random jungle noise

[now is forever]

@tsuki

ok then it’s not my fault but yours?

no seriously you are right - but still you invite others in if you do it openly. either just to read or to comment.

and tsuki you zoomed in, too. 

maybe you zoomed in in both cases. and i‘m just good in touching scars.

Edited November 20, 2018 by now is forever

[tsuki]

14 minutes ago, now is forever said:

ok then it’s not my fault but yours?

Why look for fault?
The situation is the result of your touching of my unresolved things.
Or, it is the result of my unresolved things being touched by you.

There is no difference between the two. Not in my experience.

Edited November 20, 2018 by tsuki

[now is forever]

@tsuki   

38 minutes ago, now is forever said:

ok then it’s not my fault but yours?

joke (it’s even a family insider)

Edited November 20, 2018 by now is forever

[now is forever]

17 minutes ago, tsuki said:

Why look for fault?
The situation is the result of your touching of my unresolved things.
Or, it is the result of my unresolved things being touched by you.

There is no difference between the two. Not in my experience.

yes - explosiv...

i wouldn’t have touched it if it wouldn’t have touched me, too.

i have seen so many explosions and still i don’t get the precues right because i never experienced precues. and still the explosion is kind of shocking.

Edited November 20, 2018 by now is forever

[now is forever]

@tsuki where do you want to bring that explosive energy to? can you let it explode differently? 

and i‘m not your mother!!! and no punching bag.

i just try to show you something. (it is an exchange tsuki - i learn from you, too) but i can’t squeeze myself into a lens, if the lens looks like a prism.

Edited November 20, 2018 by now is forever

[tsuki]

26 minutes ago, now is forever said:

i just try to show you something. (it is an exchange tsuki - i learn from you, too)

For now, I'm not willing to look. I have my own stuff to attend to.
I'll let you know when I'm free enough to follow you.

[now is forever]

@tsuki ok, no problem.

 

[now is forever]

as i like long movies: infinity loop sound meditation.

Edited November 20, 2018 by now is forever
the video was initially pointing at the institution

[now is forever]

that’s how balloons burst by the way. whatever they are filled with.

it is somehow good to know that it’s not our skin that bursts. it‘s only a balloon we are holding in our hand - someone else holds the needle. (it couldn’t burst if we wouldn’t hold a ballon)

i guess also, that we must be willing to integrate the outside world completely to understand that the balloon is a needle for someone else.

Edited November 20, 2018 by now is forever

[now is forever]

metatrons cube - discovered it a week ago - call it synchronicity of coincidences

but it‘s not even a coincidence, it’s part of this game to discover it.

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[now is forever]

why can’t i stop? the metaphysics of sight is light - in an universal view.

it can’t be darkness, because darkness is the background, darkness is space. you can’t see anything if there is no light, therefore there must be at least a little.

it’s not even my metaphysics. i’m getting so agitated about. it feels more like a game of illusion and manipulation - with the expectation of an open mind on the counterpart.

to hold a mirror to a moon , it feels more like this:

blacklight.

 

very difficult to stay out of it. a mirror is a mirror even if you see more than one shadows in it.

Edited November 20, 2018 by now is forever

[now is forever]

if you play with fire you play with the norns every magician should know that. i stumbled over my own web and got caught in it. 

https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Norns

my metaphysics got messed up, completely.

there is progress but in some areas i got stuck.

and i suppose not only me.

Edited November 20, 2018 by now is forever

[now is forever]

as a reminder what touch is and why touch is not the ego‘s wet dream:

it is a human need and one of the most basic needs what gets neglected in western societies.

being touched and touching someone, touching the heart for example, or even touching the mind as wetware is also skin (and thats the only wet dream) is an equivalent for love.

and it makes up a lot of our basic problems regarding how we are able to love and of being loved - that’s why i said the skin is like a different sense - the skin and the touch is what you could call the boundary. it is the first experience outside of water.

https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Kinship

as far as the definition for me and mine can go.

is this of any help moonbunny?

Edited November 20, 2018 by now is forever

[now is forever]

@tsuki find the simplexes kind of interesting and how they evolve as polytopes. especially 6polytopes and 8polytopes - notice, the space in the middle is mostly empty.

i‘m not sure if that brings you further with the ego though - this is maybe more bauhaus thinking.

in general we often learn to let the space in the middle empty, maybe that’s why we often don’t look what exactly there is in the middle.

https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Pentellated_6-simplexes

https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/8-simplex

Edited November 21, 2018 by now is forever

[now is forever]

i‘ll shut my wifi off for today. flight mode - hope that’s metaphorical for productivity.

mhhh and i‘ll try two apps to controll phone addiction: scrabbit and moment - review will follow.

(even if it will not resolve why i hang around here)

Edited November 21, 2018 by now is forever

[now is forever]

just thought about the gentrification and the constant discussion about integration of foreigners in germany. and about the concept of disintegration. 

and somehow i thought what is the shadow of the spiral? and how to integrate that: spiral dynamics disintegral.

Edited November 21, 2018 by now is forever

[tsuki]

2 minutes ago, now is forever said:

@tsuki what is this?

Post your comments here. Please.

[now is forever]

@tsuki no tsuki this is my space! you can talk to me here but i won’t comment on your mind stuff here.

i‘m the devil tsuki - everything i touch gets touched by chaos.

Edited November 22, 2018 by now is forever

[tsuki]

Just now, now is forever said:

@tsuki no tsuki this is my space!

And my space isn't my space when I ask you to stay out?

[now is forever]

@tsuki yes i‘ll stay out - but then why does the ego want to engage in conversation?