My ego wants me to be the everyman.

[WaterfallMachine]

For some reason, I have an attachment to the self's idea of being normal. Of not doing anything to rock the boat. Of not attracting attention. Of staying humble, and out of the spotlight. I guess the reason is that if I admit to being special or talented in any form, I'm afraid people will come and envy or hate how I am. That if I speak out my own different opinions, I'd attract too much criticism and be thrown out of a group again for having "weird beliefs".

In self inquiry, I let go of the idea of being some succesful world changer -- priding myself on everything I have and admitting no mistakes. But somehow I just got attached to the opposite idea. When I was a much less self aware moron, I attracted people who bashed on how big my ego was, and so now I don't want to admit raising myself to a higher standard of anything.

It's a bad thing because it's a bad influence on my willingness to grow spiritually and in personal development. If I'll become better, then I'll attract more attention. I don't lust for fame. I actively fear it. But much of my own values and life purpose have to do with speaking out my own ideas and personal truth -- and sometimes it requires more attention for words to be spread well.

I have a certain love for the sciences and technology, and I was offered a scholarship to Silicon Valley for college recently. Reaction? Not joy. Not pride. Not relief. Just freaking out the idea that I could call myself having potential that high on anything, and awkward with the idea of the man who offered it thought of me as an outright genius from our personal conversations. Hey, I'm not a genius. I'm just. . . just smart.

[WaterfallMachine]

Anyone here?

No?

Welp.

[ajasatya]

2 minutes ago, WaterfallMachine said:

My ego wants me to be the everyman

say "i want to be the everyman" instead

[WaterfallMachine]

4 minutes ago, ajasatya said:

say "i want to be the everyman" instead

But why?

[Isaac Ben]

45 minutes ago, WaterfallMachine said:

For some reason, I have an attachment to the self's idea of being normal. Of not doing anything to rock the boat. Of not attracting attention. Of staying humble, and out of the spotlight. I guess the reason is that if I admit to being special or talented in any form

Notice who's talking here? Who's trying to stay humble? Who's the one struggling for "social survival"?
If you buy the idea that the thing you call "you" is just an illusion, then there's nothing to be afraid of.

[Nahm]

@WaterfallMachine Cause the ego is made up, thought culminating & perpetuating an idea of a seperate entity. It’s just what the brain barfs up and then stamps “me” on. The ego is smart, and right about it. You’re already every man, and no man. 

[Guest Quanty]

I had similar approach during the first 30 years of my life. Now I simply let the body and emotion dictate what, how and when, even if I get hate or offend people. 

[Arkandeus]

overcoming one's inner ego is the first step

next is dealing with the outer ego,the ego of other people, the ego's all around you

with higher empathy (which leads to telempathy) that you seem to have you are very aware of other people's ego and this is the next step, overcoming the ego of someone else, dealing with the ego of another

 

you're already sensing the effects of your vibration on other people, because you know there will be attention involving light emotions and attention involving dark emotions.

Ill tell you right away you will be famous, people may not know consciously whats going on but subconsciously they will feel it, to enlighten is to embody the light of a star, you literally carry a fuckton of star energy, its physical

and when you pass by its like a electrical current passing by, people are literally inside your electric field, and this happens all the time with everyone,we're all inside each others electric field all the time, we dont notice this connection because most people are tuned into the approximate same range of vibration

so when someone who's on the enlightened path pass by and the energy is a thousand times stronger,its fucking physical,literally, they feel it and they know something is up

Ive entered spaces with people where I felt like an alien visiting because I could feel how far my vibration is from the medial unaware vibration

 

this is not some removed subtle light little feeling shit, vibrations are physical

Ive passed people by and I saw their face instantly light up , their consciousness awaken, as if blinded by the sun, ive seen people be in fear, that start to race, ive seen some look at me with an expression of "???wtf is this, this isnt part ofmy reality?."

some rebel against you 

 suddenly comes someone with power as great as a living star captivated, magnified,their attention pulled like a black hole into the presence of a complete stranger. some resist, instead of letting them get inspired by the magic and power of life, which aims to teach them to how to do this themself, how to have that for their own life and being, they refuse to let another human being bring this gift of energy to them, theyd rather maintain their ego

 

some will turn to fear to hate,to envy, to rejection,rebellion, sabotage

Do know that people who are open-hearted and accepting will not be disturbed, they will gracefully receive your higher energy and will be able to immediately use it for their own vibration and well being, for their own lives, to them this is not a battle of maintaining the ego but a refreshing shower of love

 

  I will tell you this my friend, when you throw someone into envying you or hating you

some people carry a lot of negativity, 

it should not be tolerated though, ever, the desirable outcome is for the person to swallow their own envy and hate, take responsibility, and transmute it into positive energy. even better is to let the highenergy not go to negative emotions but to positive emotions right from the get go, your scholarschip can inspire many people around you, can bring love and joy to many around you, and make a real difference in their lives

to be proud is good, and healthy people who see someone else being proud will see the truth of life, they will be inspired and motivated by you

those who are not willing to put their ego down will funnel negative energy towards you, not you personally, but you are an embodiment of a belief that they do not want to accept, the belief of unity of life ,for most have the belief of separation, that we all survive by ourselves, so they refuse to let someone else deeply inspire them, they refuse to feel this love

the only way is zero tolerance, absolute reflection, you never attack someone, but you absolutely reflect

if someone wants to funnel negative energy your way you let them know, its their absolute right to know that negative energy creates more negative energy, so you reflect that back with zero tolerance and and they will taste what they're serving,thats the truth of life, you get what you emit

 

once you start to enlighten you are a guru to many people the same way there have been guru's to you,whether they know and/or accept this subconsciously or not

there is male and female energy, we are allowed to take action and create what we want, and there are moments where we must submit, those that refuse to submit, to lay their ego down when it is called for, THEY WILL PAY THE PRICE, we are as much kings over life as  life is a queen over us

 

   chose my friend, will you back off being afraid of envy and hate, or you will you go forward, caring about the people that you will inspire, the real positive change that you will bring to this world? your high energy events will help many many more people then the ones who will rebel against you

 

Edited June 10, 2018 by Arkandeus

[WaterfallMachine]

I’d like to say thanks for the advice many people have given me.

@Arkandeus It’s interesting to me how you predicted some changes I’ve been seeing in my life without me saying it directly, and what you said. I do seem to be sensing things about other people, and some things are a little too accurate for some ideas I have to be coincidental. Strange.

I’ve found a strange change in what I can intuit, and I guess my whole life has been turning upside down. I’m a bit afraid to be seen as a crackpot to admit this, but what you said makes sense to me. I’ll take what you said into consideration for my decision.

I’m pretty scared though, and being enlightened doesn’t necessarily mean being famous or everything turning out well like you say, but I do think it will help in my own journey through life. 

See you guys around, and take care.

Edited June 10, 2018 by WaterfallMachine

[Arkandeus]

you are absolutely correct @WaterfallMachineyour path is your own and it is magnificently unique, it is your journey

 

a bit more about zero tolerance, the better you get at adopting a psychic stance of zero tolerance towards negative energy, eventually less and less people will be able to go into a negative flow around you

the point is not to ward off endless negative emotions from people with out of control ego's, we are here for happiness,joy,love,fun,freedom,creation, excitement, evolution, we are not here to fight

 the better you get at having zero tolerance towards negativity, your vibration will demand absolute peace and harmony, and people with negative emotions will either deal with them personally inside themselves without lashing out or they will not even be able to set foot in the same reality as you

the result, you will be left only with positive intentions, with friends and family from all over the world

cause its time to have fun, light &love

 

 

 

[WaterfallMachine]

18 minutes ago, Arkandeus said:

you are absolutely correct @WaterfallMachineyour path is your own and it is magnificently unique, it is your journey

 the better you get at having zero tolerance towards negativity, your vibration will demand absolute peace and harmony, and people with negative emotions will either deal with them personally inside themselves without lashing out or they will not even be able to set foot in the same reality as you

the result, you will be left only with positive intentions, with friends and family from all over the world

cause its time to have fun, light &love

 

Ah, thank you for the advice. I've been absorbing all kinds of negative feelings lately now that I'm more sensitive to noticing these energies and could use the help.

Wish you luck on your own journey too. . I can sense your own positive feelings as well, so thanks for sending me some of that. I get anxious easily and tend to be rather shy, so this is something new to admit I guess.

See you.

Edited June 10, 2018 by WaterfallMachine

[WaterfallMachine]

16 hours ago, Nahm said:

@WaterfallMachine Cause the ego is made up, thought culminating & perpetuating an idea of a seperate entity. It’s just what the brain barfs up and then stamps “me” on. The ego is smart, and right about it. You’re already every man, and no man. 

I know this intellectually, but I don't seem to be able to let this false image of a self emotionally. There's been progress, but fully removing the self is terrifying.

[WaterfallMachine]

20 hours ago, Isaac Ben said:

Notice who's talking here? Who's trying to stay humble? Who's the one struggling for "social survival"?
If you buy the idea that the thing you call "you" is just an illusion, then there's nothing to be afraid of.

But I'm afraid of seeing this "me" as an illusion. What can I do?

[Nahm]

50 minutes ago, WaterfallMachine said:

I know this intellectually, but I don't seem to be able to let this false image of a self emotionally. There's been progress, but fully removing the self is terrifying.

“Who” is terrified?

[WaterfallMachine]

1 hour ago, Nahm said:

“Who” is terrified?

Ah, well now I finally get it. Thank you.

[Nahm]

@WaterfallMachine ❤️??