emotional purging

[YaMayka]

I don't know how else to call it - I think that's what is happening to me. It started with meditation when I was focusing on my body - at first I thought that my body was just re-adjusting a position or something - it would suddenly relax. Now I feel energy clouds of different forms in my body and when I focus my awareness on them, they dissolve. And most of the time I feel a relief. Sometimes they are very difficult to melt and they feel weird, sometimes I have to focus on another body part as well to have them disappear. After a while the process took over and it is happening just by itself, it is pushing me during the day, if I do nothing I feel bad. I think they were causing my horrible migraines, I just was not aware of them in the past. I had to go through a lot of memories to work through some issues (to be sure that I do not repeat the same pattern and I have a lot of homework to do). It just keep purging... Anybody knows how long it will last? I am not complaining or anything, just would like to see the light at the end

[How to be wise]

@YaMayka If you’re serious about emotional purging, use The Work of Byron Katie. Meditation is good but not very reliable. Try reading the book ‘Loving What Is’.

[YaMayka]

Thanks @How to be wise (BTW - is it Katie's photo in your profile? ) I will look into it.

It seems to me that this cleaning up happens in my body a bit like in the Holotropic Breathwork just in a calmer pace. I keep releasing the energy and I see a change in my behaviour  - e.g. yesterday I called somebody on the phone on my initiative without dreading it and trying to avoid it (which has been my pattern for years - anyone who is deeply introverted will understand and appreciate ), I try to make conscious changes in some other patterns. They are not all fixed but there is a start, a movement. I feel different inside - lighter, more spacious, I hear a different, higher humming tone in my ears, I feel more love. I still have some judgemental habitual thoughts but quickly notice them. I think this energy, emotional clouds make a change for me. I was hoping that maybe some one shared the experience.

[Elisabeth]

Sounds... good I guess?

No idea how long. I think I have a similar process running at a much slower pace (I don't exactly feel clouds but ... yeah) so for me the timescale is 'it's been happening more or less over the last five years', but that says nothing about your process. The lightness and ability to feel more positive emotion then I used to feel are worth it for me. 

Edited October 22, 2018 by Elisabeth