how do i let go

[Viking]

i want to achieve something,

so much

some enlightenment

some ecstatic moment

some fulfillment

but in order to achieve it

I have to stop trying to achieve

but by stopping trying to achieve it,

im still trying to achieve it.

 

I really want something to happen

and i cant help but to want, so much,

but in order to have it

i have to drop all wants

so now i want to drop all desires

and in order to do so i have to drop that desire too

so now i desire to drop the desire to drop the desire

to infinity and beyound

 

wtf am i supposed to do?

some might say just be, dont do

but doing is part of being

so by doing im being

 

some might say "dont identify with the mind"

but then i identify with what doesnt identify with the mind, 

which is the mind.

 

some might say "there is no time, so there's nothing to achieve in the future"

that means that there is nothing at all to achieve

but even though i say that i still want to achieve

because even though i understand, im not conscious of it

 

how do i become conscious of it? (another desire yada yada..)

[Buddha Jackson]

In Buddhism all views are wrong views, if you breathe mindfully and observe your thoughts eventually they will exhaust themselves of their own accord. I recommend this video: 

 

[phoenix666]

@Viking oh dear, I feel you. same here.. I want it so badly, sometimes it hurts. I want to be part of that whole. (I know that I already am intellectually, but that really doesn't help) I want to feel that connection to everything and everyone ..

[Faceless]

@Viking

u notice that you know you need to let go but every movement you move towards implies not letting go? 

Stay with that seeing. Watch how every movement is influenced by thought/desire. 

When you ask how to or how do I it is the same desire loop repeating itself. It’s thought trying to apply itself to end thought. Which creates this ⭕️ Effect. 

Stay with it friend. See that pattern trying to repeat itself. And remeber that any movement you take to stop, prevent, change it is another movement of thought/desire. 

Your doing quite well seeing what is actually happening?