THIS is why unconditional love, surrender of judgement, blaming, etc. is so hard...

[kieranperez]

Disclaimer: i don’t want nor am I going to get too into my issue as to how I discovered this.

i totally get now why this whole thing of...

- unconditional love

- surrender of blaming

surrender of judgment 

- surrender of criticism 

- surrender of my entire life story 

- surrender to unconditional happiness

- surrender to vulnerability 

- surrender to being wrong

- surrender of ego to love

... is so tough. It’s the answer we talk about so much using that one little word that a the source of pretty much all individual and collective problems, “ego.” 

I’m trying to reconnect with my mom right now but I also have all these defaense up. But I’m noticing now that my very resistance to doing so and having to let go of all my defenses is showing me just why embodying these abstract things is so hard.

Now I get why enlightenment experiences are so much easier than these embodiments.

[Arkandeus]

you're trying, and I think the universe doesn't ask you for more

 

[Recursoinominado]

When you fail to love unconditionally the one that failed is the next in line to be loved and accepted, as Matt Kahn says. Don't beat yourself for not being able to love as you think you should, just try to accept the one that failed and try again, one step at a time. The answer isn't to say fuck you ego, but to integrate all parts of it, even the one who can't love or the one that thinks he MUST love. 

[kieranperez]

1 hour ago, Feel Good said:

It's the ego that is trying to do all these things. That's probably why it's difficult for you. 

The ego can't do anything except be an ego. It's a mind made fiction therefore it's incapable of surrender. 

I already mentioned that in the post that I’m aware that this is ego. I’m sharing my insight on why this can be tough for us ALL.

Saying all of this is ego really doesn’t mean nor accomplish anything cause that’s still more concepts. 

My goal here with this post was more to kinda share that these “levels” of embodiment aren’t some easy thing. Having awakening experiences in a sense is much easier than overcoming issues regarding our character’s unhealthy/dysfunctional behavior or our shadow elements that we’ve accumulated through things such as trauma, turbulent adolescent years, etc. 

[pluto]

Its easy for some, hard for others. Change your definitions of it, redefine your belief systems. How you respond is what matters and what decides the wavelength in which you experience life.

[the_end_of_me]

This one's problem is that he finds himself doing all of those things, then a split second later could be doing the exact opposite. Getting it to stick is harder than doing at all.  

Another issue he has is he doesn't listen to himself, when he tells himself to do all of those positive things you listed. Although, this could be in part because he doesn't know who's telling, and who's listening. Still needs work on that too. 

Edited July 24, 2018 by the_end_of_me

[Nahm]

@kieranperez Great realization man. ❤️ Wish you the best with mum. In a fun sense, listen to her imagining you actually created her - a lot of resistence from your past relationship can just melt away with that perspective, ego & any issues in the relationship revealed as conditioning. A deep insight of how she truly did her best arises.  We’re all really just doing our best, and it’s so much easier in surrendering the past.