By okulele
in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God,
I am excited to be writing my first post on this forum! I have been a passive visitor for a long time, but today I had an interesting insight, that I thought would be worth sharing. Here I go then, wish me luck!
It was about 9 PM, when I took 200mcg of LSD. I seated myself in my armchair, made myself comfortable and cozy and waited for the show to start. It took about 30 minutes, for things to start changing. I was pleasantly present as the observer, letting all the energy and visions pass by me. Everything was in a flow and going very smoothly. I decided to lie down and open up even more. Still, a constant movement of energy, very enjoyable...
Aaaaand, STOP!
It all stopped in a flash. I was very confused, not knowing what is going on. My body, just a second ago full of emotion and vibration, was now completely life-less and blank. I did not feel bad or unpleasant, I was simply cut of from experience.
After taking a seat again, I consciously started putting attention back into my body, starting at the feet. Immediately I felt energy coming back in, without which my life was like a dead thing. My attention stopped somewhere in my lower part of the body. A huge obstacle was uncovered there, but once seen was easily focused on and released. I am guessing that is what some would call The Second Chakra.
With the release came an intense feeling of energy, stemming from the ground and above all from the area around my testicles. Where there was no life just a moment ago, now it was overflowing with an unimaginable richness to it. My vision got sharp and I could easily distinguish objects in the dim room.
I grabbed a notebook lying just beside me feeling a deep need to create and express this glorious energy. I started drawing. This was a different kind of drawing than I have ever done before. It felt like energy from my testicles was going directly through my arm into the pen and was itself creating this masterpiece. Again, I was comfortable situated as the observer, seeing my body creating this beauty.
I came up with this:
Art = Fun = Freeing of sexual energy = Unknown
This equation perfectly sums up a moments insight that was revealed to me, meaning:
Art is just having fun, which comes as a result of letting your sexual energy go wild and do its thing. The person doesn't have the central role in this process, he just stays in the zone - Unknown. Open, curious and willing to let anything happen.
A simple process for creating art, having fun and staying healthy by letting your energies flow, that I came up with:
Connect to your sexual energy.
feel your balls (or the female sexual organs I guess)
Have a piece of paper in front of you.
Channel this energy through your body into any form it likes.
TIP! Believe, that amazing things can come out of you.
In this energy free-flow state ideas and art come.
I think, this is also the way to do proper contemplation.
I think, this is what Leo meant by sitting down and doing nothing - letting the energies flow. I thought I understood this simple process, but until this day I actually did not. I clearly see now, how many of the principles shared by Leo are only grasped on the surface level of my mind
So my call to all of you, dear fellow Actualizers, is:
Drop your control and desires from time to time! Go, be bored! Have fun, do silly things, let your spontaneity take care of life for a minute! And this way, make room for new ideas and perspectives.
Have fun in this process of self-improvement.