Suffering helped me evolve towards enlightenment

[Vlad Ropotica]

I never give up on meditation , all these three years i never wanted to admit that meditation made my suffering increase(i've been meditating every day for more than an hour,and now i spend time meditating more than everything else) , but this just makes everything better.Yesterday i just couldn't sleep,i experience so much suffering that i couldn't even think well,screaming ,punching the pillow...and then i remembered the experience that eckhart tolle had, and started to wonder about that ,and realized that what made him experience enlightenment was an intense emotion , i began to sat crosslegged and started to meditate ,it made my emotions worse,and that's what i intended ,and after a couple of minutes ,i saw and felt all my body as being as not being mine anymore,couldn't see any difference between my arm and other objects,i felt completely shocked and i could see every single thought that ''I '' had without any attachment to it , and then it was like i lost all my willing to defend my body, and this gave me a huge feeling of calmness,this lasted for 4 to 6 hours. 

INCREDIBLE : i always wanted to get rid of my intense negative emotions because i thought that they actually destroy my benefits from meditation ,but they actually increased in intensity during meditation , and in a good sense ,i never imagined that it will come to this, today i exerienced two more times the same experience as yesterday ,it feels like i will get massive benefits because of this.