here is where i am

[Patang]

i am much the same as i was before, still feeling my body, the mind is working, thoughts are being fired through, feelings are being blown up inside and sensations are felt in full force. the only difference is that now i know that it is not me who is having all of those life experiences, i am nothing, i'm only watching the one who lives. you see, it's like being in your car, you know, those new ones, an autonomous car, yes, you're taking a ride, watching the scenery, sensing the wind on your face, but hei, you're not the fucken driver! did you know that?