A few years ago, I was probably depressed. For years I guess. I don't really know what I was feeling, though. I was so efficient at repressing any kind of emotion that I just felt like a broken personal development robot. Every emotion was denied, except shame and pride, but I always felt more shame than pride, to be honest.  Then, one day, I was thinking about my childhood traumas, and even though I didn't feel like a traumatized person at all, I wanted to find out for real. Was I traumatized, without being able to perceive it ? The best way to know was to see an expert. I went there for 10 sessions. And it changed my life. I learned about my subconscious traumas, the way to deal with them. I learned about the importance of self esteem. I went from a nervous and silent weirdo to a more comfortable, extroverted and charming person.  I started getting really interested in personal development after this. Because it really is a process similar to therapy with similar goals. It's about self-awareness. It's about emotional purge. It's about growth. Don't hesitate to see an expert. As it often is the best way to become an expert yourself...