i always feel like i want to cry

[Viking]

i always feel that, but it becomes worse when i think about doing something proactively, for example to sit and do homework, to start a conversation or join one, etc.

im afraid to do those proactive things and when i think about doing them i sometimes seem to not be able to act, like something holds me back, like the feeling before jumping into the water (or off a building lmao)

should i ignore it and just DO the things always? when i do the thing i feel like i want to lay on the ground in a fetus posture and cry.

edit- i think its indecisiveness. my mind wants something but fear says no

Edited November 18, 2018 by Viking

[EvilAngel]

I feel ya. Just go ahead and do them, you'll feel better for it!

[lmfao]

@Viking That's deep my brother. Sounds like depression. And the sad truth is, nothing I say will inherently help you and you are mostly alone in solving your suffering (although it is possible for other people to help you some what). 

If you can get yourselves to do those things, then do them. After doing it enough times the pain and suffering will change you. I personally believe that suffering alone will increase a persons consciousness provided they don't use drugs as a form of escapism. For example, Meditation can be thought as a method for you to face you suferring and not turn to drugs as a distraction. It's not easy. It's not fair. But it's probably your only way out. 

Edited November 18, 2018 by lmfao