”

No. Longer. That’s enough, it’s over, we’re done, I get angry when I see my little brother deliberately trying to fit in, and then being criticised that he has no personality. My idea of chaos is simple, don’t have a process for life. Have habits, have values, have purpose, have meaning, have passion, have love, have growth, have contribution, have vision, have uncertainty, have generosity. School is old, too old, we need new, we need remarkable, we need innovative, we need genius, we need adaptability, and school is too old to be innovative, adaptive, genius, remarkable, or new (yes, old can be new, but not here). When school was invented, the only way to lead people we knew was fear. What are colonies really ? “If you don’t obey, I’ll kill you.“. But now, there’s a new kind of discipline, and that’s Taking. Risks. To. Help. The. World.

I mean, seriously, nobody – nobody – in their right mind would ever do anything to hurt this world, only people who know nothing but fear, and violence, and basically live their lives suffering, and seeing the world as an evil place, that needs to be destroyed.

You choose if you want to live in chaos, or help the world. You choose if you want to live in the old chaos, or the new – better – chaos. And you make that choice every time you choose to not do something because of fear, or to try to make fear go away. Instead of acknowledging it, loving it because it means that you are doing work that’s great, and actually being empowered by this.

Tiny Success : Overcoming Fear

So, I had planned to help my sister with her life, 'cause you know, that's what I do ! I came back from school at noon today, and I was going to spend a good chunk of the afternoon just talking to her and helping her. Funny thing though, my lizard brain just decided, "hey, it's risky, don't make me do it". I did the right thing, acknowledge it, accepted it, and embraced the challenge.

Tiny Failure : Kind of failed to help my sister

So, I blindly followed the instructions of Tony Robbins from his program Creating Lasting Change, and I failed to make a change because of it. I wasn't natural enough, I was too robotic, I would have created change in her only if I would have been more authentic. Looking back at it now, I can say that it impacted the rest of the day, when I was thinking about becoming a Great Leader, that I didn't have any style, no ideas to lead with, just being a boring me-too person. Here's the lesson of the day : be authentic to be remarkable, to be a leader, to be happy, to be great.

Habits

Meditation : I felt at ease today, no anxiety about whether or not I was sitting right, didn't move at all, that was great !

Visualisation : I identify a lot more with my Me Sheet now that I made some changes to it. I completely approve of my new Affirmations, especially the second one "I ship". And I visualised about me giving a talk at a seminar, really connecting with my audience, and being a great strategist, that made me happy.

Dinner : So, I was bored, and then, I used some kind of really weird mechanism in me, which basically consists in recalling where an emotion happens within my body, and then I was happy, just like that. Also, being confronted with what normal people do on a daily basis, I realised that most of what we do in Self-Improvement is just doing the exact opposite thing of what most people do.

Edited April 8, 2016 by Tancrede Pouyat

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Visioning : Our Playground

So, yesterday I introduced my concept of chaos, and today I want to put more depth into what I think is going to happen. Everybody has a playground, if my playground is similar to yours, than that means that how we play is different, and why we play is the same. If you and I have very different playgrounds, but the ways we play are similar, then again, we play for the same reasons. What happens when we don't play for the same reasons ? Can our ways be similar ? Can our playgrounds be similar ? Of course not. And this right here is why our society has been that way, but now, our whys are becoming similar, and of course, society is changing. Take into account the Graves model of psychological evolution, a Green person will never behave the same as an Orange person (although she might have had, before she turned green, but you see my point). And you know I love this because this is what leadership is about, and not just what, but also why we have leaders in the first place. Now, why do we have playgrounds in the first place ? We have those because it's who we are, it's how we do things, and it's what we do. People take on a lifelong journey of personal development because they love themselves, the world, truth, life. People acquire amazing health, great careers, spiritual development, amazing relationships, and on and on, because they do personal development. And people are dedicated to learning how to do those things because it bridges the gap between why and what.

Tiny Success : Tiny Successes

Today, I got my ass moving towards truly understanding what leadership is about, also understood that I still have to figure out more of the 'what, how, and why leadership'. I've also realised that I don't lack creativity, or originality. I've also talked to my mom about this whole business, leadership, Life Purpose thing that I'm starting to undertake, which I hadn't done before. so that was good. I'm going to keep her in the loop, tell her more, get feedback, just get this going.

Tiny Failure : Time

I guess I could have made better use of my time. Yeah, I definitely could have. Overall, it was still pretty good, I'm not beating myself up here, but I think that, what I could do to make things better would be to plan out my day while I'm eating breakfast, think about all the things that I must do during the day, and just do them first. How could I do this effectively ? By taking into account all the important things that are on my mind. Why do I do this ? Because it makes me feel prouder at the end of the day, and because now, after having quit TV, I feel like this is a stepping stone to using my time efficiently.

Habits

Meditation : I feel like the thinking that I do in meditation is highly valuable thinking about my business, my work, my Life Purpose. And yet, I don't take it seriously and I throw it out the window. Interesting.

Visualisation : Today, I visualised about having dinner with my family and discussing my next big project with them, and we had amazing foods, music, and we had this whole master-mind group thing going. Then I was thinking deeply about what we had said, and I applied it into my work. What really characterized today's session was that I went and tried to perceive the scene not just from my perspective but also from everybody else's, which was great.

Dinner : So my dad has decided to lose weight, which I thought was a great opportunity to swoop in here and come with my health advice. And I realised something, they have a status quo that they don't want changed. They don't trust me enough to adopt mine, we lack rapport. He might want to lose weight, but he doesn't do that to live a great life, he does that because external stimuli. That makes me sick, and there we go, we can't work together.

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Visioning : Bravery

I'm a brave person, and you are too. My sister's a brave person, and my cousin is too. Everybody's a brave person. Even before The Change happened, we were all brave, except in a different way. See, back in the early 20th century, and then later in the early 21st century (in the Julian calendar, obviously), we were really brave at making excuses, giving to fear and resistance, listening to our lizard brains. But now, we actually have the bravery to actually put ourselves out there, it's culturally accepted. What is bravery, ultimately ? It's deliberately making the choice to do something that we know is going to bring some kind of suffering. Not making that choice is brave, because it brings suffering as well, whether we like it or not. And so in a sense we're like machines which feel pain and resistance whenever they're not doing what they're commanded to do. Just like that german kid got really angry at his computer because he couldn't play a video game. Well our Higher Selves beat up our Lower Selves as well, and vice versa. Imagine now a world where we actually do the right things, where our higher selves beat our higher selves up, as in "I have a great idea. Dammit. Now I must change the world with it." And then you do. We all do. We need this, more than ever, the world is changing. A world full of leaders, brave enough not just to be leaders, but to change the crazy lone nut into a leader, by following her. Brave enough to recommend things to your friends. Brave enough not to censure yourself because you don't "hurt someone's feelings", when they need it most. Bravery, Perseverance, Purpose, Faith, Self-Regulation, Mercy, Generosity, Connection, Courage.

Tiny Success : Journalling

Today I realised that actually this new journalling habit I'm putting in place is much harder and much more powerful than I imagined. See, I realise that I say a lot of the same words when I don't have anything to say. I realise that keeping it in tight time limits actually forces me to make things short, concise, accurate, tangible, and correct. It disciplines me to ship things that I feel aren't ready. It galvanizes me. Also, it helps me keep things real, it holds my feet to the fire of reality, as some might say (that was useless). Oh yeah and also I made great use of my time today, that makes me happy. I'm definitely advancing in my journey towards fulfilling my life purpose.

Tiny Failure : Delusion

So, for some reason, at times today, I just went into this mode of telling myself I had no creative ideas, even though I clearly do. I deluded myself. I think this was about fear, resistance, whatever you might call it. I need to cut that shit out, and bring myself back on track. As some might say Why did I do that ? Is it like automatic resistance ? The new kind I didn't know about ? I need to cut that shit out, and bring myself back on track !

Habits

Meditation : Not much to say here, it went well.

Visualisation : I visualised humility. I imagined myself in different situations where I would feel great and powerful feelings, which were mostly humility. Why me ? Why not somebody else ? Why not my big brother ? Why not my dad ? Why not my little sister ? Why me ? This is the kind of questions that I just can't answer. Something interesting happened then. I imagined myself reading a book. And I didn't like it, because it could give me the answer to those questions, and put away my sense of humility.

Dinner : I realised that my mother accepts what I do, she just doesn't take it seriously. My father doesn't want his status quo changed, my big sister's just not willing to do the work. But it's only my little sister who rejects what I do. Perhaps because she's in the worst psychological place, which means she's going to be the first one to do that, which is great

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Visioning : Generosity

My sister vacuumed my bedroom, that was a generous act. I decided to do a remarkable product, that was a generous act. My mother went online and tried a new recipe for dinner, that was a generous act. You're reading this, this is a generous act. Leo created a Life Purpose course, that was a generous act. Seth Godin writes on his blog every day, and shares great ideas, this is a generous act. The people at TED share their conferences, this is a generous act. My sister complained about vacuuming my bedroom, believe it or not, this is a generous act. Every thing that we do that creates a change (positive or negative) in somebody else is a generous act. All my life is a generous act, because everything that I do is to help other people. I get up and go to school, because I can't just quit college, I'm preparing myself to work fully on my life purpose, and there you go, a generous act.

Tiny Success : Visioning

Tonight, I went to Leo's Life Purpose course and re-watched his video about Vision, because I felt like I needed to do better visioning in my journalling habit. Now I know what I'm doing wrong, and, every time, I'll try to do my best at visioning. It's a success because it really advances me in my journalling habit, but also in my Leadership works, which is great.

Tiny Failure : Bad Relationship Management

This is something I do too often. They say something to me, I don't see it coming, I don't say anything for just that reason, and then, I go to my bedroom and I answer them back. For example, tonight, my mom yelled at me because she had to do the cooking even though my dad had asked me to "worry about the cooking when you come home from school". I didn't answer back, went to my bedroom and yelled back in my head "I have much more important things to do ! I'm changing the world here ! Stop asking me to do BULLSHIT !". I know I told myself that when my dad had asked me to do the thing in the first place. Next time, I'll tell them I love them, and I'll tell them what's really going on.

Habits

Meditation : I feel I don't sit right, I go to quickly into it and then I can't move any more, I need to put careful thought into how I sit before I get into it, and set the timer on.

Visualisation : About the gym. Taking my Tesla Model S to the gym, sweating and feeling the blood get into the muscles. Then a cold shower, the hyperventilation, the cold cooling down my hot, active body. And then going back home with my girl. Meditating in front of each other, locking eye contact. Then Visualising next to each other, and then Journalling next to each other. All along, this sense of team work, and companionship, feels great.

Dinner : I told my mom I liked her food, it's like she had completely forgotten all about the fact that I didn't do the cooking, she did. Something interesting because it shows that it's not that I didn't do the cooking, or that I didn't do what they've asked. It's just that she hates taking risks, putting herself on the line to get criticized (because that's what happens most of the time that she cooks). Once again, I made it about me, when it wasn't at all. Like. Every. Damn. Time.

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Visioning : Constant Change

Growth, Learning, Courage, Contribution, Generosity, Love, Peace of Mind, Connection, Loyalty, and even Perspective, and probably others. They all have the strong underlying principle of change. The world is changing at all times whether we like it or not, and of course we all love it. That's what fear is all about, this why you and I make a lot of effort to quit our bad habits, and to install powerful habits, because those allow us to thrive in uncertain (or certain, you might say) times. As soon as one thing changes, another does. One part of your life got awesome, now you work on the next one, and then the next one, and the next one. And then you start changing the life of someone else, and then someone else, and then, a hundred years later, the whole world has changed, thanks to you The nature of most of our changes is simple : do the thing that's exactly the opposite of what you've been doing. Instead of running away from fear, you lean into it. Instead of quitting when you hit an obstacle, you overcome it. Instead of chasing one woman, you move on to the next one when she isn't interested. Instead of always being busy, you sit down and do nothing (that's called meditation). Everybody and every culture change at all times, this creates growth, and happiness. Great leaders take action when things change, they use the uncertain times so that they can establish new-found certainty in a better world. Something doesn't work, let me shake off the system to change it into something that does work.

Tiny Success : An Epiphany While Reading A Book

So I was reading Tribes by Seth Godin and I had epiphany, but first, let me go back a bit. I've been following Seth Godin for a long time now and I've always loved his style, his way of writing, and talking, and doing things in general, he shows his personality and I love it. I guess my mind associated good emotions with that, and what happened is that it kinda went on a search to see exactly what it was that was pleasurable, and today, it found it. How do you give a powerful why ? By showing that the whole system is changing, and that you can embrace the change.

Tiny Failure : Criticizing

Whenever my mind is not full of visioning/life purpose related thoughts, I criticize. I just do ! I do ! It's almost as if I couldn't do anything but that ! Yesterday I thought to myself that I would give love to my family whenever they would be an obstacle to my journey towards the fulfilment of my life purpose. I'm going to do the same for strangers. If I'm going to make a change in this world, I have to accept it, even love it, because it has so much potential. Loving the status quo is the first step to leadership.

Habits

Meditation : I still can't find a good way to sit, I need to look it up.

Visualisation : I envisioned interacting with my followers when I'll be a great leader. I like the way I do things, I even went to go look for a quote in a book because I thought it was the perfect response to a comment. I like this, it makes me happy

Dinner : I didn't think any negative thoughts about my family today. After dinner I talked with my brother and I was able to show him that he only resisted the change, nothing else. And I told him that I did all those things for other people, and I told him I loved it because of that. And, most importantly, I was not angry after the talk, for the first time ever.

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Visioning : Better Than I Ever Will Be

How can I change someone so that they become not just as good as I am, not just better than I am, but even better than I ever will be ? If you can answer that question, than you are the best thing that ever happened to this world. "That day I walked into the lounge, looking to get some green juice and to relax to some chilly music. I did that, and then Harvey came up to me told me that he had an idea for his new seminar, and he wanted me to take a look at it. I did, and something happened. I felt this deep depression coming from my heart, slowly filling the rest of my body. That night I burst into tears. At that moment though, I told him I couldn't give him any feedback, it was better than I ever could do. That night, I felt into the depression, which filled my whole body with water, and tried, through any means possible, to release it. Then it turned into deep humility, the kind I had finally gotten used to feel, but this time it was stronger, couldn't handle it either. The next day, I got up and called Harvey, he had had a pretty emotional evening as well, we met up and worked on his project all day, and then the next day, and the whole week, and the whole month. We've been working with each other ever since, and we'll die working together."

Tiny Success : A Great Leader

My vision of becoming a great leader is becoming clearer and clearer. Thank god I had this initial moment of fear, and thank god my top strengths are bravery, valour, perseverance, and self-regulation. I realised that the best thing I will ever do is to connect a group of people through a culture that ends in them being better than I ever will be, they will become my legacy. How many people have had this insight ? Also, this makes me happy because now I truly know what the reward is for pushing through obstacles. And especially how great it is ! Which can only help me help others. Because now it's something I truly mastered. And I can tell others about what True Mastery is about, from a real master's place.

Tiny Failure : Why Don't I Talk To Them ?

So my mother wasn't home, and both my brother and my dad got home late, and I hadn't cooked. I was supposed to make fish, except I didn't know which fish it was and I had no intention of spending time finding out. It's like they don't know what I do when I come home, in fact they don't know what I do at all. I should talk to them. Should ? Or MUST ? I MUST talk to them ! I have a plan, I'll talk to my mom Friday afternoon, we'll have a long hard talk. I'll visualise it the day before, and I'll of course include all ingredients of leadership (love, better than I ever will be, care, change, etc.).

Habits

Meditation : I sat well, and it went perfectly. That's Awesome !

Visualising : I get distracted in Affirmations. As soon as I catch myself drifting off course, I bring myself back on track. Well, I guess that's normal, our mind, especially in our time, can't focus well. I practised love of the world today, visualised myself in various situations where love of the world was critical, this made me happy.

Dinner : Ate really late due to people coming home late, but ate well. My little sister isn't there to talk shit on me every time I open my mouth, so, that's a thing (and there you go, I resent her right now, even though she's not there, ugh, AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAGGGHHHHHHHH !!!!!!!).

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Visioning : Emotional Attachment

Don't call it loyalty, one is human, the other is doggy. Same goes with two sex positions. For a long time, emotional attachment made us weak, it was something for low-EQ people. But of course, the future will make us high-EQ people, and emotional attachment will be the strongest power you can possibly harvest. Emotional attachment will be done between humans, but also with things, works, causes. As soon as a team forms a strong emotional bond with each other and their work, they become the most powerful entity living in this world. They become the best that it's ever seen. Of course, this doesn't happen overnight, it takes desire, perseverance, and curiosity. Those turn into Faith, Love, and Passion, which creates Emotional Attachment. I can never see Google being founded by only one person. I can never see Facebook being founded by only one person. I can never see anything being ever done by only one person. Along the way, a movement is created. People start clearing out their vision. Obstacles come their way - they're making change, that's awesome !!! They go through some seriously tough times. At this point, most people would quit. But Not Them. This creates more and more, always more, emotional attachment. You really do want to see the thing happen ! At this point, anybody curious enough to ask about it really knows that the thing is going to happen, No Matter What. Even if it's in a long, long time. "Oh well I don't have it", "Of course you don't. You have to push it, then it'll come".

Tiny Success : School

Lately, I've been resenting school a little bit. I'm not learning Personal Development at school, this is not time that I am spending Mastering my Domain Of Mastery. It literally is time wasted. But as always, a change of perspective on the problem is the key to finding the solution. As I've been practising love of the world recently, I've started to love school. And there you go, Personal Development. *Big smile on my face*

Tiny Failure : Chocolate

I've been eating too much Dark Chocolate. It's baaad for me. I must quit it now. Go on a Cleanse. No Dark Chocolate For A Month. No more bananas either, they have too much sugar, which makes me hungry. No more (I don't know what it's called in english, but here it is in french, tisane) either. I think I need to get my mind around the idea of eating for breakfast, lunch, and dinner, And Nothing Else. I can see that it really prevents my mind from thinking straight. And I see the Well Being that will come from Not Having Those !

Habits

Meditation : I meditated with the curtains opened and the sunlight coming in, it was nice.

Visualisation : I visualised about me and a group of people in my private jet doing work, trying to come up with a solution to a problem, brainstorming, then me having an epiphany, which gave someone else an epiphany, then someone else, etc. Until we decide to write down our epiphanies on a piece of paper, cutting our ideas in small parts of the idea. And then mixing it all into one Master Idea that was super-smart ! Which affected ALL sectors of our lives in different ways. A lot of emotions were mixed in.

Dinner : I told my mom and my brother that I was changing the world. I know that they don't care about my work. They just care whether I'm telling them about my work.

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Visioning : Visioning

When someone puts a lot of conscious effort and focus on crafting the most compelling idea of what the future could be like for himself. When they get to the point where they're actually willing to put their life one the line to have it realised. When they go off and tell their friends about it. When their friends adopt it right away. When their friends are also willing to put their life on the line for it. When that groups goes off and start to work to have it realised. When there's friction. When there's resistance. And then more resistance. And then the groups sits down together everyday for an hour and does visioning. When every body in the group goes and gathers the needed resources for the mission to be accomplished. When that happens. That one group impacts two others, which grows to four, then eight, then sixteen, then thirty-two. Until the whole world is changed, and everybody does this (even the small minority of black old girls in Tasmania). What would life be like if that were the case ? How would we feel on a daily basis ? How would we look at the world differently ? What would you do in this world ? I'd call it a night. I'd say I'm done. I realised my vision. I'd retire. And I'd go learn from other people. And I'd keep doing it. I can never stop it. Ever. I would create a group of people that helps other groups do their visioning and realise them. And I'd do it myself, simply being part of the group, being my own leader and follower, like everybody else in the group.

Tiny Success : Love

I've realised that forcing myself to write the tiny success section for five minutes and not less is smarter because it reinforces the positive behaviour the most, so that's cool. But anyway, I was in my bed, reading a book (Do You -- Russell Simmons), my little siblings get into a yelling argument. I can't read any more. When it ends, I go give love to my brother, give him a hug, talk it through. I'm proud of that, it builds rapport. Also, I realised that Love really is the only way of dealing with people. You don't yell to change someone's behaviour. You tell them you love them. Step N°1 for Great Leadership is Love Your World !

Tiny Failure : Time

This is the second time I'm writing about this but still, I do make a bad use of my free time ! I didn't watch TV, but I did watch porn, and watched a few videos with Seth Godin in them, a little too much. I didn't read as much as I could have. I really need to plan out exactly what is it that is the best way I can use my time if I don't want bad shit to happen. Tomorrow, I will be doing school work to fill up the "free" time. You know, being on the subject of tiny failures, I realise that it's a really powerful way to quit doing bad shit, because you write about it, every day, over and over and over again.

Habits

Meditation : I was in the worst position I could have ever imagined. Which was perfect ! I realised that the position didn't matter, my view on it did ! I felt so deep into meditation today ! This was Awesome.

Visualisation : I realised that I get a lot of value from my small 5-minute contemplation exercise. I remember yesterday I had the idea of creating a Trade Journal for Personal Development. Now that I think about it I could easily make it for my group. This was Cool !

Dinner : My sister got really angry at my brother. She's hiding stuff from people. She's weak. Good. The weaker she gets, the easier it's going to be to help her start (and never finish) Personal Development. Dammit, I don't have any time left.

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Visioning : Failure

I love failing. What happens when you take the basic fail-->learn from your failure feedback loop to its maximum ? You get people who go and do something that they know they can't do. They know they can't do it, and yet, they're here, failing. There's no way around fear, you can't think yourself out of it, you can't outsmart fear, but you can out-fear fear. See, fear is about imagining crazy scenarios where your whole life gets destroyed. Failing is about actually going through a scenario that starts the same, but certainly doesn't end the same. I want to create an environment where people are actually afraid of losing motivation, afraid of not trying, afraid of being afraid (get it ?). In such an environment, people would not only win at life, they would be much more regulating themselves, disciplining themselves, looking out for themselves. As soon as you set yourself up for failure, then of course you do your best. I can see myself in the mirror every morning and say "I'm going to fail today !", feeling happy, and exhibiting the body language associated with victory. I can see other people telling me "I can never get a woman like that in a million years", and then going there and talking to her, being super-confident. Because at this point, there's nothing to lose, you literally cannot lose, it's impossible, you're the worst guy possible. YOU SUCK. You don't know shit, there's really no point in thinking about anything, because your thinking doesn't work, you don't work. You know they say don't take your mistakes personally, I say they're wrong ! Of course you take them personally, it's your job to be awesome, but right now you suck. Period. So what if you suck, of course you suck, you haven't studied, you haven't learned, you don't become awesome overnight !

Tiny Success : Mental Health

My psychology, my behaviours, my thoughts, my feelings, the emotions that I feel, my EQ, they're just good ! *Smiles*. I just love myself, other people, the world, life. It's calm, it's peaceful, it's contemplative, you are so fucking resourceful from this place. I'm on the upper part of the cycle, it's going to go down again pretty soon, but still, this is cool.

Tiny Failure : Time

I'm failing time over and over and over again, and over again. I worked well overall, but I didn't do my visualising at the right time. Right now, as I'm writing this, its 10:10 pm and I haven't done it yet. I'm getting tired right now. I'll do it after this, before I fill out the Habits section. I really need to figure out what that is for me, I need to go fix that problem at the source. I think I need to spend time, right from the morning, just visioning, under a good shower. This will really help out get the day started. And then I plan things that I need to do with the time that I have.

Habits

Meditation : It helps me be much more contemplative of the world and myself, I like that.

Visualisation : Was extremely distracted ! I can't focus when I'm so tired ! Although I did force myself to do my best despite what, which was something I used to flake on in the past, but not any more.

Dinner : Nothing in particular made some kind of change. It was neutral. Not bringing me anywhere. Just plain idleness. This is good.

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Visioning : Authentic

What would happen if everybody achieved high levels of congruence with their authentic self ? I think people would see their work differently. Imagine organisations that are made up of people who are exactly where they are supposed to be, because that's where they feel most authentic. You don't have to be an entrepreneur or a corporate executive, you don't have to drive your company. You can just be important inside the organisation, and that's cool ! I also think people would go about achieving their goals completely differently. We wouldn't procrastinate that much for sure, we wouldn't fear, we would never ever try to find a detailed how-to guide. We would just dream up visions and deal with day-to-day obstacles, and that's it, we would achieve our goals. We'd spend a lot of time doing nothing. Just Being. Contemplating our selves (not just ourselves, but our selves). Stopping to smell the roses. I think there's this balance that can be achieved, it's really tricky, and the only way to get there is through listening to your heart, being yourself. A good balance between doing and being is the key to happiness. It just is. People who are constantly trying to achieve more and more are unhappy. People who can't achieve anything because they're always looking for a formula to achieve are unhappy. In our society, it's impossible to just sit down and do nothing all day, you need money to live. But you can find that balance, and you can be authentic to achieve everything that you want, and have lots of time to be happy. This is cool. The best relationships happen between two people who are authentic to themselves. We're not trying to get anything from each other when we're authentic, on the contrary, we're always trying to give more and more, give the best that we can possibly give. Imagine weird products and services and companies and leaders, they are the ones we're looking for, they're the best in the world.

Tiny Success : I actually sat down and did the work

The biggest obstacle I've been facing recently is simple. I've been ignoring fear. And I've been ignoring this obstacle. I didn't actually sat down and did the work. Why ? Because I lied to myself. I thought I was actually doing work when I wasn't. Well, today, my grandpa died. I contemplated death, and it was a wake up call. I wasn't actually doing the work. And I did. And it was awesome. I Felt Amazing ! I'm going to do this Everyday ! Everyday, I'm going to spend time doing it, even if it's just 10 minutes, it'll be enough. This will be the next habit I'm going to put in place, at the end of this 90-day cycle. I'm so proud of me ! I don't know why I was afraid. Right now, I'm just going to work as soon as I have time to do it, even if it's just 10 minutes.

Tiny Failure : Can't come up with a Tiny Failure

I can not come up with a Tiny Failure. I'm looking back at my day, and I can't think of anything that would be considered a failure. I do have some ideas, but I don't want to be too hard on myself, I'm just going to list them out. I did drink a little too much herbal infusions (four, that's a lot !), I did not publish the article I wrote, I still want to polish it for a while, I just haven't set a specific shipping date, which is a problem. You know what, here's the tiny failure : I have been lacking shipping discipline. I do not ever set specific shipping dates. Here it goes, On Day 120 of the Calendar, I will ship the manifesto on Medium. On August 1st, I will publish my course on Udemy.

Habits

Meditation : Makes me happy. I want to do it for 1h a day. Just don't have the time because of school. I realise I sound like a victim here, don't worry. I know that if I want to meditate for 1h/day, I can do it. I just decided to work on my life purpose when I come home rather than meditation. It's a trade-off.

Visualisation : I contemplated my Me Sheet with more engagement today. I talked and put positive emotions, this was amazing. I visualised about me actually sitting down and doing the work, but right now, in my bedroom, on my current project, this was so smart !

Dinner : They're still eating pizza on Sunday nights, why aren't they becoming the best that they can be ? I don't care.

[Tancrede Pouyat]

Visioning : Growth

"I discovered this guy on Medium, he had written an article about True Learning and Teaching. I just fell in love with what he said there. He had caught both my attention and my trust, at the same time. I started following him, I started to read his journal, it's so interesting to get inside his head like this, after a while, I started thinking, feeling, and behaving like him, this was cool. Eventually, I started buying his courses on Udemy, and man, I completely changed my life with those, they were packed with wisdom. I started changing my habits, real change was happening in my life. I started and grew my own business, got to change the world, started living congruently with my life purpose, I loved it. Then, I went to one of his seminars, and that..was..just..amazing. My whole life got transformed, thanks to him, and everybody else." -- Andrew. Andrew is one of my star student, he's making a huge contribution to this world, he's perhaps the most generous human being I have ever met. He grew so much. So many others have grown amazingly as well, I did in fact predict this, but still, it's impressive (for lack of a better word). I guess I'm the one who grew the most, they say "The book that changes you the most is the one you write", I can vouch for that *Giant Smile* *Laughing* *Happiness*. This whole world has grown, thanks to so much people's making successful attempts at growing it.

Tiny Success : Driving Myself Toward My Goals

Today was one of those days where I just made progress toward my goals. This is the quick spurt of progress from the Mastery process. The next plateau is going to come soon. I wonder what it's going to be like. I did do some adjusting of the draft of the article I'm writing. It's better now. I'm still pretty bad at writing these, maybe I can do some basic research about how I can do better, without making it to robotic and without personality, of course. I feel good about this leaning in attitude. It's healthy. Also I didn't browbeat myself too much about my imperfections, on the contrary, I practised Self-Acceptance, I didn't block myself away from my goals. Also, I found a really good reading mechanism, it works really well for me.

Tiny Failure : I was really hungry today

I wouldn't call it a failure. I didn't criticize myself too much. Sorry, let me rephrase. I didn't criticize myself at all for it. Hence, it didn't drive me away from my goals. Let me put myself into the head of my lower self : "Gnahahaha, he's gotten too much sugar today, he's going to be hungry tomorrow, and then again too much sugar, and it'll keep going on forever, and he won't the work that kills him, and I'll get to criticize him over and over again. He doesn't see that I'm superior to him, this is why he's inferior. Also I'll criticize his article, his visualising, his meditation, and his whole personal development journey. That way, he'll go back to eating the right food, hating the world and himself, playing video games, and eventually he'll get depressed, and it'll be this whole party in here again. Yay !!!"

Habits

Meditation : Nothing real is happening here.

Visualisation : I just visualised what a typical day would look like once I'm really congruent with my life purpose. I imagined myself overcoming resistance by sitting in a room, with nothing but a comfortable chair, a desk, a hardback journal, a pen, and a timer. I spent 8 hours just sitting there doing nothing, then I wrote for 8 hours. Fell asleep, woke up later, and was super productive, did amazing work, loved doing it.

Dinner : I cooked. But it wasn't an issue for me, I had already done all the good habits, just ate late, but I'm fine.

[Tancrede Pouyat]

Visioning : A Typical Day

Rising would happen at 7. There would be breakfast, a high protein breakfast, some green juice, and some cherries, Mmmmh. Following this would be a cold shower, one of those that really wakes you up, gets your body ready to start the day. Then, a looong meditation. And then the morning routine would be wrapped up by planning the day, what you have to do to advance in your different projects, your interactions with other people. And then, chunk of time after chunk of time, the day passes. Resourceful emotions follow unresourceful ones. Progress is made, obstacles are hit, strategic behaviour is applied. A lot of time is spent reading, and highlighting amazing quotes. Authenticity transpires, everything we do reflects who we really are. At times, we contemplate on what we've accomplished, we feel proud, this kind of pride with a sense of humility to it. From the inside, this day is amazing, when outsiders look at it, it seems pretty dull. Because we spend most of our time really just being, and appreciating the being, appreciating life, loving the world, making a beautiful change to it, contributing, out of plain generosity. Plain and pure generosity. The kind you see rarely, because most people think it's okay to be selfish, (wrong !).

Tiny Success : Reading

I finally sat down and asked myself : "Okay, so how do I read the best way possible ?". Okay that's not true I didn't ask myself this, it's just that I recently learned about Tai Lopez's pace of reading, and also Seth Godin's, so it inspired me to actually set my own pace. "Everything has already been done, just not by you." -- Liz Gilbert. I found that if I read the first phrase of each paragraph, I can have a sense of what the rest is going to be like, and hence, I can skip the paragraphs I don't want to read and focus on the best ones. I'll highlight the quotes I love the most, and this will be how I do things. Then, I think about what I read, I add it into my own vision, I "copy, transform, combine" -- Kirby Ferguson.

Tiny Failure : Failure to Work

I had finished school at 2:30, got home at 4. Which meant 2 whole hours I could have been doing important work, then I do all the good habits I've put in place. I could have been working, but I did not. Just slacked off. This behaviour, if repeated consistently over long periods of time will lead to ultimate failure to fulfil my life purpose. I must stop. In today's visioning, I had the idea to plan out the day before it even gets started, that way, I can be proactive all throughout the day. I must plan out the day's activities in advance. That behaviour, if repeated consistently over long periods of time will lead to ultimate success in fulfilling my life purpose. No more slacking off, Take 100% responsibility over your time.

Habits

Meditation : I have found the best way possible to sit during meditation. It just happened, spontaneously. I make a 100% commitment to sitting like that every time I meditate.

Visualisation : I was distracted. There was a period of time where I just loved visualising stuff, I would feel emotions, I would get a real sense of the scenery, I would love it. Tonight was not like that. Tomorrow will be like that. I'll spend some time just focusing my mind on the task at hand.

Dinner : My dad is miserable. I don't hate that, I don't love that, I don't anything that. He just is miserable. I did see this as an opportunity to embark him on this journey of personal development. Simply noticed, nothing else. My family did just contemplate death recently, I'm going to have much more results from my personal development. Patience, Chips will fall where they may. *Big smile on my face*.

[Tancrede Pouyat]

Visioning : Being at your best

What if all 7 billion people on the planet woke up everyday being determined to be at their best that day ? The amount of value that this world would receive on a consistent basis would be enormous. We would be extremely productive results making machines ! At 9:45 pm everyday, the things I would write in the "Tiny Success" section wouldn't be so tiny, and the things I would write in the "Tiny Failure" section would definitely be so tiny. I'd go hit the park at times, just to chill, and right there I would see some amazing things getting done. They say that innovation is inevitable once you get to the edge, it is true, there would be a lot of innovation in the world. People would achieve massive things all the time. But most importantly, we'd be proud of ourselves, we'd feel that sense of flow that we all get when we're being at our best. We'd spend a lot of time contemplating ourselves, and the world, just being. We'd feel confident, we'd feel humility, we'd feel happiness, we'd feel fulfilment, we'd feel like laughing at times, we would love, we'd have Peace of Mind, the kind that accepts unresourceful emotions, we'd regularly get into flow state experiences, like focus, or lovemaking. We'd have weird idiosyncratic rituals for our routines, we'd have certain specific habits, and then certain processes for our habits. We wouldn't care so much about petty stuff, in fact, it would be all gone. Our brain works from the next level when we're at our best.

Tiny Success : Subconscious Mind

I realize that I really have to go through the day in my mind to find something to write about in the Tiny Success part of the journal. My subconscious mind, though, is really good at identifying the thing that I want, once I get close enough. Tonight, I got home a little late, I had very few time but I did review my article, trying to make some adjustments to it. Since I didn't have time, I simply put some comments about it, just to get my mind rolling. My subconscious mind is doing a great job getting around this idea, I know I will produce something amazing, and I have more than two weeks left.

Tiny Failure : Self Acceptance

I went to sleep too late last night. This morning, when the alarm rang, I was lazy and I stayed in it for a while. I've been struggling with this quite a bit, I love myself for it. I've been a little overeating recently, it's a bad habit that I do want to break, I love that part of me that eats too much. I've been too attached to needing my family to do personal development, I love that part of me that needs other people to do personal development. I've been struggling with finding things to write about in the Tiny Failure section, I love that part of me that ignores all the bad shit I do every day.

Habits

Meditation : Though I wasn't in the exact same position as yesterday, I still loved how I was sitting, I want this to stay that way.

Visualisation : I did visualise about me being at my best and I found a good ritual. I will read the way I described earlier, then I will take a piece of paper and write the main ideas I got from the chapter I read, I'll also combine them with other stuff (existing material). Then I will make my visioning about those ideas, and I will visualise them. And that will be it.

Dinner : As usual, I state a basic, simple opinion, and I get 3 people all amplifying its basic, simple meaning into something that it is not, and respond accordingly. But this was fun ! We should do this again, soon !

[Tancrede Pouyat]

Visioning : Honesty

Honesty is perhaps the most powerful skill anyone can ever have. It's got to be developed. You do it every time you learn about life, accept it as true, verify it for yourself, and eventually start telling this truth to others (it goes full circle, in a sense). I think that completing each step takes time, first you start learning about life, then you start accepting it true, then you start verifying whether what you learn actually is true (you take action), and eventually you help others in their life mastery process. Honesty creates trust, what every marketer is after (along with attention, obviously). Honesty helps to give and receive feedback (thank god !). Honesty + Time = Promise, making a promise and actually following through on it is one of the biggest joys you can experience. Honesty makes people happy, honesty comes from the higher self, lying comes from the lower self. Honesty creates amazing relationships between individuals. It just does. Honesty creates emotional mastery, if you're constantly lying to yourself, you are miserable. Honesty helps you master any skill, because as soon as you are completely honest about your level of mastery in a certain skill, you can start addressing the issue easily.

Tiny Success : Emotional Mastery

I am able to stir up any emotion that I want in myself. I can make myself feel happy, I can make myself cry, I can make myself feel whatever I want ! Today was my grandpa's funeral, I wasn't particularly sad, though contemplating death definitely motivated me to live a charged life, but I was really able to, not make myself cry, just feel sadness and embody it. I guess a good part of it comes from empathy for the people around me, but still. If I had learned that, along the journey of life mastery, you could decide to feel whatever you want to feel, I would have been much more motivated, for sure.

Tiny Failure : Time

At this point, I would just copy and paste an old one. I'm doing this so that my subconscious mind really understands the whole point, repetition is the mother of all skill. So, since it was my grandpa's funeral, I didn't go to school today, and hence had time. I woke up at the usual hour, and just did my morning routine like usual, then I meditated, which I don't generally do because I go to school. And at this point I asked myself "Do I do visualising now or tonight ?" And I chose to do it tonight. I must have done it this morning. Because I got home late, and now I'm tired. Also, I could have worked on my article, but didn't, because of fear. I must listen to that fear.

Habits

Meditation : I've been doing this for so long, there's no need for conscious self-regulation on it.

Visualisation : I am getting back on track with high performance for this one. I was able to make myself feel happy things.

Dinner : Nothing happened tonight, I was just with my brother and my grandma.

[Tancrede Pouyat]

Visioning : Habits

I would get up in the morning at 7, cook and eat breakfast, take a cold shower, meditate, do visualising, read and do visioning. I would then eat lunch. then I would work on my projects, then I would read and answer comments and emails. Then I would go exercise, and then eat dinner. Then I would journal. And eventually go to sleep, at 10. That would be a routine, but it could, and probably will be, something else. Habits are the secret to accomplish anything in life. Have a habit of doing the things you need to do. Period. But a habit is more than that, it's an expression of who you really are, habits are like clothes for the mind. On the quest of becoming your true authentic self, your habits change. Sometimes even your entire way of life changes, those are called mid-life crises. Habits get you off the hook. Habits create 100% Commitment. Habits shape systems. Systems work toward goals. The more powerful the habit, the bigger the system, the more compelling the goal. Habits are like the government and the regulations of your mind. Mastering the skill of moving habits around is something critical if you want to be happy. Habits create Mastery, over time. Play a game for 10 years and you become a world class expert at it. Study Personal Development for 10 years and you become a world class expert at life. Happiness comes from habits. Passion comes from habits. Productivity comes from habits. Persuasion comes from habits. Any state of mind comes from habits.

Tiny Success : Physiology Management

I could have worked this afternoon. But I was too tired. I took a nap. After the nap, I could have worked, but I was too tired. I watched the documentary called "Food, Inc.", which revealed a lot about conventional factory-farming. My point is, I didn't beat myself because I was too tired. I didn't try to work when I was in no physical shape to work. This of course happened because I didn't sleep enough last night. I'm going to sleep earlier tonight, tomorrow I'll have plenty of energy for the work I want to do. The fact that I allowed this to happen without resistance is what shows emotional intelligence, and that's critical. "Do I want some coffee ? No, I don't drink coffee."

Tiny Failure : I failed to fulfil a promise I had made to myself

When I got home today at 1, I promised myself I would work on my article. I didn't. I was too tired. I could have at least done a little, but I didn't. I just didn't. If I want to succeed in fulfilling my life purpose, I must put in place a habit of working on my current projects every day, no excuses. It'll happen soon enough. Still. This is the same failure that has been happening recently. I don't make good use of my time. If I want to succeed in fulfilling my life purpose, I must put in place a habit of working on my current projects every day ! Why don't I make good use of my time ? Because of the Resistance. The next book I'm going to read is The War of Art, by Steven Pressfield.

Habits

Meditation : I almost fell asleep. I was sitting cross-legged, so I didn't fall asleep. But I was so tired that I almost did.

Visualisation : I was on the top of my game tonight ! That was Awesome ! I simply imagined what kind of emotions I would feel when I would do all the good habits I'm going to put in place. And it was amazing ! I even felt the cold shower in me. That felt amazing.

Dinner : So we had this confirmation of conflicting agendas tonight. I say something, a bunch of people try to prevent the challenge of the status quo. Conflicting agendas, that's all. I notice that most of the things I say in there are mostly things I've been running around in my mind when I don't talk. They just come out. Things I could have said earlier, and then an opportunity comes in and makes me say it anyway. I wonder what I need to do for this.

[Tancrede Pouyat]

Visioning : Good

Doing good. Simple idea, powerful idea. Doing good brings happiness. Growth & Contribution are two of the most powerful happy pills you can ever get. We're hard-wired that way. Whenever you're undertaking any project, whether professional or personal, the willingness to do good with it brings it into a whole new level. Instead of simply building muscle, you're helping your body become the best version of what it can possibly be and then, you can inspire others to do it as well, and you can do a lot of other things. Doing good helps you ground yourself in your higher self. The Lower Self is always looking for shortcuts and doesn't care how much shit it's doing to the world, the higher self ultimately only cares about the world, and Life. Doing good is your responsibility, you can always choose to be doing the bad things, but as soon as you commit not to do bad shit and do good instead, you'll only do good in the world. Doing good makes you good people. And people value people over anything else. People are driving this world to where it's ultimately going, but not the ones that do bad shit, only the ones that contribute, those have the power now, we're turning green (spiral dynamics). But it's not just about doing good, it's about being good. Once you are good, you are happy, you are grounded in your higher self, you are responsible, you are good people. And, step by step, one person after another, the world becomes good. And we are all happy, we are all grounded in our higher self, we are all responsible, and we are all good people. Imagine how much growth this world can still go through, there's no number, it's just infinity. We can all start today, by doing one small good action.

Tiny Success : Limited Willpower

I got up at 8, had breakfast, showered, meditated, and did visualising until 9:30. It's the morning routine I had envisioned yesterday, except I woke up an hour late. What's great about this is that, actually, I spent time writing my article today, I did a great job, I know there are still some flaws, and I know I will correct them soon enough. Today's success was the realisation that I don't have an unlimited amount of willpower, I'm already quitting both TV and caffeine. And I'm also putting in place this new Journalling habit. All of this is already a lot to take on, I am able to manage my limited willpower to cut myself some slack in all other areas. Recently I've been taking those changes for granted, that's what held me back.

Tiny Failure : School

I'm currently going through exams at school, which means doing a few exercises at home to prepare for the test. Today, I didn't. I usually do, but today I was kinda lazy. This probably comes from the fact that I used my willpower not to do that, but to do the great work I want to do. Tomorrow, I'll prioritise school over work. Even though I have no intention to excel at school, I still need this situation to be average, it'll give me short-term security, which will allow me to work on scary great things on the side. I love how I handle life.

Habits

Meditation : I realised that meditation allows me to manage willpower like fuck. I can do massive changes of habits in my life in the blink of an eye with this. This Is Awesome !

Visualisation : I did it this morning, which was the first time ever in the morning. It was interesting. I visualised about speaking in an interview and then on stage.

Dinner : This afternoon, I thought about how my family members are so full of shit. They reject everything I do, have false assumptions, make me sick in so many ways, mainly because they're not willing to admit to themselves that they're full of shit. It made me angry, tonight at dinner I tried really hard to keep my mouth shut when I so wanted to.

[Tancrede Pouyat]

Visioning : Goals

A Goal is a great idea. A Goal is not a desire. A desire is small, a goal is big. "I'd like to lose weight" is a desire, "I want to achieve great health, have enormous amounts of energy, and have a body that looks amazing" is a goal. A desire is about getting, a goal is about giving. "I want to be rich" is not a goal, "I want to start and grow my own business and have a real big impact on the world" is a goal. A desire is vague, a Goal is adaptable. "I want to feel respected" is a desire, "I want to have high amounts of self-esteem is a goal". A desire is mostly about reducing tension and anxiety, a Goal is about creating a lot of pleasures. "I want people to like me" is a desire, "I want to become really confident in social situations" is a goal. Goals have tremendous amounts of power, with the right ones, we can transform ourselves, we can change the world. Goals are what fuel us to live our life, Goals make us extraordinary. Goals are human, other species only have desires. Goals inspire action, Goals give us a reason to get out of bed in the morning. But goals are hard to harvest, we're only working toward our goals for half of our day, the other half, we just stop and smell the roses.

Tiny Success : Dealing with the Resistance

I both did school work and great work today. By great work I mean writing my article. I had a bunch of great ideas for what I'm going to do next, namely read a bunch of biographies of great people throughout history and do something from that and call my course "The Lazy High Achiever" and put a whole laziness approach to the material. I even did a little bit of work on the course, which was awesome. To top it all off, I was able to maintain a good use of my time and limited willpower today. I did spend some time not really working, but it worked well in general. That was a Good, Productive Day.

Tiny Failure : Not admitting defeat

Recently, I've been telling myself that I didn't want to beat myself up for what I did wrong, and hence, not mention it in the Tiny Failure section of the journal. But see, I failed to see the line between not beating myself up and acknowledging. The Tiny Failure section of the course is not about beating myself up, but simply acknowledging the fact that this wasn't the best performance I could possibly give out. Even if I were at 99% performance,  I would still acknowledge that I'm not at 100%. Acknowledging is simply saying, beating myself up adds meaning. The Lazy High Achiever doesn't beats himself up, he acknowledges. I make the 100% commitment to acknowledge it when I'm not at my best. Today I procrastinated a bit on school work, and on course work, and on article work.

Habits

Meditation : I committed to doing meditation and visualisation right when I come home from school during the week, and right when I wake up when I don't go to school. I realised it's important to set the record straight, it allows me to do great work more easily that way.

Visualisation : Originally, I thought I had to read before visualising, because that way I could visualise about what I read. I realised then that most of what I read can be talked about and applied, but not really visualised. So I'm going to stick with visualisation before reading. By the way, I visualised about me attending a seminar, it was definitely interesting.

Dinner : They always eat pizza on Sunday evenings. Tonight I realised they could at least buy something for me to eat, like a steak or something.

[Yukise99]

Good work journaling man, keep it up!

[Tancrede Pouyat]

Visioning : Uniqueness

I love the world. I love life. I love human beings. I love myself. And I love others. The world gave me a gift. It opened me up to a whole new level of consciousness, it helped me grow. It gave me Personal Development advice from world-class experts. It showed me the way to the happy life, the fulfilling life, the conscious life. I feel rich now, so rich that I want to give it to others. I want to help others. I want to help making the world an even better place, so that it can give even more gifts than it is right now. I feel authentic, and I want to contribute in the most authentic way. Which allows depth, in the expense of breadth. Hopefully, I will help someone who will reach the people that I can't reach, because his authenticity is not mine. This whole thing is bigger than ourselves, we can only help with three things, generosity, authenticity, and plurality. I can't do it alone, others already helped me, and are constantly helping me even more. I can only touch so many people, but I can touch them so deeply that it transforms their whole lives. That gift is the most beautiful gift you can possibly give to anyone ever. That gift is being given more and more, baby-stepping its way to changing the entire world. That gift is what was given to me, and what will be given to me consistently for the rest of my life. It is my duty to give it away to others, to the people that those who help me can't reach, to change this world. Love. Authenticity. Generosity. Growth. Happiness. Genius. Beautiful concepts, often overlooked, forgotten. Yesterday, people embodied their opposites (selfishness, compliance, fear, etc.). Tomorrow, they'll embody their magnified versions (large-heartedness, trustworthiness, assurance, etc.).

Tiny Success : Speed of Implementation

I now do things quickly. When I get advice that's great, I can easily apply it into my own life  really quickly, which is awesome. Before, it was all in my head. Now, I'm making things happen. I'm shipping. "I ship" is one of my current affirmations, I add an image with it, which is me throwing something out there in the world, over and over again. It's surprising me that it already affects my life even though I've only been doing this for less than 20 days when I generally do 90 days of affirmations before moving on. This is probably reinforced with the constant "I must make better use of my time" that's been happening recently in the journal. I can see that those habits are helping me greatly in achieving my goals, which is the whole point of the course I'm creating.

Tiny Failure : Sex, Lack of Work, and Bad Habits

Tonight was all about sex. I got home, ate lunch because I hadn't prepared it yesterday to bring to school today, hence I had to do it tonight at 5:30. Then, I went up the stairs and got to my bedroom. At that moment, I felt a great envy toward sex. I decided I'd visualise about sex. I meditated then did visualising, about sex. Then I slacked off and didn't do any kind of work, just thought about stuff. Then I ate dinner with my family, and then watched porn for 30 minutes (which is way too long). And now I'm journalling. I realise that, ever since I quit TV, my internet browsing time has increased, and my porn watching frequency has increased. I originally decided I would listen to music instead of TV, and frankly I haven't been doing that. So from now on, I will listen to music or do great work, or do research (as in reading). No exceptions.

Habits

Meditation : At the end of meditation, I don't like moving. Since I hadn't been moving for 30 minutes, I just don't want to move any more.

Visualisation : I can use the 5-minute contemplation part to think about my article or my course, or whatever small project I have right now, which is definitely a great use of that time. Then I can implement things easily and quickly. It's like free work. Cool.

Dinner : My dad wants to avoid negativity at all costs, and he's doing the worst in my world at it, it's quite impressive. I can see how people who desire reducing tension and anxiety fail at doing great things in their lives, because they sell themselves short.

[Tancrede Pouyat]

Visioning : Seeing Things Clearly

How much would your life change, if you saw things clearly ? Orders of magnitude. Let me give you an example. If I wanted to make more money, I would invest what I have, because investing is the most lucrative activity possible. I wouldn't get a mortgage to buy a house and call that an asset, when it's a liability. I would go read books, so many books, amazing books, from world-class experts on investing, and I would learn what they teach me. I would spend time actively monitoring and regulating my behaviours to correct course and gain perspective. I would set a target for myself, by visioning what I could with all that money, and I would keep going until I consider this goal accomplished, and then move on. Learning is about seeing things clearly. Lives are transformed when a new idea, a new perspective, is inserted in people's world views. Awareness is the most powerful skill anyone can develop. We are blind, we've only had the internet for 15 years. 80 years from now, when I'm on my death bed, looking at my legacy, I'll see great things, I'll have so much more vision than right now. People will still be blind. We'll always be blind, there will always be so much more to see, that's what makes life worth looking at. Let's start by looking at the fundamental principles. Let's study the hell out of them. Let's try to understand how much they influence our entire world. Let's get into counter-intuitive mode.

Tiny Success : Desire

I want to do great work. I desire it. Fear is slowly coming down. It'll probably come back up, but still. I want to achieve great things, I want to work on my Lazy High Achiever course, I want to write my People Over Ideas manifesto, I just want to advance farther into my Life Purpose. I'm even considering plans for my next project ! I found a great work ethic, as well. I will be putting in place a habit of really focusing on my work in the future, but I'm really happy with where I'm at right now ! This is great !

Tiny Failure : Energy

I had low energy today. I have been having low energy recently. I eat healthy, so it's cool, but I need to exercise. A few days ago, I decided that if I wanted to do it, I still could make time for it. Even if I put in place the working habit, I still could make time for it. But right now I have to figure out a way to keep my energy levels high without necessarily making too much time for it. I can do the grok squat and the hanging from a branch exercises, they'll put me in slightly more active state.

Habits

Meditation : I'm really detached as to what's happening in meditation, it's quite impressive.

Visualisation : I was too linguistic. I need to make it more about the substance, not the words.

Dinner : I tried to practice Being-cognition there, because I realised the entirety of my problems with these guys is the whole added-meaning thing. It's really hard, especially with them. I caught myself 3 times in a row falling back asleep and adding meaning to whatever they were saying. I know this is the only reason for why they don't self-actualize, their views on me are too biased