6 months to awaken !

[Shin]

Habit to quit this month: Junk Food/desserts/treats etc...

Habit to create this month: 2 hours meditation/1 hour self-enquiry

 

• Did I read today ? Yes
• Did I meditated 2 hours ? Yes
• Did I self-enquire for 1 hour ? Yes
• Did I walked/been in nature 4 hours ? No, only 1 hour (snowy weather)
  What did I do instead ? Creating this journal/Working on a thread to share on AC

 

What do I want in life ?

• Enlightenment
• Unconditional love
• Being a benevolent force
• Deep intimacy in a long term relationship

 

Goal of the year: Having a deep awakening.

 

Habits that I want to create this year: 

• Krav Maga
• Kundalini Yoga
• Total Change of diet
• Workout and/or Swimming
• Impro and/or Communication skill

 

 

 

Edited March 1, 2018 by Shin

[Shin]

On 01/03/2018 at 10:04 PM, Shin said:

Habit to quit this month: Junk Food/desserts/treats etc...

Habit to create this month: 2 hours meditation/1 hour self-enquiry

 

• Quote

   

  • Did I eat shit ? Yes, a pain au chocolat, one pretzel and one pizza.
  • Did I read today ? Yes
  • Did I meditated 2 hours ? Yes
  • Did I self-enquire for 1 hour ? Yes
  • Did I walked/been in nature 4 hours ? No, only 1 hour (colder than yesterday)
    What did I do instead ? Working on a thread to share on AC/reading again the chapter of today

   

   

What do I want in life ?

• Enlightenment
• Unconditional love
• Being a benevolent force
• Deep intimacy in a long term relationship

 

Goal of the year: Having a deep awakening.

 

Habits that I want to create this year: 

• Krav Maga
• Kundalini Yoga
• Total Change of diet
• Workout and/or Swimming
• Impro and/or Communication skill

 

 

Great stuff happened, for the first time in my life I was to feel that feeling which is called "love".
Only lasted for 3 seconds or so, but now I know I can feel it !
I thought I was aromantic, which means I thought It was impossible to feel such thing .

 

 

Edited March 2, 2018 by Shin

[Shin]

On 01/03/2018 at 10:04 PM, Shin said:

Habit to quit this month: Junk Food (Fast Food, Pizzas, large meal), allowed one mid afternoon snack and one dessert at night.

Knew I'd probably had to back off on something, let's hope it doesn't go any further 

Habit to create this month: 2 hours meditation/1 hour self-enquiry

 

On 01/03/2018 at 10:04 PM, Shin said:

• Quote

   

  • Did I eat shit ? Yes, one pretzel.
  • Did I read today ? Yes
  • Did I meditated 2 hours ? Yes
  • Did I self-enquire for 1 hour ? Yes
  • Did I walked/been in nature 4 hours ? No, only 2 hour (still snowy)
    What did I do instead ? Filled Onenote with great quotes/Created a stupid post 

   

   

 

[NoSelfSelf]

You swim? Did you realize that kicking in swimming is same as in martial arts :D?

[Ether]

@Shin Dude I advise you to not create goals. Why? I dont want to explain it. Just create only the goals that are necessary for you. Dont make everything in a goal, just 2 or 3

 

When you say you have 6 months to awaken you are putting unecessary pressure on yourself (if i dont awaken it will be bad).

But what if turns out better if you suffer more? Then you gain more experience!

Edited March 3, 2018 by Ether
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[Shin]

On 01/03/2018 at 10:04 PM, Shin said:

Habit to quit this month: Pizzas, fast foods, sodas, large meal.

Habit to create this month: 2 hours meditation/1 hour self-enquiry

 

On 01/03/2018 at 10:04 PM, Shin said:

• Did i eat shit ? No
• Did I read today ? Yes
• Did I meditated 2 hours ? Yes
• Did I self-enquire for 1 hour ? Yes
• Did I walked/been in nature 4 hours ? No, only 2,5 hour (still no sun ? )
  What did I do instead  ? Harrassing Natasha until she accept his fate ?

What do I want in life ?

• Enlightenment
• Unconditional love
• Being a benevolent force
• Deep intimacy in a long term relationship

 

Goal of the year: Having a deep awakening.

 

Habits that I want to create this year: 

• Krav Maga
• Kundalini Yoga
• Total Change of diet
• Workout and/or Swimming
• Impro and/or Communication skill

[Shin]

23 hours ago, NoSelfSelf said:

You swim? Did you realize that kicking in swimming is same as in martial arts :D?

I did for some weeks one year ago, best sport ever, your sweat goes away immediatly, since, you know, you're in water ... 

[sarapr]

@Shin Nice that you finally started your journal . I suppose you wanted to for a long time right?

[Shin]

Just now, sarapr said:

@Shin Nice that you finally started your journal . I suppose you wanted to for a long time right?

Yes, but I was too lazy to actually do real stuff, so I waited until I got enough balls ???

[sarapr]

Congrats . how do you actually do 2 hours of meditation. That's nearly impossible for me. Last time I did an hour and it was laborious as fuck

[Shin]

11 minutes ago, sarapr said:

Congrats . how do you actually do 2 hours of meditation. That's nearly impossible for me. Last time I did an hour and it was laborious as fuck

It is laborious.

When I'm not in the «zone» I want to quit every 5 minutes. It's just that I know all the excuses I will say, since I was such a slug, and I just don't listen to it anymore.

Do you take a train or a subway or something ?

If you do, just close your eyes and listen to sounds around you. You have to do that commute anyway, so your mind doesn't use the «waste of time argument» there ?

[sarapr]

11 minutes ago, Shin said:

It is laborious.

When I'm not in the «zone» I want to quit every 5 minutes. It's just that I know all the excuses I will say, since I was such a slug, and I just don't listen to it anymore.

Do you take a train or a subway or something ?

If you do, just close your eyes and listen to sounds around you. You have to do that commute anyway, so your mind doesn't use the «waste of time argument» there ?

Haha that's not one of my arguments . I like wasting time 

[Shin]

1 minute ago, sarapr said:

Haha that's not one of my arguments . I like wasting time 

So you're lying in your journal ? ?

To add a bit to it, whenever you desire to quit comes, it's actually one of the best moment of the meditation cause it's when you can catch the ego at full speed.

If you know that, then you would actually want to continue, you just have to be passive and very alert at the same time when it happens ?

[sarapr]

1 minute ago, Shin said:

So you're lying in your journal ? ?

To add a bit to it, whenever you desire to quit comes, it's actually one of the best moment of the meditation cause it's when you can catch the ego at full speed.

If you know that, then you would actually want to continue, you just have to be passive and very alert at the same time when it happens ?

Which part of my journal would be considered a lie?  it's perfectly aligned 

[Shin]

Just now, sarapr said:

Which part of my journal would be considered a lie?  it's perfectly aligned 

I say that because you were pretty productive the last time I checked ☺

[sarapr]

Yeah but still love to waste time whenever I can afford it 

[Shin]

7 minutes ago, sarapr said:

Yeah but still love to waste time whenever I can afford it 

It's not wasting time if you enjoy it ?

Btw I almost feel like your smile emojis aren't sarcastic now, I'm proud ?

Edited March 4, 2018 by Shin

[sgn]

On 2018-03-01 at 10:04 PM, Shin said:

Goal of the year: Having a deep awakening.

By having this as a goal will it make you work harder towards it or what?
Seemed kinda strange when it's not in your control?

[Shin]

6 minutes ago, sgn said:

By having this as a goal will it make you work harder towards it or what?
Seemed kinda strange when it's not in your control?

I worded it like that to be funny (the title)

This is true to the extent that I will take 5-meo if nothing happens.

Even though it would be nice to awaken, I have no idea what's gonna happen.

I'm determined though, nothing else matter anymore to me.

Edited March 5, 2018 by Shin

[sgn]