im barely interested in anything and i cant read books

[Viking]

1 minute ago, Artaemis said:

Honestly, when you raise your level of consciousness high enough, everything becomes interesting. 

Walking across the room or brushing your teeth or eating blueberries is crazy fulfilling. I'm not kidding. 

honestly i experienced it during the afterglow of an lsd trip and somewhat during a vipassana retreat but its hella unsustainable and i dont know if its attainable for a high paced western lifestyle.

[Haloman]

6 hours ago, Viking said:

honestly i experienced it during the afterglow of an lsd trip and somewhat during a vipassana retreat but its hella unsustainable and i dont know if its attainable for a high paced western lifestyle.

I agree. In summer 2017 i was in vipassana retreat and after that meditated every day until this April. I was calmer and my emotions healthier than know. But boring office job wins over the mood of meditation practice. And know i prefer to smoke weed to raise change my consciousness level. Sad but true.

[Your place at Heart]

1 hour ago, Haloman said:

I agree. In summer 2017 i was in vipassana retreat and after that meditated every day until this April. I was calmer and my emotions healthier than know. But boring office job wins over the mood of meditation practice. And know i prefer to smoke weed to raise change my consciousness level. Sad but true.

It's just how it is. unless you become consistent, you will always fall back to ground zero and you have to suffer to get to your way up gradually everytime you fall back.

Edited October 4, 2018 by Your place at Heart

[Mirror of Confusion]

@Viking did you try to establish a healthy routine? Starting with a morning routine like rising up early, drinking a tea, go for a walk, do some yoga etc. Often this helps to navigate the day in a clear direction

[Mirror of Confusion]

And with books. I read 4-5 books in different genres at the same time so I can switch between them when one seems more appealing

[Leo Gura]

@Viking You have just been zombified by culture.

Take your life back. Stop sucking on culture's stupifying tit.

It will be challenging at first, but worth it.

[Colin]

https://bebrainfit.com/increase-dopamine/

[Hellspeed]

Grounding did the trick for me. 

[Nahm]

On 10/3/2018 at 1:41 PM, Viking said:

any time I read a book i get bored at some point. even if the book has contents that I find somewhat interesting after a while when i keep reading the book i get this feeling like- ''ughhh i dont want to keep reading, i want to do something else'' and i have a feeling i want to sigh.

this doesnt just happen with books, but with books its most prominent. anything i do, watching tv shows and movies, studying, watching youtube videos is just lame. the best interest i could get is not getting bored, nothing gets to "interesting". or it gets there and passes away quickly, but thats very rare.

not only in that but in life in general. everything is so tasteless. going out with friends, participating in workshops, talking with people, eating, going to a vacation.

Also im at the point in the life purpose course where im supposed to write 100 questions that fascinate me most about life and i cant come up with anything authentic really. I got questions like "why does anything exist" and "what experiences are there that i didnt experience" but it doest ring the bell of being "fascinating".

is this because im not experiencing life enough and im always in my head? is this because im overstimulated? (tv shows, porn, etc.) 

Read that through the lens of “what I don’t want”, relax, and write down the opposites,  - what you do want. If you’re at a loss, read it again. 

[Lorcan]

On 10/3/2018 at 6:41 PM, Viking said:

any time I read a book i get bored at some point. even if the book has contents that I find somewhat interesting after a while when i keep reading the book i get this feeling like- ''ughhh i dont want to keep reading, i want to do something else'' and i have a feeling i want to sigh.

this doesnt just happen with books, but with books its most prominent. anything i do, watching tv shows and movies, studying, watching youtube videos is just lame. the best interest i could get is not getting bored, nothing gets to "interesting". or it gets there and passes away quickly, but thats very rare.

not only in that but in life in general. everything is so tasteless. going out with friends, participating in workshops, talking with people, eating, going to a vacation.

Also im at the point in the life purpose course where im supposed to write 100 questions that fascinate me most about life and i cant come up with anything authentic really. I got questions like "why does anything exist" and "what experiences are there that i didnt experience" but it doest ring the bell of being "fascinating".

is this because im not experiencing life enough and im always in my head? is this because im overstimulated? (tv shows, porn, etc.) 

 Viking.

Whats your nutrition look like?

What are you eating and how much of it? How much do you know about how important nutrition is, and how in-depth do you know about it? I think poor or detrimental nutrition could be a big factor. Also. Water. Are you drinking enough? Is your piss yellow? 

Eat properly (research nutrition, do not be filling yourself with junkfood) during your day, exercise for literally 5 minutes, just do a couple push-ups, backbridge's , flail your arms around on the spot, get your heart rate higher than normal , do this outside, make sure you are well hydrated.

THEN, sit down, and read your book.

Have some self discipline when reading, don't stop at the slightest urge, if your body is telling you to move, stop reading, and go move, run, do push-ups jump, whatever, then resume reading.

 

[Viking]

23 minutes ago, Lorcan said:

 Viking.

Whats your nutrition look like?

What are you eating and how much of it? How much do you know about how important nutrition is, and how in-depth do you know about it? I think poor or detrimental nutrition could be a big factor. Also. Water. Are you drinking enough? Is your piss yellow? 

Eat properly (research nutrition, do not be filling yourself with junkfood) during your day, exercise for literally 5 minutes, just do a couple push-ups, backbridge's , flail your arms around on the spot, get your heart rate higher than normal , do this outside, make sure you are well hydrated.

THEN, sit down, and read your book.

Have some self discipline when reading, don't stop at the slightest urge, if your body is telling you to move, stop reading, and go move, run, do push-ups jump, whatever, then resume reading.

 

my nutrition is messy at the moment.

im always hungry. even if i try to eat 3 meals a day, i always crave for food in between the meals. i eat oatmeal with fruits for morning, soup for lunch and something with meat for dinner, but in between i crave for sweets, junk food and stuff, whatever is available at home. ( i love with my parents)

[Lorcan]

16 hours ago, Viking said:

my nutrition is messy at the moment.

im always hungry. even if i try to eat 3 meals a day, i always crave for food in between the meals. i eat oatmeal with fruits for morning, soup for lunch and something with meat for dinner, but in between i crave for sweets, junk food and stuff, whatever is available at home. ( i love with my parents)

This is your problem!

I have a feeling you are constantly craving carbohydrate type foods, and sweet foods. I also have a feeling you use stimulants like coffee. The poison is fucking you up. Stop eating sweets and junk food. Stop it! Cut down on all the processed junk that typically come sin cardboard packaging.

Here is the bulk of my diet, I to live in with my parents. You have to learn what to identify what's junk, what is healthy, and what is least unhealthy. 

This is how I view the foods I regularly consume

-Tinned Mackerel in Sunflower Oil (Healthy)

-Chicken Breast (On it's own, not in bread crumbs or in processed flavoured packets) (Healthy)

-Bananas, Oranges, Apples (Healthy)

-Potatoes (Meh, it's much better than trash, but it's not optimal)

-Rice (Meh, it's still much better than trash, but it's not optimal)

-Eggs (Healthy)

-Homemade soup. (Carrots , Leeks, Broccoli, Vegetable stock, thrown into a pot of boiling water) (Healthy)

-Tinned Heinz Beans (Meh, Kinda Healthy, plain beans are more healthy, much better than trash)

-Frozen Peas (Healthy)

 

Tell your parents to buy some Potatoes , Rice, Peas, Tinned Beans, Tinned Mackerel when they go out shopping. These things really aren't that expensive.

Foods to avoid:

Bread

Milk

All those super marker cereals, that you typically eat in conjunction with milk.

 Try avoid these, eat them as a last resort. I eat them the minority of the time , I sometimes eat them because I get to lazy to cook some rice or potatoes. Do not be lazy. Being lazy comes at a price. Your health. Rice, Potatoes, and Peas are better. Don't be lazy. Start learning to cook for yourself. Learn how to fry eggs, Learn how to boil potatoes, learn how to oven roast chicken breast.

Don't fucking drink glasses of milk. Drink water. Also drink green-tea and various kinds of tea. Learn how to spot sugary or junk versions of otherwise healthy enough food. Don't buy sugar coated maple syrup peanuts, buy regular salted peanuts.

Do not listen to me, verify this for yourself. I am just a fool. Just for the love of god, stay away from the trash. If you get hungry, cook up a plate of rice with some nice soy sauce, or boil some potatoes, or sweet potatoes and eat them with a bit of salt, or pop open a couple of tins of mackerel and eat that. That's miles better than eating a bunch of bread, milk, supermarket cereals, chocolate bars , fat fried chicken etc.

Just because something tastes better does not mean it is better for you. Sure, maple syrup on top of some golden nuggets cereal tastes better than some boiled potatoes with salt on them, but one will slowly fuck you up, the other, less so.

 

Do your own research man. Don't just read a couple of articles off some random ass nutrition websites and think you are a health stud. Get a bigger picture.

I hope I helped.

At the very least, if your house is like barebones of food, get your parents to buy rice (like 2kg bags), potatoes, and some tinned mackerel in sunflower oil. (Or some kind of oily fish stored in oil in a tin) These are VERY easy to keep stock in your house because they are so cheap, and they last a while.

 

Edited October 5, 2018 by Lorcan

[YaMayka]

@Viking @LorcanThat was my first instinct - to check what you are eating (Viking). Clean up your diet because it is making you depressed. I agree to remove gluten and milk from your diet and add SUGAR to it - for minimum 3-4 weeks and see where it takes you. I'd add eggs as well in case they cause allergy but that is up to you. Eat a lot of vegetables, no processed food. I know it is hard but we can do ANYTHING for 3 weeks - you may decide if you want to continue after that or not. For me it changed everything. I'd advise some good supplements. I believe Leo has some video about food and he makes a smoothie or something - check that out. Your body needs an upgrade so that your soul could.

[XYZ]

Try reading books outside.