this post i see how the evil corrupted every religion now we serve the evil not God

[John Iverson]

I studied in La Salle Dasma when i was in college,. La Salle is one of the most top school in my country,.. when i was studying there i feel toxicated to the teachings, it doesn't resonate my values, before I don't know why,.. but yes because my values and my Stage doesn't resonate with them.. i was unconscious back then and so much resistance to study,.. so my mind wired that way,.. I don't want to study,. I don't feel to study.. my motivation level is so loooow! I cannot even read a book.. i'm just memorizing but even memorizing it I cannot do it in a way that i'm gonna top on class it is for my grades to survive but ofcourse with that manner me sometimes failed but i adapt i am not stupid or moron.. infact I don't know what is happening to me since then that i like to  recite! I don't know anything in class but i'm the kind of person that I don't know there is always an answer to me.. i have my own knowlegde.. there is knowledge that it sticks to me and my mind cling to that and i know where to recite that in the future.. but ofcourse i cannot go to the highest place in school with that.. in college i don't have quizess and exaaams because i only recite.. except for the prelim, midterm and finals.. but sometimes if my professor likes my answer and it is advance of course I don't have prelim exam.. the subjects i am good at is philosophy,.. without reading any book.. but it is not always like that .. my problem that time is i feel sick whenever i go to school.. i don't see the importance of it.. i got failed some of my subjects.. Statistics .. ?I took it 3 times before i passed.. very toxic.. you will see me as a lazy guy yes maybe.. until actualized.org came in to my life.. and it changed.. i know in my heart that i want to study anything.. and to have a knowledge it's just that now i understand that it is based on your spiral dynamics or own values... my intuition dictates me that all topics here is 100% truth and what i learn in the school is bulshit.. it is a manipulation  for me to be unconscious for me to sipping the societies tits! Sipping the school system .. actualized.org change everything with my study habits,. I know this is my place that to be lazy is what i need to conquer and i need to change everything in my system just for me to stay in this place.. i love studying stuffs but only here.. and whatever dictates my intuition i go to read or study it..  now i am studying Blue stage of  Spiral Dynamics i read books in my University ,my professor there give me a book to study, before I don't want to study it but now.  as i reading it .. i read this... the picture i am going to upload... when Leo said that long ago the evil manipulate the religion for us to serve evil today's time i see it here.. that makes us more unconscious.. now i realize that my own nature don't want to participate in that mind's game even i am unconscious that time there is in inside me that wants to liberate to that... it leads me here in actualized. Org.. my resistance is until now high but i push myself.. i know i got to be better.. and after months and months in my conscious work.. reading this book i understand what is the problem of each problem stated in this book.. like the government must do there job to support the poor,. And the rich people it is a sin that you don't give a blessing to the poor.. and the sinner of people is a thief, people doing crimes etc.. they don't understand that justice is not the solution , the solution here is compassion!! What i eamn of conpassion??? Compassion is you help that individual because of you know and you understand that the problem is not on the outer.. it is inside... you help them with compassion.. justice is not an act of compassion and an act of consciousness.. it itself an actf of ego mind that have a boundary of you and others.. between right and wrong.. betweek you and the "evil" ???? the solution for poor people is not to  sip in the government titssss,  to give you a money.. you must think how you can create something that will generate to money..  don't go to school.. , because school makes you also sip in the company's titsss.. the job you do there That you spend many years for college, and elementary  is only an exchange for little money.. you work for a company that has trillions of dollars income and your money getting there is only a exchange  to your job you do there.. that is not what we deserve!! We deserve greatnessssss!! We deserve a conscious life.. a conscious society.. and a conscious systeeeem!! with that system of school it is toxic.. we can learn something everything here in the actualized.org.. not int he school that is toxic... 

Edited June 23, 2018 by John Iverson