The present is not the Future

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Working towards D day. 

Wednesday July 11

Today is Implementation Day 1or imp day 1 

Imp day 1 DLOW 

codes will be on messenger 

Imp day 2 

Imo day 3 

 

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Journal entry for imp day 1 Wednesday July 11 

My current emotional state and Shadow work 

My current emotional state 

How do I feel :

I feel sad and in despair. 

[no compromise with time] 

I feel depressed 

I feel suicidal 

I feel frustrated. 

Life seems like a burden 

I feel like I have given up. 

I feel hopeless and helpless and like nothing can change my situation. 

This has led me to follow toxic behavioral patterns like engaging in addictions and negligence and self destructive behavior. 

Time to get out of this rut and motivate myself to fight back although it looks impossible that a positive change will happen. 

Right now I can describe my state of life with one word : impossible 

It seems life will not change and everything is impossible and that my health problems will never get resolved. 

 

[The biggest stressor is emotional stress. 

It rules the body and the mind. 

The spiritual state of the mind is important to bring a positive state in life] 

[if you wanna give up then do it after trying everything.] 

Emotional State check. 

Spiritual health check 

Shadow work questionnaire 

Goal questionnaire 

Goal progress questionnaire 

Self criticism questionnaire--  . This will involve getting angry at yourself, criticising your own behavior, judging yourself a little harshly, targeting your own whiny behavior, finding faults, pointing out mistakes and where you think you might have gone wrong and blaming yourself, holding yourself responsible and accountable for whatever happened or happens. 

 

 

 

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When you feel helpless you look for distractions. 

Those distractions add to your woes. 

I liked a comment that I came across today on a website. 

It's very beautiful. 

" you are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, smarter than you think, and twice as beautiful  as you'd ever imagined." 

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 One thing I need to tell myself is, "create the life you want and don't give two fucks about the world." the world wasn't made for you anyway.. 

 

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Yesterday I had been dealing with stuff. And thinking to myself. 

That life is bs.. It's a big joke. The whole world is. The dysfunction is taken care of by universal laws. 

Good that we have the cause and effect or else we would have chaos. 

Life fools us. And there are many illusions. We buy into those. Family is shit as well. 

It's all a sick joke, a distraction called reality, the biggest reality drama show on earth. No script can be better written. 

 

 

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Criticism or self accountability questionnaire 

• Are you sleeping 
• Have you neglected or ignored yourself 
• WHat effort have you put towards solving your problems 
• How is your overall health and performance 
• What steps have you taken to combat health issues 
• Are you too lazy 
• Did you give your 100 percent 
• Are you committed to yourself and your life
• Have you been working harder
• Have you betted all your resources and effort into solving your problems before whining or complaining or giving up
• How have you been managing your depression 
• Do you hold yourself partially accountable for your situation and circumstances in life 
• Do you waste your time in useless fruitless unproductive activities and engagements 
• How much are you on the self destructive scale
• What did you do today to improve your situation.
• Do you think you have done enough 
• Are you into toxic relationships 
• How are you connections and social support network 
• What effort have you put in improving your self esteem 
• List 3 things you did to solve the situation 
• Are you giving too much priority to people 
• Are you wasting time 

Edited July 11, 2018 by Preety_India

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Only you can change your life. Nobody else will. 

 

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Emotional State check.

Shadow work 

Spiritual health check 

Shadow work questionnaire 

Goal questionnaire 

Goal progress questionnaire 

Journal entry for imp day 1 Wednesday July 11 

My current emotional state and Shadow work 

My current emotional state 

How do I feel :

I feel okayish

I feel a little tired today morning. Lethargic and like everything needs to be done in a day. A little too much but anyway will get through today 

I feel positive since I have posted positive stuff on Fb today. So feeling better. Been motivating myself and rooting for myself. Giving myself a routine self esteem boost from today. 

Shadow work 

 

Spiritual health check 

 

Shadow work questionnaire

 

Goal questionnaire 

 

 

 

Goal progress questionnaire 

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Journal entry for imp day 2 Thursday July 12

My current emotional state and Shadow work 

My current emotional state 

How do I feel :

I feel okayish

I feel a little tired today morning. Lethargic and like everything needs to be done in a day. A little too much but anyway will get through today 

I feel positive since I have posted positive stuff on Fb today. So feeling better. Been motivating myself and rooting for myself. Giving myself a routine self esteem boost from today. 

Shadow work 

Past abuse issues 

Spiritual health check 

Need to keep up the praying habit. Lying low on that 

Shadow work questionnaire

 

Goal questionnaire 

 

 

 

Goal progress questionnaire 

 

Criticism or self accountability questionnaire 

Are you sleeping 

No.. Insomnia 

Have you neglected or ignored yourself 

Yessss a ton

WHat effort have you put towards solving your problems 

Not much 

How is your overall health and performance 

Very bad today 12 July 

What steps have you taken to combat health issues 

Today wanted to try out some herbs 

Are you too lazy 

Did you give your 100 percent 

Are you committed to yourself and your life

Have you been working harder

Have you betted all your resources and effort into solving your problems before whining or complaining or giving up

How have you been managing your depression 

Do you hold yourself partially accountable for your situation and circumstances in life 

Do you waste your time in useless fruitless unproductive activities and engagements 

How much are you on the self destructive scale

What did you do today to improve your situation.

Do you think you have done enough 

Are you into toxic relationships 

How are you connections and social support network 

What effort have you put in improving your self esteem 

List 3 things you did to solve the situation 

Are you giving too much priority to people 

Are you wasting time 

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Criticism or self accountability questionnaire 

??Are you sleeping 

No.. Insomnia 

??Have you neglected or ignored yourself 

Yessss a ton

??WHat effort have you put towards solving your problems 

Not much 

??How is your overall health and performance 

Very bad today 12 July 

??What steps have you taken to combat health issues 

Today wanted to try out some herbs 

??Are you too lazy 

??Did you give your 100 percent 

??Are you committed to yourself and your life

??Have you been working harder

??Have you betted all your resources and effort into solving your problems before whining or complaining or giving up

??How have you been managing your depression 

??Do you hold yourself partially accountable for your situation and circumstances in life 

??Do you waste your time in useless fruitless unproductive activities and engagements 

??How much are you on the self destructive scale

??What did you do today to improve your situation.

??Do you think you have done enough 

??Are you into toxic relationships 

??How are you connections and social support network 

??What effort have you put in improving your self esteem 

??List 3 things you did to solve the situation 

??Are you giving too much priority to people 

??Are you wasting time

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Criticism or self accountability questionnaire 

??Are you sleeping 

No.. Insomnia 

??Have you neglected or ignored yourself 

Yessss a ton

??WHat effort have you put towards solving your problems 

Not much 

??How is your overall health and performance 

Very bad today 12 July 

??What steps have you taken to combat health issues 

Today wanted to try out some herbs 

??Are you too lazy 

Yes I am. But health issues are a factor. 

??Did you give your 100 percent 

Nope. Not at all. Far from it. 

??Are you committed to yourself and your life

I am but i haven't done anything to show my commitment. 

??Have you been working harder

Yes I have. But not up to the mark. 

??Have you betted all your resources and effort into solving your problems before whining or complaining or giving up

 

Not at all. Not even least 

 

??How have you been managing your depression

Not well. 

??Do you hold yourself partially accountable for your situation and circumstances in life 

Yes of course. Certainly. But only partially. There are environmental issues and factors. 

 

??Do you waste your time in useless fruitless unproductive activities and engagements 

Often 

??How much are you on the self destructive scale

Maybe 6 from 1 to 10..10 being the highest. 

??What did you do today to improve your situation.

Tried posting positive quotes on Facebook to uplift my spirit and be positive 

Need to work on the emotion of "despair " "hopelessness" and "helplessness" 

??Do you think you have done enough 

Not at all. There's a mountain of work pending. 

??Are you into toxic relationships 

Yes I was. I still am

Need to keep away or set free. 

??How are you connections and social support network 

Very very bad. Almost nil and toxic 

??What effort have you put in improving your self esteem 

Nothing at all. It's downward momentum there 

??List 3 things you did to solve the situation 

Code words used. Codes words stated in messenger. 

Nothing yet. 

??Are you giving too much priority to people 

Yes a ton. This habit needs to be done away with. 

??Are you wasting time

Yes a lot. Months to end. Not good. No more wasting the most important resource at hand. 

Edited July 12, 2018 by Preety_India

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Cdes tsks 

DLOW

DMETHW

STMNOS

DRKAMLJU

 

 

 

Upward or downward momentum. 

 

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Cdes tsks 

DLOW

DMETHW

STMNOS

DRKAMLJU

Positive engagement is 

• Making task planners 
• Writing on this forum. Or Journaling 
• Playing Facebook game
• Watching YouTube documentary 
• Doing health tasks 
• Reading books aloud 
• Gave up poker addiction 
• Participating in Facebook groups 

 

 

 

 

Upward or downward momentum. 

 

Edited July 12, 2018 by Preety_India

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☂️☂️?Don't ruin your time by investing in thinking or caring about what other people think or say to you or about you. ???

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I tell myself regularly to not be cheap. 

2_ ways to not be cheap 

1. Focus on health first
2. Don't stop trying 
3. Give value to yourself the way you are. 
4. Do not care about societal expectations of yourself. 
5. Embrace your uniqueness 
6. Express yourself fully and be honest and upfront and not pretentious 
7. Be detached and indifferent from the world. 
8. Be a goal setter but don't be too ambitious. 
9. Give value to your time
10. Stop giving value to objects. 
11. Take care of your self 
12. Remember that you are better than you what you think you are 
13. Remember that you are important 
14. Do not spend your time in frivolous stuff
15. Stay away from anything that is even slightly toxic 
16. Cut off people who are annoying, painful or harass or difficult. 
17. Be very open and assertive 
18. Be matured in your choices 
19. Develop healthy habits 
20. If you constantly feel like you are not good enough or you wish you could have been this or that or you had something you wish, it's natural to feel that way, but remember that you are not the only one and remember that life is not meant to be living with pity and regrets but with hope and faith towards a better future. Be appreciative of whatever you already have and embrace and accept it and nurture it. Make good out of whatever you got instead of feeling sorry for what you don't. Remember that there's just nothing about something that doesn't exist or lost, but salvage that which you can. Regretting your life is like crying over spoiled milk, the milk is not gonna come back, so what's the point of crying and regretting and feeling deprived or unlucky for not having what others got. It has no benefit other than a momentary feeling of upset and disappointment and sadness. It's like adding insult to injury. Find peace. Constantly reminding yourself of what you can't have is a recipe for adding unhappiness to an already frustrated unhappy mind. One thing is - you never know if others have it better. What if they don't. What If they are tired of their shit and want out.         ..you might think they have it better but maybe think don't think same. Often times we hear a celeb commiting suicide and we think it's absurd but it's actually not. You never know what they had to deal with. Therefore don't be quick to judge or don't think everyone has it perfect. In fact most don't. It's just that most people don't tell how they suffer cause they are shy or embarrassed to open up about their struggle......       ..... So if you think you aren't good enough, don't beat yourself, you weren't expected to be, you are already good as you are and frankly if you are constantly thinking that then you are obviously taking life too seriously. Fuck that shit. How does it matter if life turned out bad or good. Competition only exists because you create it. Your create your own thoughts of misery and despair. Yes life can be complicated and painful but we can control how we react, we can definitely choose not to react at all. So it doesn't even matter if things didn't work out. If you did your best, you should be at peace. Remember that nothing in this universe is perfect or free from chaos. Even if anything is perfect its mostly rare. And everything that is perfect doesn't stay perfect forever. That's how time causes everything to finally degrade and disappear. So enjoy it in the hear and now. Beauty lies in experiencing beautiful moments every now and then because these moments once gone are not gonna come back ......   ....

   Appreciate who you are because you are the product of your circumstances and you are not to be blamed and you are not at fault. You can only do as much good as you can and that's the testimony of how much good you are. Your trials are a witness of your strength and your determination to make it good. Don't be let down by them. Life may not be worth living because there's not much to enjoy but it's definitely worth struggling and fighting for. Don't let it slip by just cuz it doesn't get better. Your effort to better your life will bear fruit one day even though now it looks like an unfulfilled dream. 

Edited July 14, 2018 by Preety_India

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Do not be cheap part 2 

1. " I trust the process of life." 
2. "Life supports me. "
3. Stay true to yourself. 
4. Don't be fake 
5. "I flow freely and lovingly with life." 
6. "I experience love wherever I go." 
7. "life is not over yet. There's still time but the time is precious." 
8. Do not wish to be someone else. 
9. "how amazing it is to be alive." 
10. "if you face challenges with a positive attitude things may not be as hard as you first thought." 
11. Do not immerse yourself in misery or dwell on stuff too much. Life is a fast game and the end is coming soon. No time to regret too much. 
12. IT'S OK TO FAIL. 
13. Be true to your values. Do not give in. 
14. Do not worry about consequences. 
15. Things will automatically flow to you if you are in control. Therefore don't give into peer pressure and lose yourself. That way things flow against you eventually.
16. "know your own power" "having and stay true to your own opinions" "listening to your inner voice" means your decisions will be right for you and life will flow your way. 
17. Save money but don't think too much about money 
18. Be generous 
19. Everything happens for a reason. 
20. Love even your enemies 
21. Have a big heart but do not let others take advantage of you 
22. I am awake and alive and full of energy. 
23. I release any negative or fearful thoughts. I am safe. 
24. We are here to enjoy life and the experiences we have. 
25. Life cannot be lived by a particular rule or formula. 
26. Your life is important. Talk as much as you can about it. Chart your journey and your progress everyday 
27. Give up trying to have a perfect day. Life is never perfect and so also no day is ever perfect. 
28. "When I embrace myself and treasure who I am then love and respect flows into my life." 
29. "I choose to fill my body with nutritious food and treasure my soul." 
30.  Think Big
31. Don't be around miserable people who think it's ok or not a big deal if you suffer a little more. That's asking for trouble. Think this to yourself "I am meant for something better" just because they are poor and miserable doesn't mean that you have to be one of them. They make think that way about you because they suffer themselves. But you don't have to give in to their validation of how things should be for you. They will obviously not think better about you because they don't care about you. You clearly don't deserve that or them and always remember that you deserve much better than what you have been given in life. 
32.  

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Remember to notice your breath throughout the day as often as you can. You can ask: Am I still breathing? Root yourself into the Present Moment!

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32. Learn from your past but ultimately let it go and leave it behind and move on and stay in the moment. 

 

33. Best relationships are founded on trust, honesty and communication. 

 

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The people in your life will only treat you as well as you treat yourself. 

 

The person you are today is because of the experiences that have occurred in your life. 

Being a great friend means being a great listener, being trustworthy and knowing when to give advice and when to just be there. 

If a relationship is something you value then it's worth mending 

You may think you're not destined for amazing things but life could bring you unexpected opportunities. 

Cheap people never succeed in anything in life. Eventually they fall off because they make everything chaotic, disorderly,, destructive and negative.. 

Be generous to animals and people and to the whole planet. Power lies in giving. In giving we receive. 

Everything is important, both good and bad at the end of the day, you know you couldn't have done a better job, you have the full experience of doing something the right way. 

Never ever be negative. Negativity is the cheapest thing. 

You think that everything is limited and that's because of your limited thinking. The earth and the universe has abundant space to accommodate the needs of every person. So it will never fall short of your expectations. Because it's all huge.  So broaden your thinking and thing big that you will achieve big and it will happen and you will eventually have what you want. Believe in the abundant now. 

You will create whatever you think and want. You will produce it yourself. The only thing is you have to be careful about what you want or wish for. 

What you wish for should also be something you think you really need. Otherwise it will create chaos since it's not born out of wisdom but mindless greed or wanting. 

It's the power of positive intention or just intention. But it should be focused on something good. The focus of your intention is important. If the intention is bad, you will achieve but the outcome will be a disaster. If your intention is good, then those good intentions will bear  good outcome too. Thus you need prosperity but not greed.  You should only want what you need otherwise it leads to imbalance. So obviously you should want prosperity but you should also want balance at the same time. 

Invest all your focus in positive intentions. ASK and you shall receive. Ask and the door will open. God will do what you want but be careful what you ask for. Destructive things will lead to destructive consequences. 

A flow is created only when things fall in order. 

For things to fall in order of how you want them. Want them and have them by focusing on them and be yourself and honest so you avoid all the drama born out of pretention. And trust your gut and do what is right for you. 

Really bring those feelings of happiness, joy, satisfaction, fulfillment, peace, love to life within yourself. That's the key to having them. 

 

Wishes are powerful and that's why they come true when you keep wishing for longer. That's why prayers are powerful and they do work if you invest enough energy into it. 

Your thoughts are like music you are listening to 

Let your light shine. You are yourself turning off the little light within you by your low energy thoughts. 

 

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 Everything is beautiful if you look at it and nurture it with love. It becomes beautiful with time.  If you touch it with love. If you look for beauty in outer attraction then you miss the infinite beauty of the soul. The beauty of the spirit. The beauty of every living cell. The beauty of nature, evenings and, the beauty of every cell. Anything that is deprived of love ceases to be beautiful because it can't grow. Anything that is full of love becomes beautiful because it grows and is not decaying