Can you get stuck in a super deep meditative state

[kieranperez]

1 hour ago, Bernard said:

Is it possible to elevate your consciousness so much to where you're neither here or there?

Samadhi

[Bernard]

29 minutes ago, Hellspeed said:

I had to pass around 1 year of agony and confusion to a depression like level, suicidal feelings, and unworthy existence. The same pain you can identify in the body, that is your guide, the numbness in a limb per example or a gnot in the plexus or a high pressure in the skull in the right side. Dwelve into that pain, into that confusion, into that agony, into that numbness, don't be afraid to be lost, there is only bliss behind. 

I see. I feel confused and a few times I did want to die and its when it gets super intense even though I'm not suicidal.

I usually feel pain in my chest. That's the most noticeable one. The second would be stomach area but I don't think that one is related to this issue. I could be wrong.

To be honest I'm afraid to dive in it as I feel like I'll never recover. Even though I feel it tugging on me.

[Nahm]

@Bernard Sounds like you’re on the right track, give it just a little time man, you’ll be rockin again. I think this might be hard to hear, but very helpful - the psychedelics are literally truth - they can show you they don’t actually exist. So you’ve got to approach them as if you were going to literally meet God. At least a week of very clean eating, not drinking / drugs, taking care of your body / exercise and or going for walks, letting every tension go, giving, loving and being honest as much as you can. You prepare for a trip like it’s your death, and you give & appreciate the precious days and minutes you have left. You make amends. You forgive people. You tell people you love them. Because if you don’t, the truth might scold you. Ain’t nobody need a talking to from the truth man. Not twice at least.        But, that’s all that happened man. It’s like when we were kids, and a parent or teacher or whoever old scold you really good, cause ya had it coming - you just say ok, I f’d up. Then you move on. Sounds like you are movin on well. Stop being so hard on yourself. God only scolds you because he loves you infinitely.    Infinitely dude. That’s the level of love for you. It will literally never end. Relax. Have fun. 

[Strikr]

HS : someone can advice me on a good app for phone for my meditation, maybe with a ring at the end, that would be clean

[Bernard]

1 hour ago, Nahm said:

@Bernard Sounds like you’re on the right track, give it just a little time man, you’ll be rockin again. I think this might be hard to hear, but very helpful - the psychedelics are literally truth - they can show you they don’t actually exist. So you’ve got to approach them as if you were going to literally meet God. At least a week of very clean eating, not drinking / drugs, taking care of your body / exercise and or going for walks, letting every tension go, giving, loving and being honest as much as you can. You prepare for a trip like it’s your death, and you give & appreciate the precious days and minutes you have left. You make amends. You forgive people. You tell people you love them. Because if you don’t, the truth might scold you. Ain’t nobody need a talking to from the truth man. Not twice at least.        But, that’s all that happened man. It’s like when we were kids, and a parent or teacher or whoever old scold you really good, cause ya had it coming - you just say ok, I f’d up. Then you move on. Sounds like you are movin on well. Stop being so hard on yourself. God only scolds you because he loves you infinitely.    Infinitely dude. That’s the level of love for you. It will literally never end. Relax. Have fun. 

Yea I screwed the pooch on this one. I was being reckless and casual about the whole thing. I figured because it was a small dose and I have done larger doses before ans was fine, I figured I could handle it. 

Leo told me something akin to that. I may be misquoting him a bit but he said "you disrespected the psychedelic". Which I clearly did and now I'm paying for it.

Even though while on it I was practicing self inquiry and asking "what am I" for a little bit before it happend. I'm starting to think it answered and I didn't like the answer.

I'm questioning if reality exists and that's whats a part of whats scaring me and making not care for it. Becauae with rhis information, what even matters? If it partially killed my ego then it killed what kept me grounded. 

[Nahm]

@Bernard Wait...!?...what!? Those are some very hard to get nuggets of insight you received. You should be questioning if reality exists, how else could you be inspired to the action of caring for it / you?  What even matters? Ya. Right. Nothing. So anytime you’re feelin tense, stressed, sad, you’d have to laugh - because you can’t justify it anymore, because nothing matters - you’re free. Haven’t realized this yet, I know, but you will soon.   Killing the grounded? That’s a gift of an insight. Grounding is total bs. You are infinite, can’t be ‘grounded’, there’s nothing to be grounded in, you’re everything already! 

You’re gonna get your health on, and you’ll be feelin great soon. This will be your best trip, at some point, in hindsight (in terms of importance - I know it sucked).

 

 

[Forestluv]

5 hours ago, Bernard said:

@Serotoninluv yea well that's what actually did it. A trip. Had a few hour long bad experience and been terrified since.

How did you deal with it? Ever recovered?

To me, this sounds like uncomfortable parts of the awakening process. As the self dissolves there will be resistance. From what I've read and heard, periods of borderline insanity is not uncommon. I just waited it out - I didn't have any other choice. Eventually it dissipated, then returned, then dissipated. . . My path has involved depths of everything: love, peace, terror, sorrow, beauty, powerlessness. And all sorts of mixtures. It's been a rough ride. At least it's not boring - boredom is my kryptonite.

During anxiety/panic episodes, I take a beak from psychedelics.

The good news is that empathy will skyrocket for others with anxiety/panic/insanity disorders.