Ego death experience, how deep?

[kateaa]

Just wanted to hear if any of you have had ego death and so how deep was it and how was it for you? 

How deep should it get before you can surrender completely? Even with enlightenment experiences. I guess that there are some degrees of enlightenment. 

I have had a call many times in my life where I would like to drop everything(the life as i know it) and just be. As I know that everything else is distraction

Last night I got a message in my dream: "you forget to live because you are afriad of death" 

 

Edited June 23, 2018 by kateaa

[metwinn]

I wouldn't say I have had a one huge life changing experience of ego death. However I am still able to see the ego now for what it really is and my view has changed over a rather long period of time. There has been a dramatic change in my perception now over the past year especially. I used to believe that I was a person going around making right and wrong decisions for what I call myself, but now I truely see no difference between what I call my body and the grass in my back garden as they both contribute just as much to the decisions that are made in my head and the words that come out of my mouth. I believe that "you" are in no more control of what you believe that you are making a decision to say then I am. Unfortunately I am still far from any degree of surrender and am still working towards it.

@kateaaI think you can only achieve ego death when you realise that you never had any control over what you thought you were making conscious decisions to make and that free will is nothing more than a stubbornly persistent illusion 

Edited June 23, 2018 by metwinn