2hr of meditation everyday for 30 of them.

[weAREallSCAREDtoDIE]

I am working on a few things.

I am writing a book about food addiction along with workout addiction and it's relation to trauma.

A large part of it is about healing trauma and the different modalities to do so.

 

I will have a section in the book about meditation, but I have a hard time writing about things I don't have experience with(just feels unauthentic). I've meditated for 2hrs a day before in my life, but I am in very different place in life. I am looking to see it effects of it here.

Ideally this isn't just a log of 2 hours meditation, but somewhat of a place  to reflect,  organize insights and ideas.

 

I will be playing with a few techniques, but most of the practice will be:

*I breath focused, prana meditation

*metta meditation and different forms of Tibetan Imagery

*I am also working under a David Deida coach and he has me practicing some specific exercises.

 

 

Here I go.............

 

 

 

[Hello from Russia]

These things you mentioned won't help with addiction that much imo.

What I found works best to develop self-mastery (it includes unwiring from unwanted behaviour) is Strong determination sitting for 1h or more + do nothing technique (observation of your impulses\desires\sensations and surrendering to them). 

But that would probably be too hardcore for your target audience

P.s. this topic probably belongs to meditation section or life purpose\business section

Edited August 23, 2018 by Hello from Russia

[weAREallSCAREDtoDIE]

@Hello from Russia

Thanks for the reply.

"These things you mentioned won't help with addiction that much imo."

Some studies would suggest otherwise. I see it as more of a combination of developing  a strong coping method, changing brain state which its affects ripple throughout the day, and getting more intouch with sensations (mind body connection).

The connection to body is imperative for healing trauma which is highly correlated with addiction.

 

What you suggested is akin to Zen practices, but usually they start most beginniners off with a focused meditation because the ability of quality focus is limited. AKA it is too easy for a beginner  meditator to spend 99.999 precent of their time  thinking. Which will be a slower progression than first building up concentration. Of course, Zen protocol depends on the teacher, school of Zen and student. So keep in mind variation and not all prescriptions are universal.

 

 

 

 

Edited August 29, 2018 by weAREallSCAREDtoDIE

[weAREallSCAREDtoDIE]

So I started off pretty bumpy.

Went to Vegas with a ex-girlfriend and we just played. No meditation done there.

I will re-start, starting today.

Will update shortly:

Day 1:

15 minute sitting meditation 

About 45 breath meditation while doing things

10min of open

5min inncantions 

Total:1.25hrs

 

 

Insights:

*sitting meditation  is potent as fuck.

*it is very obvious that different styles of meditation has different effects on the mind/body. My meditation coach really believes that practicing extending my exhale and breathing into my hooch will change my being. I can see this. 

*I really want to develop my diaphramic breathing. I can feel an emotional block there.

*my ability to sit and focus on anything is about equivalent to my ability to do sitting meditation 

*I have a good foundation in breath focused meditation,  but I don't in other meditations. This is something I want to develop.

*This is such an awesome project. It is so true that brining measurements, metrics to things is "terminal vagueness"

*I think I can easily make this log into 3hrs a day with, 20min breathing sitting,  20min of a sitting open monitoring form of meditation, 1.5hr of diaphramic breathing, 30min of inncantions or metta

 

 

 

Edited August 30, 2018 by weAREallSCAREDtoDIE

[weAREallSCAREDtoDIE]

Update:

I basically want to be a monk.

I don't have much time to sit.

I need to bringing these practices in my everyday life.

I also realize emotional exercises are vital for a life full of work that is dull in nature. Sure I could use my brain the frame and create meaning in the most meaningless of take, and that is probably not a bad thing to do, but like how a good meditation session leaves a powerful ripple effect of conciousness throughout the day, so does a powerful emotional expeirences. So the act of inducing powerful emotional states are vital to this journey of beyond excellence.

My goal tonight:

Diaphragmic breathing to a 5-3 count while doing cardio tonight.

Will report in

Edited September 6, 2018 by weAREallSCAREDtoDIE