My Walking Meditation Experience

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Disclaimer - I've tried to translate to words so that you would all understand it in a way closest to the original experience of mine, I also understand (to me at least) language is dangerous to express these experiences in because of the way your mind has structured your own understanding on the subject, but it makes my ego feel nice to share ?

 

Yesterday I started myself on a short walking meditation around my backyard, to set the scene a little i was walking about 100m in circumference, past such scenes as trees, basketball court, my house, pool & various other external visuals & over many different terrains, all while throwing a small basketball from one hand to the other.

When my body is active during a meditation sometimes to keep my mind focused I'll use different techniques simultaneously, so self inquiry & do nothing were my two main focuses that day, you might call it counteractive but it's what works for me sometimes.

After about 5-10 minutes my mind started gaining traction on the self inquiry process, the first 'breakthrough' you could say felt like my mind flipping through a thousand slideshows of ideas in which they each got tossed to the wind because I 'knew' that they were simply just that, ideas, thoughts, a process for which traps occur, and the 'opening' of my mind or the 'letting go' part was a simple idea of having no free will, which was the Pandora box so to speak of my experience.

What occurred felt like devoid space opened, exposed and exploded within me simultaneously & in alignment, a silver string that connected me to my 'self' let go and I saw the world like I was watching a movie, raw senseoral, pure experiential, transparent & blissfully aware state where I was surrendered to the experience itself, I could have stayed like that forever, my perspective was radically different from anything I have known & my mind stuck to the idea of it feeling like my own personal movie with that I was watching everything happen, internal & extrenal senses all at once, it was what felt like experience itself and the only reminder of it now is a mere ghosts whisper that's left a shimmer of what was.

This state lasted for another 10 minutes in which I tried to experiment what happened if I held the ball still in my hands, which brought back a rushing feeling of the 'self' into my awareness, 'I' made this decision, my ego informed me and in return 'me' jumped back in its slot, filled up the space which had opened but always been & almost felt like an intruder to my existence.

After deliberation on the experience I've come to place it quite minuscule to what I 'see' enlightenment to be in the long run, but has only further motivated me more than anything has previously, showing a small gap in the mind & helping me not get so lots in the many, many, many traps is plays.

 

 

Edited March 28, 2016 by Kenya