Times where I dont know where I am

[Nadosa]

There have been serveral times where I just felt like I didnt know where I am, just like awareness but in a very uncomfortable way. Only trusting in "I will soon know where I am again", made it kind of passable. But I experience those moments, where I just feel irritated and detached, more often now. Anyone knows what this is?

Edited November 24, 2018 by Nadosa

[ground]

Detachment is conducive.

[Forestluv]

2 hours ago, Nadosa said:

There have been serveral times where I just felt like I didnt know where I am, just like awareness but in a very uncomfortable way. Only trusting in "I will soon know where I am again", made it kind of passable. But I experience those moments, where I just feel irritated and detached, more often now. Anyone knows what this is?

I’ve had many experiences like that when the self temporarily dissolves away and just awareness remains. Sometimes there is a sense of connection and Oneness, other times it’s uncomfortable.

[Tony 845]

@Serotoninluv I've had this  once during an sds sit, kinda freaky 

Edited November 25, 2018 by Tony 845

[Nadosa]

Can anyone help me, I start detaching more from my body, like a selfless state and my mind argues more and more.

[zambize]

3 minutes ago, Nadosa said:

Can anyone help me, I start detaching more from my body, like a selfless state and my mind argues more and more.

What happens when you try to increase your awareness of whatever is uncomfortable, or however you feel detached.  Uncomfortable in what way, a stinging pain, emotional knots in your abdomen, dull vibrating headache?  I think part of the problem is that you don't know the problem.  What don't you like about this uncomfortable pain?  What don't you like about being detached?  Exactly how are you uncomfortable?  Where does the pain arise from and where does it go?  In summary, my advice would be to flesh out EXACTLY how you feel, and typically it seems to me that the more your resolve some pain you are feeling, the more you understand it, it will either disappear or transform into an experience that you see as positive.  As far as where this is coming from, it could be ego-backlash.  Maybe it's some insecurity.  I honestly don't know,  and I would be skeptical of anyone that told you they knew exactly where these issues were coming from, that's for you to find out.  Anyways, wish you the best of luck

[Nadosa]

Uncomfortable because I feel like I am not aware of a self that is aware of the moment, this leads to not being able to enjoy and experience it 100% what I am doing, I am witnessing the moment, as a detached entity (whatever it is).

[Forestluv]

16 minutes ago, Nadosa said:

Can anyone help me, I start detaching more from my body, like a selfless state and my mind argues more and more.

I would try “Do Nothing” meditation as per Leo’s video. Trying to stop a busy mind generally makes it worse.

[non_nothing]

21 hours ago, Nadosa said:

There have been serveral times where I just felt like I didnt know where I am, just like awareness but in a very uncomfortable way. Only trusting in "I will soon know where I am again", made it kind of passable. But I experience those moments, where I just feel irritated and detached, more often now. Anyone knows what this is?

Yes, just keep saying I'm here for the truth, please guide me truth. That phase halped a lot in my journey.

 

[Nadosa]

Thanks. Thing is, the ego backlash goes so far, that I start believing every thought again. I start believing that Ive done crap so far and that spirituality is crap.

[Hellspeed]

The delusion of detaching from the body, the awareness of the center of the brain will go into the head. Is a ticking bomb. 

Go green, put the head in the heart literally, by visualization. 

[Forestluv]

39 minutes ago, Nadosa said:

Thanks. Thing is, the ego backlash goes so far, that I start believing every thought again. I start believing that Ive done crap so far and that spirituality is crap.

Perhaps you’ve had some glimpses into awakening and the ego is resisting

[Nadosa]

44 minutes ago, Hellspeed said:

The delusion of detaching from the body, the awareness of the center of the brain will go into the head. Is a ticking bomb. 

Go green, put the head in the heart literally, by visualization. 

Could you elaborate?

[Sahil Pandit]

@Nadosa When you're in that state of not knowing where you are at, become mindful of the sensations around you and notice the emotions that arise within you.

Is your body tense? Is there fear? Can you locate it? Or is your mind playing a trick on you to recoil back into identification with the mind?