Food Court Do Nothing Meditation | No Free Will Insight / semi-experience

[SoonHei]

I usually do some of my meditations during my lunch hour

Usually I do them in a quite room which is used for normal american-style yoga but it's vacant during lunch hour. so i go there and do my thing.

decided to do meditation in the noise and crowd of the food court - I work in an office which is in a mall.

i chose a spot in a corner from which I could look out straight and not be worried about anyone looking at me staring blankly forward

 

so i did this - it just felt so different, i am not sure if it was the fact that I was sitting awfully still in a public place and all else was moving around me vs normally sitting in an empty room staring at a wall or closing eyes

 

so i had this instant realization that all is happening on it's own accord. All, being the people sounds sights in-front of me

i then had a thought where i asked myself - am I doing anything to cause these people in-front of me to move, talk, walk, eat etc? or is it all just happening on it's own accord? what is my experience of this?  sure my understanding of reality tells me that there is "life"/"soul" in each of these bodies which is moving them, making them talk/walk etc... but in my experience, i witness it all happening... am I doing anything to cause it to happen or am i just still and observing it all?

 

so what i realized was that just as" I " do NOT have to do ANYTHING AT ALL to make all that which appears in my experience happen (birds fly, cars move, people walk/talk, sounds) - similarly " I " do NOT have to do ANYTHING AT ALL to make what I call "my body/me" move, talk, eat, think, observe, feel, taste 

I witness all of that, including the little section of my experience linked with "me" 

here the difference between my experience and me - the separation was seen to be very clear - in contrast with all else i was looking at in the food court

 

" I " just wrongly associate myself to be this body+thoughts whereas I am ALL OF MY EXPERIENCE as ONE

There is no FREE WILL - all that happens, just happens with the illusion of choice limited to that which I have wrongly identified as ME