Motivation when life's knocked you down

[tashawoodfall]

People used to describe me as the most motivated person they know.  After life has beaten me down and kicked me while I was there for about 5 months straight now -just one thing after another many of them so random and coincidental it's unbelievable, I'm finding it difficult to pick myself back up, dust my shoulders off and find that motivation for life again.

I've even used the techniques I learned from Leo's videos and others to deal with these strong negative emotions.  The videos, the books, the techniques seem to have stopped working.  The life purpose I've cultivated that used to bring me to tears does not motivate me anymore.  It's as if I've stopped giving a fuck.  

If this is indeed the belly of the beast it's not a joke.  It's as if I'm constantly fighting with my own inner demons I had no idea existed all while I'm pushing myself to new levels and right after I've gotten past fucking threshold guardians just one after the fucking other non-stop and now fighting with myself and my psychology.  When you think you're stronger and it's just got you on your knees.  Just had to share.

[Sashaj]

Yeah it’s no joke and feels like shit. But it  is fertile ground for growth. My best moments come after a beat down. Sometimes it just what you need to give the right perspective to move forward

Maybe take a break from you pursuits and idle for a bit. Build up some energy for round 2. Or stop fighting altogether and do nothing