Make life more positive

[beatlemantis]

How do I get rid of the urge to play into my old, negative habits? (i.e. masturbation, junk food, mindless TV and YouTube video reruns, and overall time wasting) I want to spend more time creatively, cooking more healthy food, spending time with friends, focusing on my studies and watching more mindful films.  When I get an urge to do these things, however, I feel weirdly guilty. It's as if I'm realizing I could have been doing these things all along, and once I hit that feeling I start distracting myself with my old habits once again. 

I just want to be rid of them for good - I've gotten relief from them for months at a time, but now I'm just sick of them. Any advice or videos I should refer to to change my mindset? 

[Ether]

Plan it for long term.Its going to take time and perseverence.

[PsiloPutty]

Sounds like you're saying and thinking, "Fuck it....I've been doing things wrong for so long that it's too late to make a new choice." 

You've already outlined for yourself what you need to do in order to change your behavior and thinking.....you just need to implement it for a long enough time that you can start to see the benefits. After that, it will become a less effortful habit. For the time being, you have to dig deep and fuel yourself on the dedication of doing something good for yourself. You already know what to do.

[pluto]

The reflection in the mirror will not smile unless you smile first Welcome to the Universe.