I'm Dying,please,i need to speak to someone

[Vlad Ropotica]

I'm dying ,it's too much ,too much suffering ,if  i'm not dying i'll kill myself ,it's soo much , i meditated too much ,too much ,i'm going mad , I'm not sure if i can take the life anymore 

[Vlad Ropotica]

my only hope is that i'll experience the same thing as eckhart tolle  ,but i already experienced ego death several times last week,i'm not sure if it'll ever be permanent

[Gabriel Antonio]

Take a break

[Vlad Ropotica]

I Can't ,if i sit i meditate without trying, it's impossible,i'll die ,it's too much,i'm constantly watching movies and the intensity of suffering is still the same

[Shin]

Or go deeper and see what your madness is hiding.

The pain won't stop unless you let it flow willingly.

Edited January 30, 2018 by Shin

[Vlad Ropotica]

@Shin it tempts me ,i've gone completely mad with my exercise and i'ts impossible to turn back

[Shin]

1 minute ago, Vlad Ropotica said:

@Shin it tempts me ,i've gone completely mad with my exercise and i'ts impossible to turn back

Then don't try to, die in your meditation.

Edited January 30, 2018 by Shin

[Sahil Pandit]

Is this a real convo?? 

[Vlad Ropotica]

@Sahil Pandit convo?

 

[Vlad Ropotica]

@Shin not sure which one will come faster,the knife or the meditation

[Shin]

1 minute ago, Vlad Ropotica said:

@Shin not sure which one will come faster,the knife or the meditation

Don't use the knife, just meditate.

If you have to die, let it be natural.

 

Edited January 30, 2018 by Shin

[Faceless]

40 minutes ago, Vlad Ropotica said:

my only hope is that i'll experience the same thing as eckhart tolle  ,but i already experienced ego death several times last week,i'm not sure if it'll ever be permanent

For a long time if not for ever one must constantly watch his own sensations, thoughts, and feelings. We have to protect ourselves from the movements of the self “thought” all the time. Like an animal in its environment has to constantly be aware of danger to survive. It’s the same way with thought and the self.

hang in there?

instead of meditating, controlling and suppressing learn about thought “the self” there one in the same. 

Good luck friend??

[Sahil Pandit]

@Vlad Ropotica Are you really dying from meditating? This is horrifying to hear about

[Shin]

3 minutes ago, Sahil Pandit said:

@Vlad Ropotica Are you really dying from meditating? This is horrifying to hear about

His ego is, and he thinks he is it.

So yeah it feels like dying

You guys should hear Leo more carefully, he isn't joking !

Edited January 30, 2018 by Shin

[Vlad Ropotica]

@Shin you think i'll have ego death? the pain is madening ,i'n this case i can't wait to die

[Shin]

1 minute ago, Vlad Ropotica said:

@Shin you think i'll have ego death? the pain is madening ,i'n this case i can't wait to die

You said you fear to meditate and have a constant need to distract yourself.

What do you think that implies ?

[Faceless]

@Vlad Ropotica

Use your sorrow, pain, suffering to fuel your self inquiry. Don’t escape through thought projection of becoming this or that. That’s an escape form the sorrow. 

Stay with this pain and suffering friend. Watch yourself while this is happening. This is self learning. This is essential. 

Edited January 30, 2018 by Faceless

[Vlad Ropotica]

@Shin did you encounter experiences like this? even if you encourage me there are high chances i'll die anyway

[Vlad Ropotica]

2 minutes ago, Shin said:

You said you fear to meditate and have a constant need to distract yourself.

What do you think that implies ?

no ,i didn't say that,whatever i do i despair

[Shin]

Just now, Vlad Ropotica said:

no ,i didn't say that,whatever i do i despair

4 minutes ago, Vlad Ropotica said:

@Shin

Search «The dark knight of the soul» on google.