165 Days Before College

[Everyday]

Last month i talked with a girl from tinder for about a week while she was in vacation in Spain. We spoke to meet when she gets home but it turns out she lives next to a town, 3 hours from me. I imagined she lives here. I told her that i dont want a long distance thing and she agreed. She messaged me again a few weeks ago to ask if i would like to meet her while she is in my city. I declined at told her i dont see the point since we dont live nearby. She asked again if we can be friends and i said no. She just messaged me again today. I am not going to respond this time around. 

 

My superviser told me i will get 4 more accounts from another co worker. I panicked a little bit. I asked my boss if he has time today to speak about that raise but he didnt have time. He assured me i will do get a raise and we can speak on google meet tomorrow. He didnt specify an hour so i had to cancel going to the doctor and getting the last paper for this new business. 

I feel worried that i will fuck up but i just need to ask questions, call the client and set up campaigns. I can do that. It isnt that hard as i make it to be in my head. I am learning to do my job better and also getting paid more. Awesome. Managing more clients feels extremely hard right now. So get more and grow! One of the reasons that i want to make this business work is because i am so afraid to get fired. 

 

I am looking forward to actually order those products and start selling them asap. Cant wait! Hehe. I still want to make more money from doing that compared with work. I cant believe i asked for a raise and more work. I feel the drive to do more but it scares me. This shit was dormant while i had university going on. Man, i was so stressed with that shit. 

I invested some more today in another P2P platform. I am looking forward to make invest more money soon. I wait to see the returns in 9-10 days. 

 

This week i managed to only eat food from home and nuts at work. Amazing. 

 

The diction course is fucking amazing. I feel resistant to do those exercises but i want to see results.

[Everyday]

Hey

I got 4 more clients yesterday and another one today. Man, i feel worried as fuck that i will mess thing up. The most afraid i am of calls, asking me why they dont have results. This is what happened last year. I had these calls and the client came with more ideas than i offered them. I didnt ask my colleagues for more help. It was so terrifying. 

Now, i find myself in the same position. To be honest i dont know what am i doing. I can implement very well but i am bad at analyzing an account. I dont know what to do more but i can do it. Is hard to come up with recommendations. I will keep asking my colleagues what the fuck to do. 

 

I didnt get any call from my boss to talk about the raise. Nope. I waited all day. I still wonder how much money are we talking about. I guess he wants to see if i will make mistakes or not. 

 

I like to implement these tasks on fb and google ads but i dont like speaking with clients. I dont see myself here in 5 years. It seems stupid to keep going to this job if selling products from Aliexpress will work. I just feel stupid being stressed about these clients and getting fired. I would like just to sell those products and not worry about these clients. I am really looking forward to order those products. I have to order them asap. Cant wait. I am less anxious about that compared to my job. 

 

 

[Everyday]

Hey

Yesterday i finally spoke with my boss about the raise. Starting next month i will be making 803,90 Eur each month. My salary so far has been 582,82 Eur. This is my first raise ever. I am so proud of myself for asking for it at last, after worrying for weeks. I am basically working the same hours but getting more money for them. Cool. Next step is to get to 1000 eur and so on. I didnt even think that i will ask for a raise this year. The last trip gave me a boost.

 

Next week we can order the first products. Im excited. I want to learn and earn more. I would like to quit work. Doesnt make sense to work here if i wont have a website anytime soon. 

 

Did some more diction exercises and felt amazing. So proud of myself for doing this course. 

 

Met with my friend from uni whom i havent seen since June 28th. We got drunk but i kept drinking water so i didnt black out. To be honest i didnt feel better after we hang out. He didnt want to slow down and kept drinking and getting annoying. He told me how many things he regrets in life and so on. He earns lots of money but is very unhappy. 

We spoke about how much we regret going to university to study Horticulture. He noticed as well just wanting to finish and not carrying at all about the future. He wonders what was in his head willingly coming to uni each morning, putting up with stupid professors, weeding and so much other shit. 

I could have focused more on work from time to time but i chose to be lazy. I was overwhelmed of stress and exams. It wasnt the hardest uni. Sad. I regret not quitting and going in NL with Erasmus. It doesnt look like i will have this opportunity now. Just work.

 

I noticed that another things which stresses me is my job, this is why i want to quit and do my own thing. I cant earn more and invest more if i am just working there. This is the truth. I am looking forward to have my own thing going with my siblings. 

 

I am not sure if i will start a masters next year. What is the point?

 

 

Solomun - Something We All Adore (Solomun Love Song Mix) [Unreleased]

Edited September 16, 2023 by Everyday

[Everyday]

Hey

My previous post got deleted right after i sent it weird. 

Woke up late but did diction exercises, worked out and mediated. I felt proud as fuck.

I met with friends and didnt get fucked up or spent too much. I got beer and water and felt good as fuck. Told them about my progress at work and my raise. They told me about their life since we met at the beginning of the month. One of them sent his first CV at 25 and waiting for a response. Another one sold 2 paintings and another one failed to get to a new uni.

 

I need to focus more on work in order to make more money and after that i can get to 1000 euros per month. But i dont want to go overboard since i want to also focus on this new business. Looking forward to order those products this week, bro. 

 

Invested some little more money in stocks. 

 

Looking forward to start a faceless YT channel and also try other side hustles, bro. 

 

snow patrol - just say yes

Edited September 17, 2023 by Everyday

[Everyday]

Hey

Went to bed late. Woke up and fell asleep again so i arrived late at work. I didnt want to do shit. Just to take it easy with work.

I did some more tasks which i usually would have avoided. I wanted to work even more but what was the point? I can use that drive to work for myself. This is the point in starting this company, sir. Im excited.

 

Arrived home and did some more papers. We are waiting for a response soon. Maybe we can order by the end of the week. I need to figure out how to deal with the shipping company.

I need to figure out how the marketplace platform is working. I feel some resistance there. Hmm.

 

Tomorrow i will buy the same stocks my grandpa had many years ago. Today i bought 2 gas company stocks. 

 

Three-Five-Zero-Zero

Edited September 18, 2023 by Everyday

[Everyday]

22 hours ago, Everyday said:

Tomorrow i will buy the same stocks my grandpa had many years ago. Today i bought 2 gas company stocks. I also got some stocks from a bank

Done

My mom finished her massage courses this June but is still afraid to apply for jobs. I took the initiative at last and i will apply for her. She is scared as fuck to work again. 

Work was fine. I arrived earlier and did my tasks. Some stuff i avoided to do for many months. Awesome. I need to get used to do shit as fast as possible. No delays. The new clients dont seem so crazy. 

After work i walked for 40 min and did some exercises once i got home. I listened to a webinar about investing in stocks. 

 

While i took a shit on the toilet i opened my first credit card. I could have chosen to borrow as much as 4000 euros. Unreal. I chose the least amount - 250 euros. It was super fast and easy. Lol. Now, i am going to build my credit score. 

I invested some more in a P2P lending platform. 

 

I'm looking forward to order those products. Now, is time to get some awesome pics! Cant wait :)) I dont like to see my colleagues with more experience at work being so stressed and unhappy. Most people going at work in the morning dont seem happy or excited. I am not looking to stick around for several years. Get as much knx as you can now and get the fuck out.

Edited September 19, 2023 by Everyday

[Everyday]

On 9/19/2023 at 11:49 PM, Everyday said:

While i took a shit on the toilet i opened my first credit card. I could have chosen to borrow as much as 4000 euros. Unreal. I chose the least amount - 250 euros. It was super fast and easy. Lol. Now, i am going to build my credit score. 

I used it to just buy some snacks :)))

 

The 3rd diction class was awesome but i felt bad not practicing more at home. I was lazy or tired. I need to practice even more. I need to speak much better. Now i am fully aware of this problem. 

 

On 9/19/2023 at 11:49 PM, Everyday said:

I'm looking forward to order those products. Now, is time to get some awesome pics! Cant wait :))

We finally got the EORI number. We can order the products tomorrow. Awesome. All we need now are pics and a delivery contract. 

 

Went to meet with M, had lunch and went to her place to bang. I felt bad lying about going on vacation together. I dont want that. The sex was better than last time. 

She told me about 2 friends working in a company doing affiliate marketing. They just need to add banners to different sites. They work 3h a day and is super easy. I cant believe it is so fucking easy. Lol. I looked online on what can i do with it and i need to learn to do social media and edit videos. 

I watched a guy promoting starting your own agency. Interesting. I can actually use my knowledge makings ads to do ads for people in the west or start my own agency and make even more money. It doesnt have to be anything big, just a few clients. What do i need to do that? I just need to get better at my job. Keep up the good work, bro. Why not try this as well at some point? It sounds amazing. I need to learn to talk and explain what i am doing much better. 

I didnt really think about this before. I can do my exact job but actually make more money with less clients. I can simply not get clients for free or the ones who have no money. I am not looking forward to get clients like the ones i had on my own. It was too annoying for all that stress. I can at least try to message a bunch of people in order to get some awesome clients. Why not try this?

 

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[Everyday]

On 9/21/2023 at 6:37 PM, Everyday said:

We can order the products tomorrow. Awesome.

Done! We ordered almost all products. It was more expensive than i expected. The profit we will make looks good for now. Forgot to order and test some of them a few months ago. I am so glad we are finally over with this step. 

Tomorrow i will try to take some pics and learn more about those bar codes.

I am so excited to start selling in a few weeks. I feel excited as fuck. I am also worried people wont by all that crap that we want to sell. Who would do that? But i do know that people buy shit. 

 

 

On 9/21/2023 at 6:37 PM, Everyday said:

I watched a guy promoting starting your own agency. Interesting. I can actually use my knowledge makings ads to do ads for people in the west or start my own agency and make even more money. It doesnt have to be anything big, just a few clients. What do i need to do that? I just need to get better at my job. Keep up the good work, bro. Why not try this as well at some point? It sounds amazing. I need to learn to talk and explain what i am doing much better. 

I didnt really think about this before. I can do my exact job but actually make more money with less clients. I can simply not get clients for free or the ones who have no money. I am not looking forward to get clients like the ones i had on my own. It was too annoying for all that stress. I can at least try to message a bunch of people in order to get some awesome clients. Why not try this?

I checked on the Fiverr how much do people doing my job charge for their services. Bro, i was shocked how much they make. Why not try this before that whole agency thing? It seems easier to get jobs from this platform. 

I was shocked that some dude was charging like $50 for basic keyword research. Unreal. I am doing that all the time. Man, i feel inspired to try this as well. Even if i make $100 per month from this is still amazing. I can get a few clients and not even worry about my job. 

A new door opened. I dont know why i didnt think of this before. I just got stuck doing my job and not asking for more. I got used to be lazy and not think what can i do more. I could have done this years ago. But i didnt even think i could. I still dont. Insane. Working full time and worrying about money doesnt give you time to grow. 

Why dont more offer PPC services on Fiverr? It looks like you can make more than your current job, doing the same thing? Am i missing something?

 

 

Edited September 22, 2023 by Everyday

[Ramanujan]

On 9/2/2020 at 6:50 AM, Girzo said:

Oh and BTW, there's this app called SuperMemo, it really helps with organizing notes and learning. You might want to try it in the next semester. It's a cool idea. It works like this, you have your notes and you type them into the program. You have two sides of a card, one for a question or a problem and another for the correct answer or solution. The cool part is that after giving an answer the software asks you to rate how well you have remembered it and based on that calculates the optimal time for repetition that will give you the highest retention of the information.

do u still use supermemo ? is it good ?

Edited September 23, 2023 by Ramanujan

[Girzo]

Yes I use spaced repetution a lot. I prefer the RemNote app though. And use other apps that have spaced repetition built-in like Practice Portuguese for learning you guess what.

[Ramanujan]

@Girzo .

1 hour ago, Girzo said:

Yes I use spaced repetution a lot. I prefer the RemNote app though. And use other apps that have spaced repetition built-in like Practice Portuguese for learning you guess what.

i see.  so u no longer use supermemo ???

[Girzo]

@Ramanujan yes, it’s the worst choice of this type of apps.

Anki is the best if you want control and longevity of your knowledge database, it’s free and open source.

RemNote is best if you want an easy app to make flashcards out of your notes qucikly. It’s closed source and you can export to Anki or some other format, but the export is not perfect.

[Everyday]

On 9/23/2023 at 0:14 AM, Everyday said:

Done! We ordered almost all products. It was more expensive than i expected. The profit we will make looks good for now. Forgot to order and test some of them a few months ago. I am so glad we are finally over with this step. 

Turns out i ordered 90 units of one of the products. Lol. I have to wait 10 days before i ask for a refund.

Today was quite productive and i also met with friends. 

I finished a list evaluating how much i will learn selling those products, did some gardening, worked out and some diction exercises.

I harvested 3 bean pods from my garden :))))

 

I am still thinking of FIVERR. I dont feel yet that i am ready to do it. I need to deal more with clients at my work and to learn to use GA4 in a more proficient way. I also need to learn how to do tracking for Meta and G ads. This seems complicated for now but i didnt watch any videos about it. At work i just need to do my part of the whole process of setting up an ads account. I can learn to do this. 

Edited September 24, 2023 by Everyday

[Everyday]

Hey

Woke up and wasted 2 h on my phone, journaling about doing freelance work. I came came with another idea - to message these freelancers and ask if they will hire me for a few projects. This is seems so logic but for me so mind blowing. I can do the same work but i will get paid much more. I had thought about this for hours. 

New plan - learn as much as you can from my job and look into freelancing again once i figured things out with the new business.

I am wondering why arent more people doing freelance work or asking for employment at top upwork sellers? What is the catch? Why do my colleagues work for this salary when they could make more that way?

 

Meditated, exercised and did some other chores. I met with friends and bought some veggies.

I arrived home and wasted some time on my phone. After that i cooked, first time in 2 years i think. Wow. Ironed some clothes and did some other tasks. I listened to some interviews. Did some diction exercises. 

Did the product list which we have to upload on the marketplace. We need to think of some names for a few products. 

 

I didnt go to my brother;s GF's b-day party. I didnt want to see her honestly. My brother got upset. 

I am glad we are finally doing this business and not just speaking shit about starting. 

I am so proud of mself for almost achieving a whole year without tv series. I do crave them from time to time but my life got so much better. I had to sit with my emotions frequently. 

 

Edited September 24, 2023 by Everyday

[Everyday]

Hey

Each morning i got late at work. Tried to wake up several times. Went to bed each day around 2 am because i tried to do more (diction, working out, new business).

I had more dandruff and worse skin since i got the new accounts and waited for the raise. I was stressed as fuck. I am also tired. 

The new clients are fine so far. I am still afraid to fuck up but it will be fine. I struggle now to analyze accounts. I block my mind when i have to do it. I need to learn how to. I want to ask for more accounts to learn faster since i want to do freelancing. I need to get used with this new business and afterwards i need to take some freelancing work. I have nothing to loose. I will try.

I wont get far in life with just 800 euros per month, man. I am learning this skills in a better way right now. I am putting more effort and i will see results in a few months. 

 

I spend some time again on Insta. Didnt make me feel better. I set up a date for tomorrow night with a new girl. I will meet with M on Friday and with Teo3 on Saturday. I am thinking to stop seeing M since it goes too much into relationship territory. I need to watch some dating advice. I need to improve my texting.

 

I need to save some more money as an emergency fund. I am bad at this. 

Eat last 2 weeks only food from home and nuts, other snacks at work. I feel very good about this. 

 

I am not sure if i will do my masters next year around this time. I dont see the point. 

Asked a friend what he does all day since he isnt employed. He kept saying all along that he works all the time. I tried once to talk with him about my work-life problems and he said yeah, i work all the time man, i cant relate. Well, it turns out most of that is bullshit. He works a few hours a day and after that meets with his gf or watches shit on YT. Really? I really thought i am not doing enough. It was all bullshit. 

 

Man, i am so glad i dont have uni this year or the next. It was so stressful for me and it ate so much time from me. I could have started around this time. But i feel that it is more to be made and learned from what i am doing now. I wasted sooo much time with all that shit at university. It was ridiculous. I felt so stuck. I just wanted to be paid at work and didnt really bother much.

 

Yesterday was my first ex b-day. I had a nightmare, meeting her after 5 years with her BF. We broke up 2 years ago, almost 3. Why did i think of this now? Why did i dream that? I doubt my drive and motivation. She had that. It was a toxic relationship tho.

It is funny but i cant remember the b-day of my last ex. It has been a year since we broke up. I have learned so much since than. I was so dishonest with myself. I just wanted to date more. I felt so stuck with her. Had to deal with all that drama. Pff. 

Well, in order to become a good freelancer i need to be much better at my work. I need to put even more effort.

Edited September 28, 2023 by Everyday

[Everyday]

21 hours ago, Everyday said:

Well, in order to become a good freelancer i need to be much better at my work. I need to put even more effort.

Went to bed at 3 and woke up with a lot of struggle at 9.30. I already felt bed for not doing my routine before work. 

One of the clients i got from my colleague messaged me and i panicked. She helped me answer but i reacted ridiculously. I still worry to get fired and not do a good job. I struggle with analyzing data on these accounts. 

I felt very stressed and i didnt look forward to go on the date i had planned tonight. She canceled last minute because she found out a relative has cancer. I didnt mind, i wanted to stay at home anyways. I did some research to decide what delivery company to choose. I made some description for a few products. My sister promised she will do them but she went to see her boyfriend. 

I waited all day for this guy to help me with the bar codes. Turns out is really easy. Just need to manually do all those codes. Pff. He was lazy. I still need to buy my codes since his are only for his company. Time wasted. I will help him do them to learn. I cant believe how lazy he is. Offf.

 

I am thinking again to take a break from dating new girls. For some reason it stresses me to speak with these girls a few times a day, even if we meet once a week. I feel overwhelmed with work and this new business. Maybe i should indeed take a break and stop for a while. I am not helping myself feel better by going on these dates. I feel stressed having to replay during the day, meet them and so on. 

I feel i should do it all at once but it feels like too much for now. I have all this free time and i am wasting it trying to get laid. Hours and hours in a park with these girls and most of the time nothing comes out of it. Better use those hours to do your job better, make some packages and so on. Also, i can date once a months or smth. I will think about it. Right now i should invest more time in some things which really matter, this is for now the new business and my job.

It would help a lot if i had a place to bring these girls. Now i am just relaying on them to have a place. I could use that time dating to get a better salary and use a part of it to move out. Also, use some of your free time to drive again.

 

I have all this free time and i am wasting it. I can really get faster to becoming a freelancer if i learn at an exponential speed. 

I feel stupid that i stopped cooking to save some money for the last 2 years. It is just stupid. I should have made time to cook food in bulk instead of eating from my mom and being happy i saved some money. How about just making more at work?

[Ramanujan]

@Girzo so supermemo is just another software right ??? people hype it up really hard . people hype supermemo up really hard

Edited September 29, 2023 by Ramanujan

[Girzo]

@Ramanujan I also hype SRS (space-repetition software). It’s just that Anki or RemNote are better options than SuperMemo in particular. They do the same but better.

[Ramanujan]

@Girzo oo i see . thanks for info

[Everyday]

Hey

 

I starting feeling a light headache last night and i couldn't sleep very well. Woke up with a massive headache like i never had before. I couldn't think or function until midday. It was horrible. 

I added more products on the platform to give me bare codes. Had problems with some pics. 

We ordered some packaging for our products. Yesterday we got one of the packages without being called by the boarder. 

 

I looked some more into Fiverr. Besides Google ads and Facebook i see that there is a lot of interest for amazon services. I am doing enough things for now but i will keep this in mind. Now, i just want to get better at my job and also start selling products online. There is so much to learn and earn from, man. Cant wait!

Maybe i should have focused on SEO and amazon 2 years ago instead of choosing Google ads. It is so complicated, man. 

Maybe i will ask to work for someone doing Amazon or Google ads on fiverr or upwork. I can learn from them much more. We will see. 

Edited September 30, 2023 by Everyday