Meditation turned Kundalini/emotional release

[Elysian]

I sat to meditate on the breath. About 20 minutes in I started feeling a pressure between my eybrows/ajna. My mind became much less clouded, and I started receiving random instruction. Stand, walk forward, some more, sit back down, all of which I followed. It seemed to be to help me discern instruction from random thought.

I started to feel warmth and energy moving through my body. I was then asked why my head was still, and to completely relax. So I relaxed my neck muscles, and my head naturally started moving in a circular motion. After some time of this, I was told to visualize the energy at the bottom of my back spiraling up around my spine. I did, and I continued to spiral it up my neck, around my skull, to the top of my head. Within the several seconds this took place, I became very physically hot, easily 100+° Farenheit. My breathing became very heavy, like I was doing strenuous exercise.

When I envisioned the energy reaching the top of my skull, I felt and intense focus of energy there, moving out of my body. There was so much energy running through my body, I could barely sit still. My hands began to clench, toes curling, eyes pulsating, eyelids shuttering. It was almost like having an orgasm but more intense and not particularly enjoyable. After a few seconds my breathing became very intense, somewhere in between exercise and child birth.

I was told to relax and just breathe through it. So I slowed down my breath and breathed more deeply. The top of my head simmered down, but my entire body was full of energy, like I had taken MDMA or something, nerves firing off everywhere.

I was instructed to do it once more but slowly this time. So I did it over the course of about 30 seconds, similar effect but not as intense.

But then I was told to imagine the person I love most in the world, to hold that image in my mind and count back from 10. When I started at 10, I already had tears flowing down my face. And when I went to 9, an image of them from a different memory came up, and my emotions became even more intense. It became hard to breathe I was crying so much. I got down to 7, and I completely lost it and broke the countdown. I felt what needed to be felt, and then I was told to start again.

Each number for some reason brought up a different memory, and it was like I was reliving everything we had been through. This time I got down to 0, and my emotions hit their pinnacle. To give a little context, I hurt this person through my ignorance, and with my unhealed emotional wounds. I love them more than anything, but unintentionally I caused them a lot of pain.

Several seconds after I got to zero, I was told these feelings were guilt and sadness. A few personal things were said I won't mention here, but at the end I was told to continue healing down the spiritual path. That if I ever see them again, I should be capable of having the awareness and depth of love they deserve.

I continued meditating and did one more practice of the Kundalini meditation. I was going to continue after that, but then I was told to stop and rest, so I did. Then the communication ended, and my ajna pressure stopped.

And now I still have energy flowing through me, but I'm exhausted. I've never learned how to do meditation related to Kundalini, but this was very intense. I don't understand where these instructions/insights/or whatever they are come from, and I'm not really sure why they've been coming so much when I don't really hear of anyone else having similar experiences? I'm grateful nonetheless.

[YoYoYo]

This was really intriguing to read, thanks for sharing! : )

It seems to be rare to receive instructions in that manner, you are lucky. How has your meditations been going?

[Elysian]

On 11/1/2018 at 2:37 PM, YoYoYo said:

This was really intriguing to read, thanks for sharing! : )

It seems to be rare to receive instructions in that manner, you are lucky. How has your meditations been going?

I'm not sure if it would be correct to say they have been going well/not well. I've been encountering a lot of resistance lately while sitting. Although it doesn't feel like I made much headway recently in quieting the mind, I've had various mystical experiences. Shooting out of my body during my first waking Out of Body Experience, guided meditations by something other than ego, a non-dual experience, a lot of Kundalini symptoms, it appears I've opened my third eye, etc. 

I don't know if I can attribute that all to meditation, but considering most of those events happened during meditation it seems relevant. I've also made many lifestyle changes like becoming Vegan, cutting out addictions, trying to implement shadow work, learning about Yoga in it's entirety, etc.

I think one of the biggest things holding back my meditation and overall well-being is a massive amount of emotional trauma. I've noticed the meditation sort of tames it, but it doesn't deal with the issue. This led me to trying different healing techniques, and thankfully today I found one that actually works from me, after watching the documentary E-motion. Sorting these out seems vastly more important than meditation right now, although I'm still maintaining the practice. 

[Hellspeed]

Follow the involuntary movements and insights. 

[Tony 845]

@Elysian  holy shit this sounds exactly like what I just went through! My eyes fluttering was the most shocking of all, also I was trembling like crazy in my chest area, I had never felt any energy like that in my life it happens like a week ago! My 3rd eye also pulsates like crazy, Some times it's soo intense it gets annoying, apparently leo has some good books on kundalini symptoms on his page & i also unnoticed when I don't eat meat the kundalini is even stronger!!!!

Edited November 4, 2018 by Tony 845
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[Elysian]

2 hours ago, Tony 845 said:

@Elysian  holy shit this sounds exactly like what I just went through! My eyes fluttering was the most shocking of all, also I was trembling like crazy in my chest area, I had never felt any energy like that in my life it happens like a week ago! My 3rd eye also pulsates like crazy, Some times it's soo intense it gets annoying, apparently leo has some good books on kundalini symptoms on his page & i also unnoticed when I don't eat meat the kundalini is even stronger!!!!

If the third eye activates just think of it as a gift and express gratitude to Source, might change your view on it. Something else I'd try is when you feel the energy there (I'm not sure if it's energy coming in?), try to reach out for guidance. Say in your mind that you have some questions if anyone could provide you with some insight. Try to make your intentions of love and gratitude strong while doing so. Then listen with a quiet mind and receptivity/surrender. I'd be interested to see if you hear anything back.

I've been in communication daily with what seems to be a few different sources of information. One seems very quick and intuitive, another I think might be someone I personally know but can't confirm yet, and another I'm just going to leave as being 3 here. 

I think when ajna is activated (when you feel the strong energy there) it opens you up to what they call supernatural abilities. Think channeling, akashic records, etc. I think that is what I've been experiencing. Maybe making all the changes that you know in your heart you should might increase the abilities by letting Source know your intentions/seriousness.

4 hours ago, Hellspeed said:

Follow the involuntary movements and insights. 

Most definitely, my growth is happening exponentially trusting and following this.

Edited November 4, 2018 by Elysian
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