What am I?

[tsuki]

Lots and lots and lots of confusion.
The mind wants to express something, but it ends up in jagged sentences dropped midway.
Can it even say anything useful? Without blaming? It even blames itself for blaming.
Lots of confusion. Turbulent flow of chi.

Still, my heart is stabbed open and I don't want to embrace it and I can't seem to think about it.
I think it is a good time to meditate. Good that I don't have a lot to do at work today.

[tsuki]

Let's just pretend it's an Ego backlash, okay?

[mandyjw]

@tsuki I'm obsessed with the sky. It's so beautiful yet it's not really there. The clouds are what draws our attention up toward it. They are a little closer to us and give us some perspective, but still out of our grasp. And when it's sunset/sunrise, they reflect the most beautiful colors. 

Like Scott Naismith's paintings. 

No moons in them.

But beautiful and whole nonetheless. 

[tsuki]

 

[mandyjw]

Come back down to earth baby. 

There's no such thing as time. 

[Zigzag Idiot]

43 minutes ago, tsuki said:

Lots and lots and lots of confusion.
The mind wants to express something, but it ends up in jagged sentences dropped midway.
Can it even say anything useful? Without blaming? It even blames itself for blaming.
Lots of confusion. Turbulent flow of chi.

Still, my heart is stabbed open and I don't want to embrace it and I can't seem to think about it.
I think it is a good time to meditate. Good that I don't have a lot to do at work today.

I feel like I've had more than my fair share of days like this. In his 10 cd Kosmic Consciousness cd set (interview by Tami Simon) Ken Wilbur described his own confusion at times as "plutonium confusion". I can relate to the idea of experiencing plutonium confusion.

Cynthia Bourgeault, in talking about the subject of Awakened Conscience has used the phrase "feeling my every-which-way-ness". I've found it to be an apt phrase as well.

Its weird how this stuff can sometimes come and go 12 times before lunch,,,,,,

[tsuki]

 

[mandyjw]

 

[mandyjw]

Ooooooh. I really love your vibe. 

 

[tsuki]

It's such an amazing experience to suffer without breaking the flow.
It's like I'm surrendering to the fact that I resist hahahaha.

Only the mind can come up with twists like this.

Anyways, my meditation proved very fruitful.
All of my 7 chakras are active and fully open. It's beautiful, very soothing.

[mandyjw]

 

 

[mandyjw]

 

 

[tsuki]

Oh, I know that one Mandy. My favorite song of Parov Stelar.

[mandyjw]

 

[mandyjw]

This is one of my favorite artists. I was so conflicted when his career ended abruptly this past Fall with sexual abuse allegations. 

[mandyjw]

Here he is with Lana Del Rey. 

 

[mandyjw]

Of course, of course.  This is the first song I ever heard by him. It was the first "real" day of spring that year here. 

 

 

[Joseph Maynor]

Hi hi!  Just came by to say hi!  

[mandyjw]

@Joseph Maynor Hi! 

Ok, just one more, I'll take a break for now. 

 

[tsuki]

@mandyjw Post your songs in your own journal. Please.