Life Purpose vs. Consciousness Work

[Mondsee]

Last week I've been quite confused. On the one hand, I re-started the life purpose course very committed (I had gotten pretty far when I purchased it, but I hadn't finished it, and as I'm starting with a new big project it seemed like good idea to start all over again to refresh my memory), and on the other hand, consciousness work has also been very present in my life lately, both theoretically and practically. That combination of both things being so present in my day to day let me feeling very confused.

On the life purpose I want to be the best at what I do, I see what I'm embarking into as a very very very meaningful project that will potentially change humanity and  the course of my entire life, but I want to excel at it and to be honest, even tough the whole thing is a very noble project, this desire for going all in to be the best comes very much from my ego. I have spent time thinking how I've not been good enough in the past, and on all the aspects that I have to improve in myself to make this thing happen.

On the spiritual side, there is all of this theory about the nature of reality pointing to the fact that everything is perfect exactly as it is. It i has been exactly as it should be. There is this desire within me to just surrender to what is, and so much time I'm focusing on just being present.

I know this isn't the first time that this topic comes up, Leo has even mentioned that it is indeed a paradox, but it had never been a big deal in my personal experience. As there are people in this forum also working on this two sides simultaneously, how have you reconciled these two opposite paradigms?