agurugonewild2018

[Debra]

Sep. 28, 2018

back story 

(I’m a writer, its my life, no stealing for comic relief bits.)

I am magic!

Have been all my life. I read energy usually without being consciously aware. This has cause so much unnecessary discomfort when I was young. My grandmother told me many things that I honored and made my own for a while.

“Don't talk to things, they are gonna lock you in the loony bin”.  She worked at a local state hospital.

“You can’t be Jesus, your a girl, and there was only 1 Jesus.” I have know many men named Jesus.

”You can’t be a doctor!” I practice on myself all the time. 

“ You can’t be an herbalist.” The damm plants and things talk to me when I ask what they are good for, or an article pops up out of nowhere for me to learn from.

”You can’t be a Lawyer.” I helped people do their own divorces for free when was 18, then later worked for an attorney. And me not having an education.

” You can be a nurse or a secretary or just find a nice man and get married.” Nursing one on one is ok, but not in a place so full of people who have died before they got there.

secretarial work is fun. I love paper and organizing everything to make things more efficient.

husbands, I married 3, lived with 5,  sex is fun, but men are too much work. I had more fun with kids when the men where out of the picture and could save more money while having more fun. I gave birth to 6 kids, #1 adoption at age 15, #2 died at birth when I was 16, #3 & #4 are my boys, had them when I was 18 & 20, #5 I had at age 25 and #6 I had when I was 30.

I heard a lot of “Don’t be silly.” When ever I had an idea.

I have played with reading  minds, inserting  thoughts and words, and I’m really good at manipulating the energy of a place or situation. Mostly I know when and where to go and if the energy is my cup of tea.

I have created painful situations for myself and for those I have toyed with. It caused me to be more mindful of the power I have. 

By 9, I knew I was in complete control of what was in my experience, even though I didn’t understand  how or why. By my teens I had resorted to alcohol to help me be more normal and oblivious like the people around me. At 20 I dove into Christianity, moreover, the research aspect. I studied Hebrew and Greek original texts with a open group of people, who wanted to have what I have, and believed it was at least possible. My study was to fine out why and how to use it effectively. But as with everything, Christianity is only 1 brick in the Tower of Babel. My thirties were spent in college seeking connection and knowledge. By about 40 ish, I started understanding more of who and what I am through some Berkeley psychic training courses. I learned was how to disconnect by filling myself and getting bigger than the universe. No need for alcohol. And I can’t be found.

I was the oldest sister of a drummer in a local high school rock band in the sixties, Got pregnant in junior high, grave that baby up for adaptation only to get pregnant again and was forced to marry the lead singer. The second baby was born premature and died. Later I got pregnant by the base player, divorced the first guy and had two kids by the second guy, (love of my life!)

Being a mom was the best/ is the best. I love mothering. I have ultimate say, I can teach and lead, I enjoy babies but it’s the teens and young adults I really enjoy being around. Raised 4 foster kids, worked with at risk teens of upper and lower financial brackets.

Most of my life I have been called “Faire Godmother”. I’ve been told by house cleaning clients, after I had cleaned each week it was more like a spiritual experience for them. If someone wants something and tells me, it materializes. Not so much for me though. Beliefs of “not  good enough, or not me”

ive taken many seminars and read a lot of self help. When I get readings done, I never know if I’m reading the cards that come up before the card is pulled or if I’m directing the pull to that card. I just humor them, sometimes I pick up a new perspective on something I didn’t understand.

Rather than take responsibility for my life experience, I have played dumb. 

I preferr to be alone yet I love people and always draw a crowd into empty places or stores. I make instant friends anywhere. But I don’t like small talk. It bores me.

I worked as a nurse, and a secretary, I married several times. Boring. In my short life I have worked at so many diverse jobs.

I love art: painting, drawing, sewing, weaving, crocheting, dancing, writing, singing, playing my ukulele. I enjoy yoga, hiking, kayaking, swimming, biking, learning and teaching and meditation. 

I have made money doing many things. Currently I depend on SSI, rents, and charity. I dropped my plans to build a cooperative healing village in Hawaii when my 10 year old granddaughter needed me to raise her. I sold the acre on lease option last june.

i moved back to the heart of a busy city on my ex’s property. My granddaughter about to be 13 has my old canned ham that I remodel for her and I bought another for myself so we have some privacy. I prefer solitude and quiet nature. Neat organized setting. My ex is more relaxed and less sensetive.

* I recently did some house sitting for a similar famous person and was able to pay for my actualize.org course.

i returned from being away for a month and I got sick. 

Im waiting for the PayPal payment to go through so I can begin in earnest. I have been streaming Sadhguru, Actuaize, Laura day, Merissa Peer, and meditations, my diet is fare but could be improved, I’m over weight even though I only eat little, I began walking 20 minutes and I continue to stretch in the morning. I’m working on my book currently, maybe I can get it finished befor actuaize life purpose course kicks in.

[Debra]

On 9/28/2018 at 2:20 PM, Debra said:

Sep. 28, 2018

back story 

(I’m a writer, its my life, no stealing for comic relief bits.)

I am magic!

Have been all my life. I read energy usually without being consciously aware. This has cause so much unnecessary discomfort when I was young. My grandmother told me many things that I honored and made my own for a while.

“Don't talk to things, they are gonna lock you in the loony bin”.  She worked at a local state hospital.

“You can’t be Jesus, your a girl, and there was only 1 Jesus.” I have know many men named Jesus.

”You can’t be a doctor!” I practice on myself all the time. 

“ You can’t be an herbalist.” The damm plants and things talk to me when I ask what they are good for, or an article pops up out of nowhere for me to learn from.

”You can’t be a Lawyer.” I helped people do their own divorces for free when was 18, then later worked for an attorney. And me not having an education.

” You can be a nurse or a secretary or just find a nice man and get married.” Nursing one on one is ok, but not in a place so full of people who have died before they got there.

secretarial work is fun. I love paper and organizing everything to make things more efficient.

husbands, I married 3, lived with 5,  sex is fun, but men are too much work. I had more fun with kids when the men where out of the picture and could save more money while having more fun. I gave birth to 6 kids, #1 adoption at age 15, #2 died at birth when I was 16, #3 & #4 are my boys, had them when I was 18 & 20, #5 I had at age 25 and #6 I had when I was 30.

I heard a lot of “Don’t be silly.” When ever I had an idea.

I have played with reading  minds, inserting  thoughts and words, and I’m really good at manipulating the energy of a place or situation. Mostly I know when and where to go and if the energy is my cup of tea.

I have created painful situations for myself and for those I have toyed with. It caused me to be more mindful of the power I have. 

By 9, I knew I was in complete control of what was in my experience, even though I didn’t understand  how or why. By my teens I had resorted to alcohol to help me be more normal and oblivious like the people around me. At 20 I dove into Christianity, moreover, the research aspect. I studied Hebrew and Greek original texts with a open group of people, who wanted to have what I have, and believed it was at least possible. My study was to fine out why and how to use it effectively. But as with everything, Christianity is only 1 brick in the Tower of Babel. My thirties were spent in college seeking connection and knowledge. By about 40 ish, I started understanding more of who and what I am through some Berkeley psychic training courses. I learned was how to disconnect by filling myself and getting bigger than the universe. No need for alcohol. And I can’t be found.

I was the oldest sister of a drummer in a local high school rock band in the sixties, Got pregnant in junior high, grave that baby up for adaptation only to get pregnant again and was forced to marry the lead singer. The second baby was born premature and died. Later I got pregnant by the base player, divorced the first guy and had two kids by the second guy, (love of my life!)

Being a mom was the best/ is the best. I love mothering. I have ultimate say, I can teach and lead, I enjoy babies but it’s the teens and young adults I really enjoy being around. Raised 4 foster kids, worked with at risk teens of upper and lower financial brackets.

Most of my life I have been called “Faire Godmother”. I’ve been told by house cleaning clients, after I had cleaned each week it was more like a spiritual experience for them. If someone wants something and tells me, it materializes. Not so much for me though. Beliefs of “not  good enough, or not me”

ive taken many seminars and read a lot of self help. When I get readings done, I never know if I’m reading the cards that come up before the card is pulled or if I’m directing the pull to that card. I just humor them, sometimes I pick up a new perspective on something I didn’t understand.

Rather than take responsibility for my life experience, I have played dumb. 

I preferr to be alone yet I love people and always draw a crowd into empty places or stores. I make instant friends anywhere. But I don’t like small talk. It bores me.

I worked as a nurse, and a secretary, I married several times. Boring. In my short life I have worked at so many diverse jobs.

I love art: painting, drawing, sewing, weaving, crocheting, dancing, writing, singing, playing my ukulele. I enjoy yoga, hiking, kayaking, swimming, biking, learning and teaching and meditation. 

I have made money doing many things. Currently I depend on SSI, rents, and charity. I dropped my plans to build a cooperative healing village in Hawaii when my 10 year old granddaughter needed me to raise her. I sold the acre on lease option last june.

i moved back to the heart of a busy city on my ex’s property. My granddaughter about to be 13 has my old canned ham that I remodel for her and I bought another for myself so we have some privacy. I prefer solitude and quiet nature. Neat organized setting. My ex is more relaxed and less sensetive.

* I recently did some house sitting for a similar famous person and was able to pay for my actualize.org course.

i returned from being away for a month and I got sick. 

Im waiting for the PayPal payment to go through so I can begin in earnest. I have been streaming Sadhguru, Actuaize, Laura day, Merissa Peer, and meditations, my diet is fare but could be improved, I’m over weight even though I only eat little, I began walking 20 minutes and I continue to stretch in the morning. I’m working on my book currently, maybe I can get it finished befor actuaize life purpose course kicks in.

@Debra

[Debra]

Clearly I am not fluent in using this program.

but this is my journal entry for me by me.

i seemed to have lost the earlier post.

so to reiterate, paid for life purpose course 9/28/18, It opened up for me on 10/1/18. I have been diligent and doggedly persistent in completing every bit of the course as prescribed. I was a bit daunted at times, especially after the clearing meditation wiped out my values list and I had to start over from scratch on that whole process. I love all the paperwork but my hands have been aching ever night. Those last hundred questions weren’t terribly hard but thankfully Leo gave the heads up about finishing the entire 100. So I pushed on to the end. 

I must say this is an eye opener for me. 

No wonder I have stalled for 64 years.

im looking forward to taking a break and doing some reading and some book reports. It’ll give my hand a rest.

i am determined to complete this course and Be among the top 5 in leo successes.

[John Iverson]

On 9/29/2018 at 5:20 AM, Debra said:

Sep. 28, 2018

back story 

(I’m a writer, its my life, no stealing for comic relief bits.)

I am magic!

Have been all my life. I read energy usually without being consciously aware. This has cause so much unnecessary discomfort when I was young. My grandmother told me many things that I honored and made my own for a while.

“Don't talk to things, they are gonna lock you in the loony bin”.  She worked at a local state hospital.

“You can’t be Jesus, your a girl, and there was only 1 Jesus.” I have know many men named Jesus.

”You can’t be a doctor!” I practice on myself all the time. 

“ You can’t be an herbalist.” The damm plants and things talk to me when I ask what they are good for, or an article pops up out of nowhere for me to learn from.

”You can’t be a Lawyer.” I helped people do their own divorces for free when was 18, then later worked for an attorney. And me not having an education.

” You can be a nurse or a secretary or just find a nice man and get married.” Nursing one on one is ok, but not in a place so full of people who have died before they got there.

secretarial work is fun. I love paper and organizing everything to make things more efficient.

husbands, I married 3, lived with 5,  sex is fun, but men are too much work. I had more fun with kids when the men where out of the picture and could save more money while having more fun. I gave birth to 6 kids, #1 adoption at age 15, #2 died at birth when I was 16, #3 & #4 are my boys, had them when I was 18 & 20, #5 I had at age 25 and #6 I had when I was 30.

I heard a lot of “Don’t be silly.” When ever I had an idea.

I have played with reading  minds, inserting  thoughts and words, and I’m really good at manipulating the energy of a place or situation. Mostly I know when and where to go and if the energy is my cup of tea.

I have created painful situations for myself and for those I have toyed with. It caused me to be more mindful of the power I have. 

By 9, I knew I was in complete control of what was in my experience, even though I didn’t understand  how or why. By my teens I had resorted to alcohol to help me be more normal and oblivious like the people around me. At 20 I dove into Christianity, moreover, the research aspect. I studied Hebrew and Greek original texts with a open group of people, who wanted to have what I have, and believed it was at least possible. My study was to fine out why and how to use it effectively. But as with everything, Christianity is only 1 brick in the Tower of Babel. My thirties were spent in college seeking connection and knowledge. By about 40 ish, I started understanding more of who and what I am through some Berkeley psychic training courses. I learned was how to disconnect by filling myself and getting bigger than the universe. No need for alcohol. And I can’t be found.

I was the oldest sister of a drummer in a local high school rock band in the sixties, Got pregnant in junior high, grave that baby up for adaptation only to get pregnant again and was forced to marry the lead singer. The second baby was born premature and died. Later I got pregnant by the base player, divorced the first guy and had two kids by the second guy, (love of my life!)

Being a mom was the best/ is the best. I love mothering. I have ultimate say, I can teach and lead, I enjoy babies but it’s the teens and young adults I really enjoy being around. Raised 4 foster kids, worked with at risk teens of upper and lower financial brackets.

Most of my life I have been called “Faire Godmother”. I’ve been told by house cleaning clients, after I had cleaned each week it was more like a spiritual experience for them. If someone wants something and tells me, it materializes. Not so much for me though. Beliefs of “not  good enough, or not me”

ive taken many seminars and read a lot of self help. When I get readings done, I never know if I’m reading the cards that come up before the card is pulled or if I’m directing the pull to that card. I just humor them, sometimes I pick up a new perspective on something I didn’t understand.

Rather than take responsibility for my life experience, I have played dumb. 

I preferr to be alone yet I love people and always draw a crowd into empty places or stores. I make instant friends anywhere. But I don’t like small talk. It bores me.

I worked as a nurse, and a secretary, I married several times. Boring. In my short life I have worked at so many diverse jobs.

I love art: painting, drawing, sewing, weaving, crocheting, dancing, writing, singing, playing my ukulele. I enjoy yoga, hiking, kayaking, swimming, biking, learning and teaching and meditation. 

I have made money doing many things. Currently I depend on SSI, rents, and charity. I dropped my plans to build a cooperative healing village in Hawaii when my 10 year old granddaughter needed me to raise her. I sold the acre on lease option last june.

i moved back to the heart of a busy city on my ex’s property. My granddaughter about to be 13 has my old canned ham that I remodel for her and I bought another for myself so we have some privacy. I prefer solitude and quiet nature. Neat organized setting. My ex is more relaxed and less sensetive.

* I recently did some house sitting for a similar famous person and was able to pay for my actualize.org course.

i returned from being away for a month and I got sick. 

Im waiting for the PayPal payment to go through so I can begin in earnest. I have been streaming Sadhguru, Actuaize, Laura day, Merissa Peer, and meditations, my diet is fare but could be improved, I’m over weight even though I only eat little, I began walking 20 minutes and I continue to stretch in the morning. I’m working on my book currently, maybe I can get it finished befor actuaize life purpose course kicks in.

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