How do I de-attach from the emotional outcome?

[Ether]

14 minutes ago, Torkys said:

This is a limiting belief, my fellow. Bust through it. Embody your wisdom, don't believe in your thoughts

Ever since you experienced peace / silent mind while meditating, you started chasing it. This is completely understandable and inevitable, I can't blame you for that. 

I still suggest accepting more or loving more if you are capable but don't make ego and resistance your enemies. The very reason resistance is there is because you resist it. Learn to authentically accept it and love it. 

What if I accept it my whole life and I still feel like this in my death bed?

[Torkys]

Then you did the best thing you could to recover and you would be proud of yourself. I doubt your would feel like this if you truly accepted and loved fully though.

[Arkandeus]

33 minutes ago, Ether said:

What if I accept it my whole life and I still feel like this in my death bed?

this is core enlightenment work, you are dealing with your own death

it's literally right there, in your own words

it's hard but you have to overcome your death, yes this is your life, and this has been your life

it already happened, let go of it, this has been your life, this is how your life has been, the deed is already done

forgive yourself, forgive life for having been this way, forgive all that is

 

if you can see that you are as much alive as dead right now, your death and your birth being now

recognize the element of birth, nothing stays the same, new life always springs from within you, that is who you are

everything eventually passes, everything is temporary ,and life is always new, it cannot help but be new that is being alive

our cells dance the very truth of enlightenment, they die and they birth constantly, we are our cells,our consciousness is the exact same

Edited April 26, 2018 by Arkandeus

[Nahm]

@Ether When did you start taking life seriously? At what age? Why - what happened that you interpreted as “life is serious” “reality is serious” “I have to be serious”? 

This is semi deep in your perspective. There won’t be any answers or relief in what you’re looking at. It’s how you’re seeing the biggest (life) picture.

Big step here, opening up about it. ??

[Ether]

@Nahm Since I was a young child. I remember already having depression at 9.

1 minute ago, Nahm said:

 

There won’t be any answers or relief in what you’re looking at. 

 

Yes, nothing gave me relief. The best I can do is doing things to feel less worse. Feeling better? I have been trying for years with no success

[Nahm]

@Ether You chose to see that, you could have chose to see this

29 minutes ago, Nahm said:

It’s how you’re seeing the biggest (life) picture.

I don’t think you remember having depression at age 9. I think that’s a story you’ve retold yourself many times.     So somewhere from birth to age 9, you learned to interpret life as serious. What was it? A trauma? Your parents / environment? 

 

[sarapr]

Here's a good way to not feel numb for at least some time whenever you  really feel low or sth, solve a math or geometry problem or write a piece of code or a simple game or sth challenging like that. it makes you feel engaged in the process and really happy when you finish it. no one can feel numb to amazingly good feeling of solving a really challenging but not too disappointing problem. it's not a very deep way to solve your problem but at least helps when there's no other way .

[Guest Quanty]

Easy way is start taking Haritaki and Colloidal Silver. 

Haritaki boosts 300% oxygen in the blood, you will feel like after workout feeling all the time.

Colloidal Silver, acts as a mirror, but on the inside in every cell, and it will bounce directly into the 3rd eye. 

 

Both the supplements will help to transcend the mind quicker than any food or fasting.