Re-entering Self actualization

[Marinus]

So For a great number of months I somewhat took a break from all this work. I noticed myself getting more unconscious and my progress started to flat line.  My life purpose is not as strong as I hoped, I did the course a year ago, but I'm not any closer to it than I was back then. I decided to do the course again, would this be wise or a waste of time? 

The good thing is that I still meditate everyday, so I wasn't completely lost. I also learned that being lost can make you learn a lot about your of pitfalls. Thanks to becoming lost I learned to accept my neurotic sides. Honestly, I'm shocked about all those sides of my personality.

So to get to the point, what advise would you give to someone like me? Self actualization isn't new to me any more, but it still feels like a huge mountain to climb and I don't want to fall of for a second time.

[Brittany]

9 hours ago, Marinus said:

I noticed myself getting more unconscious

This is huge progress. 

Keep noticing when you become unconscious.

Keep noticing over and over and over and over and over and over again. 

You will keep being called back to duality. 

And then you snap out of it.

And then you get called back into duality

And then you snap out of it.

But each time, the pull back into duality gets weaker.

9 hours ago, Marinus said:

Thanks to becoming lost I learned to accept my neurotic sides. Honestly, I'm shocked about all those sides of my personality.

The more you do this work - the more shadows will be revealed. There are many shadows within the human psyche that we don't want to see.

Many of them, I still refuse to look at. Because they are shadows of our ancestors that I don't want to uncover.