random jungle noise

[now is forever]

Just now, Shin said:

That was the worst choice out of the 3

Wrong answer

and a european and world citizen... can i choose all of them?

[Shin]

Just now, now is forever said:

and a european and world citizen... can i choose all of them?

That's still racist.

What about other planets ? Galaxies and dimensions ?

[now is forever]

Just now, Shin said:

That's still racist.

What about other planets ? Galaxies and dimensions ?

mhh ok... difficult - the artist who swallowed the universe? what shape will i have?

[Shin]

1 minute ago, now is forever said:

mhh ok... difficult - the artist who swallowed the universe? what shape will i have?

Forever fatter than now

It is a certainty

?

[mandyjw]

1 hour ago, mandyjw said:

You're EXACTLY like Jon. 

Jon rarely gets it when I say something stupid just to be stupid. He always thinks I'm being serious. And I continue to do it, time and time again and get offended, time and time again. 

 

[tsuki]

33 minutes ago, mandyjw said:

Jon rarely gets it when I say something stupid just to be stupid. He always thinks I'm being serious. And I continue to do it, time and time again and get offended, time and time again. 

It's an inner conflict. I've been taught to think that it's bad to insult other people, but when I hear such thing I think that you're stupid.
If I truly believed that you're not stupid, I would laugh. Instead, I prefer to make sure that I'm mistaken .

Edited May 26, 2019 by tsuki

[Shin]

37 minutes ago, mandyjw said:

Jon rarely gets it when I say something stupid just to be stupid. He always thinks I'm being serious. And I continue to do it, time and time again and get offended, time and time again. 

 

That must be both sad and funny at the same time

[mandyjw]

Laughing and crying is my life lately. 

 

[Shin]

1 minute ago, mandyjw said:

Laughing and crying is my life lately. 

 

It's basically what life is all about ?

[now is forever]

sorry guys i need to use this space for an instance, to do some journaling.  everything i write is not related to previous conversation. i need this journal to survive. we can talk later.

i‘m surviving some kind of willinglessness to survive... i also survive loneliness... and i survive a sort of laziness about everything that seems mechanical. i‘m surviving the idea that if i once start getting rid of all my problems i won’t have time for the interesting and beautiful things in life anymore.

actually surviving is all i do, so it’s really only about a better or worse way to survive. i notice, that i also survive not being able just to notice.

Edited May 26, 2019 by now is forever

[mandyjw]

@now is forever The observer changes the observed just by the act of observing. I noticed that too.

[now is forever]

Just now, mandyjw said:

@now is forever The observer changes the observed just by the act of observing. I noticed that too.

you mean in yourself?

[sgn]

On 8/14/2018 at 6:06 PM, now is forever said:

this journal is for random output, sharing some inspiration. (real journal is on paper)

 

If you listen closely at the end of the video you can hear the bulldozers coming in.

[mandyjw]

I mean in eveeeeeerything. I thought that's what you were saying, that its difficult to just observe. 

[Shin]

No respect for Hitler girl, sje said to leave her be

GET OUT !!!!!

[now is forever]

11 minutes ago, sgn said:

If you listen closely at the end of the video you can hear the bulldozers coming in.

i never made it to the last hours - i always fell asleep. i‘ll listen to it, thank you.

i love it very much, i guess we all pay for romantizising about the world and trying to make it whole again - paralysis is the worst. the jungle needs a voice for us to notice it.

[sgn]

1 minute ago, now is forever said:

i never made it to the last hours - i always fell asleep. i‘ll listen to it, thank you.

i love it very much, i guess we all pay for romantizising about the world and trying to make it whole again - paralysis is the worst. the jungle needs a voice for us to notice it.

I'm just kidding  I like it too.

[now is forever]

12 minutes ago, sgn said:

I'm just kidding  I like it too.

 happy you like it! i once let it run the whole night, it was really interesting i dreamt a lot but i also woke up a lot and it wasn’t exactly the deepest sleep, although it was really nice, it felt like sleeping in the jungle.

[now is forever]

32 minutes ago, mandyjw said:

I mean in eveeeeeerything. I thought that's what you were saying, that its difficult to just observe. 

it’s not difficult it’s impossible. everything leaves traces. what that means in the sense of light i can’t say, though.

Edited May 26, 2019 by now is forever

[now is forever]

46 minutes ago, Shin said:

No respect for Hitler girl, sje said to leave her be

GET OUT !!!!!

thank you shin ? it’s ok.

i would have just turned the screen off if i wanted to be really really alone... i mean it’s the jungle here now.

Edited May 26, 2019 by now is forever