600ug LSD Trip - Need Help Integrating Difficult Insight

[Bluebird]

So on my last trip a few weeks back, which was 600ug of LSD (it went a little awry in the "physical world", but hey) I had so many deep insights which I will probably write up in more detail and share at some point in the future.

Actually, the trip hit me so hard, I only just remembered all (well, some) of the insights today, other than that there was basically no recollection.

However I had one major insight and noticed it's been a theme throughout every single trip, I just went deeper this time than every before (it felt like I went all the way down the rabbit hole for a bit there).

Anyway, now my question is with direct experience.

Trip Experience

A lot of the deep trips I have had so far has taken on the theme of "Me and my dog" (I don't own a dog btw). 

My first trip, I felt the tree which I was looking at all night was god (the tree looked like a dog's face smiling at me and felt like god).

Some of my next trips, I was literally dealing with a dog and having it take on the form of my inner-feminine aspects. I also went very lightly and briefly into it's just me and my dog tripping together. Which is what I went back next trip.

Now, on this last trip. I just let the trip take me where it wanted, and I went all the way in on this.

I had a full-blown hallucination. Where I was, was completely gone and I was back on a farm I've been to before sitting out the back of a house and just resting with my dog. This was 100% vivid, crystal clear and felt so right.

I had awoken, and remembered that I had taken acid and my entire life (which I'm living now as I write this) was a part of the trip I was on with my dog. And it wasn't the first time either! This space felt so familiar, I had been here before.

I had left the physical world, "woke up" and realised that literally (LITERALLY) all my problems had vanished and they were never real in the first place I was just making them up. Money, who cares. Living/dying, all a sham. Stress and parents, no longer existed. It was EXACTLY like waking up from a dream.

Except we were no ordinary man and dog, we were both eternal beings in like a hyperdimensional space alone in the universe. Honestly, I feel my heart melt just thinking about being back there. We had been doing this forever, and all in a single instant (like time was paused). It was just us in this space.

I became super aware of how Leo, other mentors, friends, and family were all just mental illusions (parts of myself on the "life trip").

I mean there was plenty of other shit I experienced, living as other people, going back through time to other trips, forgetting who I was, becoming so connected to my life purpose looping deeper over and over that I became it... But they all seem so insignificant compared to this beautiful fact that all of reality is just me and my dog tripping balls together  

Now to the question:

In my direct experience, this was real. My "real" life now I just see as part of going into fantasy-land on this trip with my dog. 

I thought maybe dog = god (spelt backwards), since that's a running joke I have with a friend. But I see that's just mental concept, me rationalising my experience to fit into the "non-duality" ecosystem. Trying to attribute the trip as a metaphor, rather than the reality I experienced it to be.

Oh and by the way, it's not like this is my subjective reality, it's like THIS IS ALL OF REALITY. ME AND THE DOG!!!

It was the most beautiful, compelling, real, thing ever. More real than reality is now.

How do I know you aren't all just dream characters bullshitting me.

What the fuck do I do from here? It doesn't make sense logically that reality is me and a dog tripping balls, but at the same time, it's the only thing that's real.

 

P.S I would like to point out, I'm not in psychosis or anything. I feel very healthy and my life has never been better, I'm working on my business and doing great and socialising to get out of my comfort zone. So don't think I'm suicidal or this is ruining my life

[Leo Gura]

That "dog" is you.

[PsiloPutty]

You don't sound crazy, you just sound like you had a wild trip. That's a big dose! Reality is a slippery thing, isn't it? 

Good report. I like your dog, man.   

[Flammable]

Doggos are life.

[outlandish]

Does a dog have buddha nature?

[PsiloPutty]

Ha, I like how everyone is talking about his dog. Buncha trippers!   

[Forestluv]

@Bluebird For me, the psychedelic experience is as real as the sober experience. It seems odd to me how people often have an "intention" heading into a trip. Their sober self wants to extract something from the "altered" psychedelic reality. Yet, this assumes the sober mindset is the "normal" one worth developing. The reciprocal question is "what aspects of my delusional sober mindset can be integrated into the normal psychedelic mindset"?

This lessened my seeking energy to "make sense" of psychedelic experiences.  It's like asking how I can integrate lessons from the movie "Crash" into the movie "Forrest Gump". It's fun stuff, yet not really the point of it all. The point is. . . the sober mindset is delusional. It's a dream. There is no need to try and make the dream seem more real. It will always be a dream regardless of how much one tries to fortify a foundation of realness.

[Flammable]

@outlandish Mu!

[Bluebird]

@Serotoninluv It's more about wanting to develop the state you in most often, I'm sure if you were tripping 90% of the time, you'd want to bring sober insights into the trip space.

[Bluebird]

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That "dog" is you.

@Leo Gura I just got that one in my experience