I thought I had awareness down...Fuck

[Viking]

22 hours ago, Squidward said:

I thought I had awareness down, especially when it comes to negative thoughts and emotions. I thought I knew the difference between thinking and being aware I'm thinking. Now I feel like I'm forgetting how to do it, could this be bc I'm doing meditation wrong 

I also struggled with that, and still am.

I guess the mechanism of being aware is like using your muscles, like playing the piano or thinking, it comes with training, do it over and over until it kinda sticks. in the book "the power of now" i find myself being able to "be the observer" so you might get back to that if you forget how to do that.

[Faceless]

Awareness comes with the cessation of thought moving in its mechanical, and fragmentary patterns. 

To train is to cultivate thought/the thinker. And that is classic fragmentation, and mechanical movement. 

Edited May 18, 2018 by Faceless

[Faceless]

Understand this entire movement and order in awareness is possible.