I did my own letting go technique and this happened

[Ether]

So, for the last 2 years i did the conscious breath technique but for some reason it was not working. I was always focusing on the breath but the thoughts rarely settle down.

 

But just 30 minutes ago, when i did this technique i understood why it wasnt working. I was doing a form of trying to run away from the thought, like I didnt want to have it, so i focused on my breath. But i wasnt really accepting, it was a form of "conscious supperssion" (label owned by me, haha).

 

So, for some reason, I just let everything go. I just watched my body and thoughts. If my mind wanted to pop up horrific thoughts, I let it. If my body wants to move or contract my belly, I let it happen.

 

I thought it didnt work, but 10 minutes later, I noticed a change. The stream of negative thinking was a lot lower. Less worries, less thoughts, less everything.

 

I dont feel super relaxed. My body feels the same, i dont feel pleasure, im still numb. But i got one thing I wanted, a more still mind.

 

Skkrt, skkrt.

[starsofclay]

I struggle with the same... never really liked meditating because my thoughts just race and race (although I recently purchased a muse headband for meditating and it is helping a lot). I've tried the do-nothing meditation, which sounds a lot like what you said you tried, and it is still hard for me to let go. Congrats that you were able to! 

[Ether]

1 minute ago, starsofclay said:

I struggle with the same... never really liked meditating because my thoughts just race and race (although I recently purchased a muse headband for meditating and it is helping a lot). I've tried the do-nothing meditation, which sounds a lot like what you said you tried, and it is still hard for me to let go. Congrats that you were able to! 

thank you, in this latest technique, you just literally got to surrender to everything. Everything, no matter what.

[tsuki]

1 hour ago, Ether said:

I dont feel super relaxed. My body feels the same, i dont feel pleasure, im still numb. But i got one thing I wanted, a more still mind.

Just wait and see what happens when you let go when you're super stressed out. Try that some time in the future.

Edited February 20, 2018 by tsuki