“You have to literally die!” - Leo.

[Oktillo]

I’ve long time without meditating  trapped into monkey mind, as today was my second day starting again, i learn how you have to literally die in order to tap in to the universe (you can just call it ego death), it was so painful I started crying and then I would surrender, as this happen I disassociated with my body completely, i felt no shape on my awareness like I didn’t have to point to anything to know anything, i was just feeling this big energy and realized I’ve been always part of it but I conspired to ignore it.