Forgetting about your hard past

[Martimo90]

Hello

I am 27, and for last 7 years my life is only troubles and problems. I have been through hard diseases, was involved into stupid things which changes the way you see world, I had many mental shocks and nervous breakdown, I was healed by healer from India (which actually help a bit but then I was crazy) and my life for last 7 years was only weird weird adventures. Through that period of time I didnt have any friend of family member who I am talking with honestly, and in details about my problems, telling whats up, talking about things on a deep level. Currently I perceive my past as so strange, weird bizarre, I am so different than every other guy in my age, and my past is holding me back. It is so strange that I can not tell about it to anyone. Combination of these strange things is enormous. If I were to tell about it average guy would be like "what? this is impossible? what? this is not true? what? that can not happen" and because of that I can not tell my story to anyone, it caused me a lot of troubles, it changed my live and it is very very hard to forget about it. And this is my target - how to forget about it? How not to tell anybody about it, and just be cool about it even though it changes my life forever into very worse version? how to move on and let go of past?

[Saumaya]

You can always change. Past was in the now just like right now. You can change right now. As far as memories goes, contemplate that the memories belong to nobody but are just bundle of perceptions with meanings put together.

Hope this helps

[MisterMan]

Will you still be haunted by this in 10 years time? Limiting your potential to live?

It appears too much value is placed on the past. Value's impact the way you feel and relate to the world, how you judge yourself. And you just accept it to be true because of how you first interpreted a situation.

Power lies in understanding what values you hold, and realising the interdependant nature of the seed and the tree (what you value and how you feel). 

 A few things i'd suggest 

*take psychedelics respectfully with pure intention and good safe setting

* journal shit down, and really start looking into the "shadow" part of the self, where you can't accept parts of yourself due to certain beliefs, 

*meditate

*when in higher states from whatever it is, observe without judgement (very important)

*Realise that the very same judgements you project onto the world also imprisons you.  Observe your emotional reactions. Give them time in the sun, let them express themselves with the intention of listening to a distressed child, you are just listening, not judging.

*when the time comes to cry or let go of yourself you know you're in the right place and go for it, so when you do this stuff if it helps to be alone then be alone, unless you're taking psychedelics and are unfamiliar with the territory which i would advise against.

*Learn to love yourself, hate, anger, jealousy, all come from a good place, they want what's right for you, they just don't know any better. Love those parts, appreciate them because at some point in time when you developed those things they may have served their purpose. But letting them control or dictate your life is another matter.

This is what i have come across doing this work that i hope may be helpful. It may not be directly related to your concerns but the mind is a series of  inter connections all inter related to each other.

Realising this belief you hold of yourself is a perspective you accepted at some point in time due to your interpretation of one or many circumstances. You see this as proof to hold onto whatever belief you have, but is it really?

@Saumaya says it pretty well. The wisdom will come in applying certain techniques and and experience will be the driver. We can point you in the right direction but you have to go it on your own. Like we all do. 

Good luck!

Edited February 23, 2018 by MisterMan