SDi - can you pick and choose?

[YaMayka]

I have been just trying to analyse retrospectively how I came to the stage that I am in now. I honestly have a problem to pick a point in time and say it happened then and then when I transitioned to a new level. But clearly I must have. Maybe I need to contemplate more...

So far I only had this feeling that I more kept something from every meme that I valued most (maybe also some less healthy manifestations as well) and now I only use them in a manner that is unique to me and not disturbing to other people. What I mean is that I am trying to use these values (purple, red, orange, blue, green etc.) to my and other people's benefit being aware of their consequences. It's not like I am not these colours any more, like I am beyond them. It is like they surface all together at once. Am I making any sense?

[YaMayka]

No one picked up this subject but it does not mean that I stopped thinking about it - and the more I spend on it I think that there is no other way than to properly integrate all colours and have them at hand and using wisely with a meta-awareness. That's what makes you 2nd tier. That is also why you should not forget about beige and purple and red - they are crucial part of our development and they are deep inside us. All stages are and we don't just change into another colour - we simply get another layer until we are able to use them all. We are all bloody rainbows

[StardewValley]

I was a fundamentalist Christian at first, which you could say is blue. Reading psychedelic forum posts and listening to Alan Watts changed this for me, especially the first time that I heard Alan Watts's interpretation of Jesus. Also, I hated the idea that Christians went to heaven and everybody else went to hell. What about all the devout Muslims and stuff who worship God and do good? Why do they have to be tortured forever just because they picked the wrong religion? 

At one point I cared about my looks and girls' looks while disregarding personality, and I looked down upon "losers." I wanted to be a celebrity for the same reason that everybody else wants to be a celebrity: for attention. You could say this was my orange phase. This changed mostly when I had my first genuinely scary experience in my life. I started to care about everyone and making the world a better place. 

Since I want stage green to conquer the world, it probably means that I am a stage green. However, no stage made me say "yes Leo, that's exactly how the world is" more than his yellow video. I am indeed a lone wolf who likes new ideas and is triggered by closed-mindedness.