Self actualizing at the same time working out of self deception

[John Iverson]

How could i be possibly do that? Imean... the values i get from the books i read.. in 7 habits by Stephen Covey for example proactivity.. i absorbed it to my ego and used that as "I" as a value.. for success... because of that i create a self deception.. a self that doesn't exist at all and an illusion.. i see that to be purified of having a deception is to let go of the "I" , concepts and belief, but in self actualization  i must stand what learn In the books i read... i'm confuse.. i'm purifying myself at the sametime i eat a deception? Wth

Edited February 3, 2018 by John Iverson