Going beyond inner voice.

[non_nothing]

Heads-up! I want to start by saying this might be not appropriate for all. I'd also tell that there you can't find anything valuable here. So you might not want to waste your time reading this. Also this won't eliminate your inner voice or give you a technique. There're already lot's of other thread discussing this. Thanks for acknowledging the notice.

 

I've been lately studying on inner voice, not as like meta does i.e eliminating it, but trying to understand it's properties and how It is

So I had come to a point that I'm perfectly okay with the inner voice, I have a strong tool on my side which it TO observe it and NEVER identify with it. This had become my new experience with inner voice for weeks. A few days ago, when I was returning to home by corporate bus from work, suddenly out of nowhere this sentence popped out in my mind: "Nothing talks, nothing has inner voice" by nothing I literally meant anything except me, any experience outside of my head or the voice inside my head, I looked around people, they did not had inner voice, I looked the ceiling of bus, trees and all kind of other non-living objects I noticed they did not had inner voice. The silence. The great silence. This was a turn around experience about inner voice for a couple of days. Then this interesting point popped in my mind yesterday, "Or do they?" My awareness of ALL objects received shifted dramatically, I then now had allowed the/gave a chance to/ experience of "every material[1!!] might have inner voice, thoughts, state, FEELINGS? (maybe)" I'd say if this was older me, or I talked about it to somebody else I'd easily live in up high a.k.a anxiety state by being non-aware increased my frequency, but rather I allowed this for few hours with fully calmly. [2, continuing to write from there]

 

[1] At that point what I exactly imagined about and mean by every material was atoms or the whatever little common substance of everything, I even concluded that If my brain was a stone I'd still have inner voice It is NOT only, not ONLY!! about the structure, cells and intelligent design of your brain (aka nerve cells living cells and blood etc) but that has a different property I'd say I felt it through every cell of my being that was the truth! Of course It is indeed an intelligent design the brain is! I can't really emphasis these feelings right now fully but I can't distinguish the beauty of the design of a stone and a human brain, It's guys I'm speechless right now even thinking about this.

 

[2 cont.] After that two mystical (I'd say) experience happened after, the first one was that I was working out in my room were doing weighted squats, in between sets I rest with a special technique that I developed, simply you guys would understand is meditating while standing up and taking back the control of the breath by a smart way of allowing the energy flow. I always have 1 clock (for to hear it ticking and allowing second synchronization, I'm a musician that I'm sensitive to tempo so I use ticking sound to calibrate myself) and 1 digital timer open on my phone in front of my head level from ground, on a shelf that's on my head level so I don't have neck stiffness etc. Anyways, in one of the rests in between, I relaxed my throat completely to allow breathe and energy flow, THE FUCK is happened, I heard clock ticking 3 times faster I'd say but IT WAS SO LOUD! wait! No the clock was still ticking at a second rate still! but It was my heart beat that I heard as the same sound as clock ticking, Wait whats going on! I noticed that my heart was beating as the sound of a clock but was so LOUD! I distinguished it from clock because the clock was still ticking at the same level of dB lets say, that's how I did distinguished it. The tricky part is I've seen the EGO there, was telling me something "Now you're gaining some mystical powers" but I simply observed that and concluded to "Who wanted this in first place? I don't care and even this power benefits to me, I don't really interested the ways of you(EGO)" this was so natural for me to conclude, I did not force/think about logically to conclude that. Anyways like after 1 minute I understood that was a physical phenomena I don't know the name but  simply quoting from Reddit:
 

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Sound waves are pressure waves in air, so if you are stationary and a sound wave passes by, the air pressure goes up and down in a certain patter that determines the sound.

Loud bass can make your windows shake due to two reasons:

It is loud, that is the difference between the high and the low pressure is quite large, which exerts a greater force on your window.

It is low-frequency. That means that a relatively large amount of time passes between two peaks, which means that the glass has the time to move noticeably before the changing pressure forces it back the other way.

It also might be that my heart exerted a frequency while beating that was the same frequency of sound of ticking so that the amplitudes of waves merged and made a nosier sound every time. When a clock ticks and heard by ear, It doesn't simply vanish, It keeps travelling in the air, in the room. It is persistent actually. Think it of a steady pool when It is disturbed by a thrown stone, the waves will hit to boundaries of the pool and will be reflected, will moving towards the center of where the stone had hit. It's the same physical phenomena that happened to me at that time.

I guess I was simply -what they call- "aligning with the universe" with this event. The second mystical event was that my cat was sleeping throughout the whole workout, I had done my workout and went to shower, my room was dark but you know eyes get adjusted to light after few minutes, I was toweling myself, then approached my cat slowly and silently, she was sleeping so cute and I was looking at her. She was in deep sleep, there I had the same event started to happen. You know when we dream, we often unconsciously make sounds like in high frequency was if we're drowning or someone is choking us, the sleepy paralysis thing. I heard my cat making very silent noise as If she was having a sleep paralysis. But the thing is, look, I can very distinguish the sound whether coming from outside or inside, you know, when your gut burps or you hear your own heart beating, you can pretty much tell that's sound is coming from inside and If someone get's closer to you one can hear the sounds too but in a different way than you do because there would be a meat wall between the sound and the receiver. I heard it coming from inside, the same phenomena, the same physical phenomena was happening, something was amplifying the sound inside me. The thing is I can be very sure about these events somewhat mystical and not mystical at the same time because It feels to me that when people talk about mystical things I always used to observe an egoistic desire on that event. As if were their character is shining some pride. These were NOT. Because I simply wasn't expecting these and even after having these experiences I still remain undisturbed. Unchanged. 

I simply wanted to share this with you guys since I've been along here when my journey started and would be amazing to read your opinions about these things. Godspeed.

Edited November 9, 2018 by non_nothing

[111111]

@non_nothing What's the point of over-analyzing/theorizing about your spiritual path?  

If you want to make progress, answer why really did you want to share this with us? 

[non_nothing]

1 hour ago, 111111 said:

@non_nothing What's the point of over-analyzing/theorizing about your spiritual path?  

If you want to make progress, answer why really did you want to share this with us? 

For you to go beyond yourself and see no limitations of roles and masks you like to play. Like your analogy wanna play? 

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[111111]

@non_nothing Wrong. To go beyond masks and roles you gotta "stop playing the ego's game", in other words kill it. 

I see SO MANY stage Green folk fall into the same trap: mental-masturbation. Going on and on inside mental loops. 

Well, I see the pleasure of it. I could talk with my friend for 12+ hours almost non-stop, and that's without any weed)))

[non_nothing]

5 minutes ago, 111111 said:

@non_nothing Wrong. To go beyond masks and roles you gotta "stop playing the ego's game", in other words kill it. 

I see SO MANY stage Green folk fall into the same trap: mental-masturbation. Going on and on inside mental loops. 

Well, I see the pleasure of it. I could talk with my friend for 12+ hours almost non-stop, and that's without any weed)))

Why are you talking about yourself? Why did you indirectly mean so many things to me? Why did you draw a picture of me inside your mind?

[111111]

@non_nothing Because I've been cursed with knowledge.

 

[non_nothing]

Just now, 111111 said:

@non_nothing Because I've been cursed with knowledge.

 

What's your knowledge?