Hear me out (not promoting trust me)

[chakra_7654321]

*****Not pro mormon or pro religion******* I am not promoting this or any religion bare this in mind

Hope this isn't going to be taken down as this is gray area, but please bare with me, this is a bit crazy and I need some help/ your opinion with reconciliation. 

Althought Leo says no religion, this is focused on what I felt, not the religion itself. 

Not sure if this would go under the dating section, but this has to do with being conscious and direct experience. 

Quick background info, I have been watching actualized.org since late 2015 and have been meditating on off (yeah I know it needs to be daily) since early 2016)

Early 2017 I dated this full blooded mormon (yeah crazy of me right?) and not only was she beautiful, but her personality was so strong such that I gave her a chance and didn't judge someone just because they are a certain religion. She would share with me things about the religion and somethings sounded good, some didn't sound right, but we never got into an argument over these things.

 

We went to NYC to see my sister for New Years 2018, and before we went to see the ball drop, she had requested if I took her to see the Mormon Temple in NYC and so I did. (For those that don't know, you can occasionally go inside if you are a super mormon, but anyone can go in the front lobby). 

I glanced inside the temple and I had this weird vibe about it, I felt "calm and tranquility" and I was 100 % aware of what I was feeling and I was questioning it to death. I briefly  contemplated the situation and moved on, it was cold as balls.

After we left NYC we headed back home (Virginia) we took 95 so we had to pass through Washington DC, and within DC is another temple that my girlfriend requested to see. 

This is were things started to freak me out a bit. 

When we were headed back, I had an option to take an exit that will eventually lead back to the same road, something happened that caused me to take one of the two road (not sure which and why) but several miles down the road (this was at night keep this is mind and my girlfriend was asleep) in the distant on top of a hill, out of nowhere, I saw this gigantic building that was lit up and it was marble and gold, kinda looked like a castle. I was not expecting the temple to be on this road. Immediately when I saw it I automatically felt good inside, I felt some joy, excitement, and relief and in my mind was PURE SKEPTICISM. I woke my girlfriend up and she was happy to see that. She asked to take the exit for the temple and I did. While driving on the back road to get there, I felt this STRANGE feeling in my Solar Plexus Chakra, it was feeling of joy and major confusion. I felt as though that what ever I was feeling could grow more and more throughout my entire body and eventually I can burst into tears. When we went to the front gate, it was closed, but oddly something inside told me to drive farther up (this temple was closed) and the second gate was open. We drove in and she wanted to say a prayer so I let her do her thing. I like to close my eyes and witness the peace and quiet where ever I can find it and I did so after she prayed. When we drove out, immediately the building lights (lights on the physical building on the outside) turned off. This honestly felt paranormal.

 

What do you think this feeling is? I am curious. The reason I am posting this 8 months later is because she recently broke up with me because I wont be able to "understand her" and will create problems and I can't stop thinking about this situation.

 

Thanks friend.

  

Edited August 4, 2018 by chakra_7654321

[Prabhaker]

35 minutes ago, chakra_7654321 said:

Althought Leo says no religion

Meditation is for intellectual type, prayer is for emotional type person, both are the same. If you are honest with yourself, there is nothing with a religion.