Weird yet awesome experience

[bejapuskas]

Today I went to school, it was quite cold outside, but I was fine with just wearing a T-shirt. Then I realized I only have a T-shirt (and trousers) on and everyone else is wearing jackets and jumpers. I found out that I could control my bodys approach to the feeling of cold by my own consciousness, it was great. I could go from full shaking mode to a peaceful state any time I wanted.

When I started going deeper, I began to feel like love. It wasnt like love towards something, but rather I was the love. It felt GREAT. I went to school with a smile on my face, all of my classmates around were looking at me in a weird way as I was laughing my ass off. Then I started being less and less conscious, began to complain and have some weird low-consciousness thoughts and the feeling vanished.

Did you have any similar experience happening to you? I am not writing this because I want to impress someone, but I feel like its an ego trap... could ego make up something like this to trap me in it? Was this actually some higher consciousness and my ego wants me to get off the track? I dont feel like fighting the ego, I rather want to unify with it, its not even the way that I entered this state, but I want to know if this is actually a good sign?

Its also surprised me that I havent been meditating for some time actually, so this was like out of nowhere thing... It all felt too similar to what Leo and other teachers are saying, its almost crystal-clear illusion... But I am still not sure, is anyone further than me in investigating this?

[NoSelfSelf]

Like everything else its ups and downs until it becomes second nature...

[Cocolove]

No, you're not deluding yourself. These kind of experiences can have so many different characteristics. All I can say from my experience is how important it is to watch yourself analyze it once it's over. The "ego", you, will want to make sense of it through thought. Let it happen while maintaining awareness and you'll save yourself from letting this get you into an "ego trap".

[Consilience]

I don't think this would be a trap. The letting go of suffering, or the letting go of the concept that cold = suffering in your case, is very much a form of meditation. Have I had similar experiences? In a way yes, in so far as experiencing pain for itself rather than experiencing pain as suffering. Any sensation which causes suffering is not inherently a sensation of suffering. It is only until our ego's conceptually label sensations (such as cold) as suffering do they actual cause suffering haha. 

But yeah meditation is powerful stuff! It's not surprising that you're able to achieve this even with little practice. I would continue to contemplate on your experience and try and sink deeper and deeper into states of being, experiencing consciousness AS ITSELF without labeling your present experience as "good" or "bad." 

Awesome insight dude! 

[bejapuskas]

Thanks everyone! I really have so much more motivation to meditate now... Just imagine if this was your permanent state