MDA

[Parki]

MDA is a great psychedelic.
Don't dismiss it as some funny usless reacreational drug with somewhat psychedelic properties.
This is real.
It could be the best and the worst trip of your life.
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This is the first time I started question reality.
Just a little.
Leo was right.
If even all craziest conspiracy theories were true,
It's nothing compare to this

[Parki]

this is not something you will lose when the drug wears off
this can't be unseen
you won't have an ego death(at least I didn't)
there is something else important for you to discover when the ego is full blown
 

[Parki]

I never was happy.
Even on high dose of MDMA.
Something was always off.
Now I am starting to guess why.

Truth is not something to discover new.
You hided it from yourself because you can't handle it,
so watch out
you will be in your worst nightmare
but this is real and you are not asleep

[i am I AM]

How is this the worst nightmare ,again? Are you joking? 

Maybe are you fighting using the ego mind, as well as intruding concepts? (that's a nono, lol)

[Parki]

and even I am in my worst nightmare
I would't say ignorance is bliss

see it and take it full
 

[i am I AM]

I guess the real question is, are they/is it using you? Or are you using it?

[Parki]

@i am I AM  if you are the only thing that there is, and you trick yourself into falsehood, how would you discover the truth?

Do you think an ego death is a great insight?
You will see something while ego is there, which is totally 

[Parki]

@i am I AM that's irrelevant.
I am paranoid,
but not life wise.
I don't think there is someone watching me,
or anyone is trying to kill me
I am paranoid existentially

I knew that something is wrong
but I can't believe it

[Parki]

ego is total, it's not a part of it, it's the whole thing
everything you see is a lie

spirtual teachings seem to be a distraction
just as distration as social media

[i am I AM]

I see, well then here is a new question. Yay:

Then wouldn't that mean I make the truth, then? If I'm just ego, I believe this. And nothing could make me otherwise.

[Parki]

Everything is a distraction.
There is nothing wrong with being at the spell of deception.
 

[i am I AM]

Sounds like the salvation in the nightmare.

[Parki]

If you are a spirtual seeker
and you think you are a self and you need to get to no self
no
you are here for something
and you won't pass the ego until you discover this

going to no self is a distration
this is not spirtuality

[Parki]

4 minutes ago, i am I AM said:

Sounds like the salvation in the nightmare.

ye I start liking it
but when I just got it was the most scary thing ever.

Imagine someone tells you that you will be executed tomorrow
it's kinda like that