Journal entry - 9-24-18 Practicing spiritual autolysis. I'm supposed to write down something I know to be true and then rewrite it until I have something that is true.  Here's something I know to be true.  I am unhappy with my body.  So first of all, I don't know what I am, so how can I say I'm unhappy? Why would I be unhappy with my body? Because I don't like what I expect it to look like? Because I have ashamed of it since puberty when it got all wonky? I also don't know what a body is, so here's a truer statement : I (whatever that is) am unhappy (whatever that is) with my body (whatever that is).  What is unhappy? What is happy? If I am not happy now, then how do I know it exists? I don't even know what existence is.  So assuming I could know what I am to be unhappy about, why would I be so unhappy with my body? Because of what I think to be what others like to see? I don't even know what they see. I don't even know what I see about the body is true. Or as others see it.  I don't even know what seeing is. I don't know what knowing is. I don't know what "is"  is.  I don't know...  I don't...  don't...  ....   There's no way to say it.  I don't know if there even is something to say. I don't know what "is" means. Perhaps I could say "it is something that is everlasting". But I have to use the word "is" to describe what is is.  Perhaps that is the answer.  Is is.  Put it together and you have Isis, the goddess of hope.  But I don't know what a goddess is. I assume that phrase was pulled out of Samuel's construct, but I don't even know what a construct is. Or what a Samuel is I don't know what hope is. I don't know what anything is. I don't know what "is" is.  ------- End of entry. Looks like I got really off track with breaking down my original statement, but it did go somewhere unexpected.