Limiting beliefs/upper limiting

[Shakazulu]

Limiting beliefs we are unaware of. Growing up I was overweight, in grade five I was 170 pounds. When I went for check ups at the doctor, my mom would ask the doctor why my penis was small. My doctor would tell her it's because I was developing. My mother would compare me to my older brother stating how when he was younger his penis wasn't small but he was skinny. My mom made my situation a family issue. Everyone in my family knew and they would ask me questions about it. This perception that I was flawed carried through most of my life. Better yet, when I was 12 my sister then caught me masturbating then she told my whole family. My sexuality felt exposed in a sense. I'm now nineteen and I'm looking back like wow, there's a few unhealed stiches 

[Leo Gura]

That's heavy stuff. Will take some deep work to unwire that.

Psychedelics and shamanic breathing might prove very useful for processing that.

With awakening, you will realize you are perfect however you are. So chin up.

Your courage in sharing that is already a big sign of growth.

[Shakazulu]

@Leo Gura I hope I touched someone in the forum also  

[How to be wise]

@Shakazulu be sure to check out this technique. You can reach full enlightenment with it:

 

[Shakazulu]

@How to be wise much love

[Nahm]

@Shakazulu Your courage is inspiring. 

[Shakazulu]

@Nahm couldn't without you all 

[Shakazulu]

@brovakhiin thanks a lot, I'm gonna get into these in the next couple months 

[Shakazulu]

@brovakhiin would you consider book of not knowing or pursuing more consciousness more fundemental 

[Arman]

On 4/17/2018 at 3:46 AM, Shakazulu said:

Limiting beliefs we are unaware of. Growing up I was overweight, in grade five I was 170 pounds. When I went for check ups at the doctor, my mom would ask the doctor why my penis was small. My doctor would tell her it's because I was developing. My mother would compare me to my older brother stating how when he was younger his penis wasn't small but he was skinny. My mom made my situation a family issue. Everyone in my family knew and they would ask me questions about it. This perception that I was flawed carried through most of my life. Better yet, when I was 12 my sister then caught me masturbating then she told my whole family. My sexuality felt exposed in a sense. I'm now nineteen and I'm looking back like wow, there's a few unhealed stiches 

Sorry you had to experience that. That would inflict a lot of hurt I think.

There is likely feelings of guilt and shame buried from those experiences. When we are young and we experience these things, we don't know how to contextualize them and feel we are to blame somehow. Maybe even feeling guilt about the beliefs and trauma that are now a result of it. If that is the case, I hope that you may re-contextualize the past through forgiveness of yourself and others. It's only because of the inherent innocence of the child that he believes what everyone around him tells him, and you were programmed to think that you are not good enough or that there is something wrong with you. Of course, there is nothing wrong with you and you are worthy and wonderful. 

 

[Shakazulu]

@Arman  this is love, I appreciate this 

[Shakazulu]

@brovakhiin much thanks